As Emma was walking with Chris to go to his house, she couldn't help but think about Sean. "We broke up, why does he still have this effect on me?" She couldn't dare say that to Chris because she really didn't want him to know that in some deep down place in heart she still had feelings for Sean. She kept thinking about the old days when they were happy when Chris interrupted her thoughts.
"We're here. You want to order a pizza and watch a movie or something?" Emma smiled but not because of the gesture. She was smiling because that's what she and Sean did on the weekends. Halfway through the movie, they would be all over each other and she didn't even care if Tracker was in the other room. But she shook away that thought and looked back at Chris who was looking back at her.
"Sure I'd like that. What kind of pizza?" Even Chris noticed that she was thinking of something or someone else. "Do you want pepperoni?" "Yeah that's good." She wished he didn't say pepperoni. "That's what we would order…Wait! Why am I thinking of him? We broke up!"
Chris went to order the pizza and looked back at Emma. "What is she thinking about? It's probably about Slim Shady. Great!" Chris came back and noticed Emma sitting on the couch so he went to go sit next to her. "It should be here in 20 minutes. Do you want to start a movie or something?" Chris couldn't believe it, for once he was nervous but he didn't know why. "Okay what should we watch?"
Chris went over to the stack of DVD's next to the TV. "Um…how about we watch Anger Management?" Emma gave him a skeptical look so he continued to search for a movie. "Okay found it." He took out the CD and placed it in the DVD player. "What are we watching?" Chris smiled, "It's a surprise, now pay attention." Emma just looked at him and giggled.
For some reason she felt really uncomfortable sitting so close to Chris and watching a movie, so she excused herself and went to the bathroom. "Why am I uncomfortable? This is Chris here! Okay, just relax Emma." She kept trying to calm herself down but it was no use. Then it finally dawned on her that this was just like being at Sean's on a Saturday night and she couldn't handle that. It almost felt as if she was cheating by doing the same things the she and he would do.
"Hey I was wondering what happened? The pizza's here" Chris knew by looking at her that something just wasn't right. "I'm not feeling too good, I'm going to go home okay?" Emma felt bad about lying to Chris but she just had to get out of there. "Okay. Are you going to be alright?" The sad look that was on Chris' face hurt Emma but she didn't want to screw up their relationship because she couldn't let Sean go. "Yeah I'll be fine. I'll call you later okay?" "Yeah that's cool." Chris didn't know what else to say. He just wished that she would tell him the truth.
Emma walked down the steps of Chris' house and started to make her way home when she saw Sean. He was playing basketball at the park by himself. She figured it was time to finally let him go, so she made her way over there and faced her fear.
"Sean, can I talk to you for a second?" Emma noticed that she kind of caught him off guard because he looked shocked to see her and even more shocked that she didn't yell at him. "Yeah, but one thing…" Emma looked puzzled. "Promise you won't rip my head off." Emma smiled and hit him lightly on the arm. "Yeah I promise." They walked over to a bench and sat down. Emma couldn't help but notice his six-pack. "Wait! That's not what I'm here for!"
"I was hanging out at Chris' house and we were going to watch a movie but I couldn't do it, so I left." It was clear that Sean didn't understand. "Wait, back up. What do you mean you couldn't do it?" Emma knew this next part wouldn't be easy but she had to say it. "I couldn't watch a movie and eat pizza with him because for some weird reason it didn't feel right." She didn't wait for him to respond and continued on. "It felt weird to be doing something with Chris that I did with you because it's like a sacred thing with us and I didn't want to ruin it." She was trying so hard to hold back the tears that were forming in her eyes but she just couldn't.
Sean just sat there and listened to her pure all her thoughts and emotions at him and couldn't help but smile. He thought that she didn't give a shit about him after all the stuff that went down between them. She was waiting for him to say something and he seemed to be zoning out. "Sean! Are you even listening to me?" Sean snapped out of the trance he was in. "Yeah I'm listening. I just don't know what to say" She kept crying and it was just Sean's immediate reaction to put an arm around her and hold her.
Emma thought she came to say goodbye to Sean, but as she was sitting there cuddling with him; she finally realized that she didn't need to throw away their relationship. Maybe she just needed to sit back and wait for it to bloom again.