My Dearest John,

This letter is the hardest thing I have ever had to do, except for leaving you... but I had no other choice in the matter, since what I am about to tell you... you are not going to like and I am hoping that when you read this, you can forgive me.

John, I have not been totally honest with you. My name is Alanna Richardson, but it is Special Agent Alanna Richardson of the Federal Bureau of Investigations. That is right my love, I am a FBI agent and I was assigned to be your bodyguard and protect you from Jack "The Snake" Hart. I had been a bodyguard for the first lady, and since you would not have suspected me of being an agent we decided that I would go undercover as your "manager" so I could keep my eye out for Hart and made sure nothing happened to you.

I thought everything was going great, but then we shared that kiss in the locker room... I did not count on that happening between us. Then there was that attempt on your life a week later and I brought you to my apartment to talk about it. You see, I knew that Hart was after you, but what I needed to know was how much you knew about it. I knew about you and Dawn Marie, as well as Dawn Marie's past, but I did know the name of her husband since the source I had was killed during our meeting. So when you told me about you and Dawn, I was trying to find out if you knew who Dawn's husband was... but you did not know.

Do you remembered when I told you about Jason? You see, he was also an FBI agent, in fact he was my partner before he got killed... by his brother... Jack Hart. You did not read wrong, Jason and Jack are brothers, in fact they were twins. Yes that means I am Jack's sister-in-law... but Jason changed his last name to Richardson after Jack became who he was. I knew how Jason died because... I was there. You see there was a drug bust that Jason and I were involved it. While there was shooting Jay went after the head boss, then went I went outside, I heard the gunshot and tried to run as fast as I could, but it was too late. Jason was dying and there was nothing I could do, so he died right in my arms. And when I looked up, I saw Jack Hart with his sadistic smile on his face knowing he had killed his own brother. I had vowed then and there I would get the justice that was deserved.

And then John, when you told me you were in love with me... I was scared. I wanted to tell you then and there that I was an agent, so you would hate me and I could get my case done... but when I looked into your eyes, something changed in me. The case was no longer important and you made me feel something that I had not felt in a very long time... I felt love. When I said I love you too, I meant it with my heart and soul... and that night, it was a truly beautiful night. It was the first time since Jason died that I knew I was truly loved and nothing was going to ruin the moment.

But that next morning, when I told you I was going to an autograph session... it was another lie. You see that morning Agent Lopez called me to tell me that Dawn Marie came out of hiding to help us bring down Dawn's husband and Hart. So I went to the offices and talked with Dawn Marie. It turned out she was married to Michael Trevolani, a big mob boss in New York. She wanted to do this because she wanted you to be happy, and so she could begin the new chapter in her life with her new husband and the child she was carrying. So that next day after I brought you to the airport, we busted down Trevolani, so the next part was getting Hart.

So when the PPV had finally arrived, I knew that was the moment of truth to coming, but when I realized this, my first thought was... you. I did not know how I was going to say goodbye to you, let alone tell you the truth. Originally I was just going to disappear and not say anything, but I could not do it. I loved you too much to abandon you like that, so I had to rethink how I was going to say goodbye. As your match was going on, I was rooting for you, but at the same time keeping my eyes out for Hart, and when you won that title, I was so happy for you, I forgot for a moment that I was a FBI agent and that someone was after you. Then I saw that red dot on your chest, and I knew that Hart had his shot, so I took that bullet for you. Only thing was, that wound I sustained, was not real, I was wearing a bulletproof vest, but we had to make it look real so you would not get suspicious. Hart was in the Titantron, so I had some of the agents go after him while I was on my way to the hospital.

The reason they would not let you ride with me to the hospital was because those EMTs that were helping me, were fellow agents, including my boss. I had found out that we did not get Hart, I was so pissed, I could not believe that I failed getting him. Just when I thought all was lost, suddenly it came to me. I knew how I to get Hart... I would have to fake my death. I knew that Hart would always got to his victim's graves and taunt. So I had not choice but to fake my death, I wish I did not have to, since it would put you through so much pain. It was the only way I could get Hart, so I had to do it. That is right John, I am not dead, I am very much alive and kicking. Like I had thought Hart came to my grave and taunted me, but I got the final laugh, since I finally got Jack "The Snake" Hart to go to prison.

John, I just want you to know that I am SO sorry for all of this. I wish I had met you under different circumstances, but I do not regret meeting you... or loving you. John you made me stop guarding my heart, and you made me believe in love again. John I love you with my heart and soul, but I know that you probably hate me right now since you are finding out who I really am. If you never want to see me again, I completely understand, but I just want you to know, I will never be complete until the day I have you back in my life. Until the day I see you again...

Love Always,

Alanna Richardson