I know this isn't something Emma would do, but who cares, it's my story. You'll see how it comes into play later. (FlaweDnBrokeN)
When Sean finally let go of Emma's hand, she had to take a minute to look around and find some kind of significance. Sean just stared at her while she tried to figure out where she was. It was in the woods near the ravine and then a light bulb went off in Emma's head. She just smiled and punched him in the arm. "Ha-ha, very funny." Sean began to put his stuff down and said, "Yeah I thought it was." Emma just gave him a look and put her book bag down.
"So this is where we going to each lunch for the rest of the year?" Sean knew that Emma was right, eventually they would have to eat with the people that went to Degrassi, but for now, this would have to do and he wasn't complaining. Emma sat down and started to eat her lunch, when she noticed that Sean was staring at her. She put her sandwich down and wiped her hands on her napkin, "Stare much?" Sean just laughed at her, and went back to eating his chips.
Emma finally broke the silence, and asked him, "Sean, you don't drink anymore do you?" Sean almost choked on his dorito, "What…?" Emma saw the look in his eyes and decided that she should just drop it. It was nothing, never mind." Sean put his chips down and looked at her, "Em, its okay to ask me, you just caught me off guard." Emma sighed and looked at him, waiting for an answer. Sean looked at the ground and then back up at her, "I haven't drank anything in two weeks, and I'm trying." Emma just smiled, "That's really good Sean, I'm proud of you." Sean gave her a kiss on the cheek and began to pack up his stuff.
Sean was ready to go back and noticed that Emma hadn't moved at all or began to pack up her stuff. Sean looked at his watch and then looked over at Emma. "Em, we only have five minutes to get back." Emma gave him a pleading look, "Do we have to go back?" Sean looked shocked. Emma Nelson wanted to ditch class. Wow, this was definitely a first. "Of course not, we can do whatever." Emma just sighed, "Sean, I have to tell you something." Sean didn't like the way that sounded and immediately got scared. "What's that matter Em?" Emma didn't know how to say this, the only person she told was her mom and her therapist, but she knew that she couldn't keep it from Sean.
Sean was waiting and was almost beginning to lose his patience but he couldn't force it out of her, but by the way she was stalling, he knew whatever she was going to say couldn't be good. "After we broke up, and after Manny and I stopped talking, I began to feel like an outcast and that's the way people treated me. I got really depressed and really angry at almost everybody and there were times when the pain was almost unbearable. And only way I could deal with it was to cut myself. When Emma said those words, Sean wasn't even blinking anymore.
When he realized that she stopped talking, "Em, it's okay. Your getting help right?" Emma sighed in relief, "Yeah I'm getting help but I just wanted you to know in case you ever saw the scars. Sean couldn't believe that Emma, the embodiment of a perfect teenage girl, had become depressed and had cut herself. "Em, I just want you to be okay, and don't think that I'm going to judge you and think you're a bad person." Emma eyes started to tear up. "When Tracker was a teenager, he used to cut himself because of all the stress and pain he went through, but he got himself help and he dealt with it. I would never think less of you just because you cut yourself."
Emma started to cry, she didn't understand that Sean could be so understanding, but it made her feel really good that he was on her side and knew what she was going through. When she stopped crying, she looked at him and laughed, "I bet you think I'm a real basket case huh?" Sean smiled, "Yeah, but my basket case." Sean looked at her and knew he had to ask, "You don't do it anymore do you?" Emma sighed and showed him her ankle, which had semi-fresh cut marks on it. Sean just looked at the scars, "Em, please stop, okay?" Emma smiled, "I'm trying. It's not easy to give up something so addictive." Sean just looked at her, "Yeah no kidding."
Emma gave him a kiss and looked at his watch, it read 2:15. Emma panicked; she had to get back without being caught and get her books from her locker and then meet Manny. "Sean, we have to get back, I promised I would talk with Manny after school." Sean was shocked. "I thought you and Manny weren't talking." "We're not; she came up to me and asked if we could talk after school, so I said yeah." Sean laughed, "Alright, well we better if we're going to make it back."
They began to make their way back to school and as soon as they entered the hallway the bell rang, they both had to hurry and get their stuff without be seen by a teacher. They both made it back outside, and when Emma looked around her, she noticed Manny sitting on the curb, waiting. This was going to be fun.