Chapter 9 – Need
"James..." she whispered, her eyes still partly shut.
"Yes?" he asked in a husky voice.
Lily's eyes flickered open, "I'm so sorry!" she said and she jumped up and out of James' embrace.
James was shocked, "What is going on?" he thought.
"Sorry for what?" he asked.
Lily started wringing her hands nervously and shuffling from side to side, "Um...for throwing myself at you like that. I don't want you to get the wrong idea."
James suddenly felt like he was carrying 200 pounds in the pit of his stomach.
"Oh..." he said and started to fiddle with the alarm clock on his bed side table.
"James, I'm sorry, I just needed someone, and you were the one that was there."
James suddenly started to feel very angry, "How can she play me like this?" he thought.
"Look Lily," he said loudly, "I don't know if you've realized just how much I care for you. And you think that you can just toy with my emotions like that? I try to make you feel better and you end up kissing me and saying that it meant nothing? How can you do that to me?"
Lily looked upset again, her eyes were filled with unshed tears.
"I'm sorry, I just wasn't thinking."
James got up and walked over to her so he was just inches away from her.
"Yeah, well that's a first! Little miss Perfect Head Girl Evans wasn't thinking! You're damn right you weren't thinking! Did you have any thought going through that pretty red head of yours as to what I was feeling? Do you have any idea how long I've wanted to kiss you? How many nights I haven't been able to sleep because I couldn't get your face out of my head? DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU?" he shouted.
James gasped inwardly at what he had heard himself say. He turned around and quickly sat down on the bed with his head in his hands.
After a minute of silence, James heard Lily step towards him and felt her sit down on the bed beside him. She placed her tiny, delicate hands on his knee.
"James? Do you really mean that?" she asked almost in a whisper.
James could feel a single tear escape his closed eyes and trickle down his cheek. He quickly wiped it away.
"Yes Lily, I do."
"James, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do this. It's just that I don't want to get hurt..."
James looked up at her, "Lily, I would never hurt you, ever! You have to believe me. I just want to be with you...I love you."
Lily smiled, "You want to be with me? You want to be in a serious relationship?"
"More than anything..."
Lily held his face in her hands and looked into his eyes, "I want to be with you too."
James heart leaped and a large smile spread across his face. The next thing he knew he was being pulled into another kiss...
"James..." she whispered, her eyes still partly shut.
"Yes?" he asked in a husky voice.
Lily's eyes flickered open, "I'm so sorry!" she said and she jumped up and out of James' embrace.
James was shocked, "What is going on?" he thought.
"Sorry for what?" he asked.
Lily started wringing her hands nervously and shuffling from side to side, "Um...for throwing myself at you like that. I don't want you to get the wrong idea."
James suddenly felt like he was carrying 200 pounds in the pit of his stomach.
"Oh..." he said and started to fiddle with the alarm clock on his bed side table.
"James, I'm sorry, I just needed someone, and you were the one that was there."
James suddenly started to feel very angry, "How can she play me like this?" he thought.
"Look Lily," he said loudly, "I don't know if you've realized just how much I care for you. And you think that you can just toy with my emotions like that? I try to make you feel better and you end up kissing me and saying that it meant nothing? How can you do that to me?"
Lily looked upset again, her eyes were filled with unshed tears.
"I'm sorry, I just wasn't thinking."
James got up and walked over to her so he was just inches away from her.
"Yeah, well that's a first! Little miss Perfect Head Girl Evans wasn't thinking! You're damn right you weren't thinking! Did you have any thought going through that pretty red head of yours as to what I was feeling? Do you have any idea how long I've wanted to kiss you? How many nights I haven't been able to sleep because I couldn't get your face out of my head? DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU?" he shouted.
James gasped inwardly at what he had heard himself say. He turned around and quickly sat down on the bed with his head in his hands.
After a minute of silence, James heard Lily step towards him and felt her sit down on the bed beside him. She placed her tiny, delicate hands on his knee.
"James? Do you really mean that?" she asked almost in a whisper.
James could feel a single tear escape his closed eyes and trickle down his cheek. He quickly wiped it away.
"Yes Lily, I do."
"James, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do this. It's just that I don't want to get hurt..."
James looked up at her, "Lily, I would never hurt you, ever! You have to believe me. I just want to be with you...I love you."
Lily smiled, "You want to be with me? You want to be in a serious relationship?"
"More than anything..."
Lily held his face in her hands and looked into his eyes, "I want to be with you too."
James heart leaped and a large smile spread across his face. The next thing he knew he was being pulled into another kiss...