Authors note. PLEASE READ
Hi, firstly I would like to apologize because this part is again un-betad. I have written it about a week ago and haven't heard from my beta since then. I really appreciate you reading my story, especially in this state, because I know I am not a very good writer and let's confess, my spelling and grammar sucks. (. Then again THANKS TO ALL MY REVIEWERS I LOVE YOU ALL. ChancingFate – yes a rapist. You will find out more about it in this chapter. Jultz and DracofutureBF – 1000 thanks, it's always nice to get a review. I would like you to tell me what you would like from this story, because I have many ideas and I am not sure which one's I should use. Vote for Harry pairings.
A week has passed since Dawn's miraculous waking up. The girl was back at classes at last. She was very grateful for all the notes Hermione made because she knew there was no way she could pass anything without them. Dawn tried to focus at her lessons so she wouldn't think about Severus so much but it seemed that the professor has occupied all her thoughts. Dawn looked at the Potions essay she was writing and sighted. Halloween was coming so all her classmates were preparing for it. Hermione was kissing Ron again. It seemed that once they have started they couldn't stop. And Ginny was flirting with Harry under Dean's nose. All the love irritated Dawn so much because it only reminded her that the man she loved was impossible to reach. The only thing that helped to ease the pain a bit was Spike who came back from the forest two days ago.
Flashback
It was night. The blonde vampire and Dawn were sitting outside looking at the stars. Although it was autumn the weather was still nice and quite warm. Spike was looking at Dawn with concerned eyes.
"So you love him Bit?"
"Yeah."
"For real?"
"Yeah." The blonde vampire didn't want to believe this. How could his Bit love someone like that man? He wasn't even handsome. He noticed tears in those green eyes. It was rather strange to see them green not blue. It was the only thing that had changed in Dawn's appearance since she became Potter.
"What's wrong pet?"
"He left, he left because he thinks he isn't good enough for me but he is. Oh Spike, I love him so much, I don't think I can live without him." She sobbed into his shoulder. The vampire's heart broke seeing this girl like that.
"There, there pet. Spike will make it better. I will make the fool see what he is leaving. Don't worry." Spike hugged the crying girl promising himself to make her happy. He just wished Buffy would never find out that he helped his sister to get together with an old git.
End of Flashback
The talk helped a bit and she saw Spike having conversation with Severus and wondered what they had talked about. Dawn looked at her essay. She was never going to finish it if she kept thinking about potion master instead of the stupid potion.
"I am going for a walk." Harry just nodded and kept talking with Ginny. Dawn went outside. The weather was cold and wet so there were no students outside. She shivered. A cloak was wrapped around her shoulders. It smelled of herbs. She smiled leaning into the man standing behind her.
"Thank you."
"Your welcome." Arms wrapped around her waste and Dawn relaxed in the embrace of Snape. They were standing like that for awhile until he talked.
"I should go."
"Don't." Warm lips caressed her neck and she moaned lightly.
"I know I should stay away from you." His soft murmur reached her. "I try to, I really do it just being with you..."
"Feels right." She finished for him.
"Strangely it does." Cold fingers touched the spot where the lips were pressed just a minute ago.
"You fascinate me. Everything about you does. I love you so much, I want you so much."
"Want me?"
"Yes." One hand was lifting her skirt and Dawn shivered from pleasure. This felt so good but was frightening at the same time. Girl knew she wasn't ready for this part of the relationships. Sex was something special, something she didn't want to do yet.
"Stop." She whispered as the hand caressed her tight.
"So perfect." He was kissing her passionately. The kiss was gentle but demanding as well.
"Please, stop." Snape closed his eyes for a moment trying to calm himself.
"I am sorry. I shouldn't do this. I shouldn't be here."
"It's not that I didn't like it, it's just too fast. I am not ready."
"I am sorry." Black eyes were still filled with lust. "It seems that I can't control myself when I am with you. I should leave you as I wanted to."
"No, please, don't." Dawn cried out. She couldn't lose him, just couldn't not now when he was talking to her again.
"I should. I am sorry for coming here in the first place. It's just that it has been so hard not to see you, not to touch you." The teacher kissed the girl. "You are so young. Merlin, I could be your father. I don't deserve you. After everything I have done..."
"Severus, I don't care."
"You should." A determinate look was on his face. "You must know what I did if you really want to be with me. You must."
"But how?"
"Let's go." He took her hand and let her to the dungeons. It was very cold there. Severus Snape was walking to his rooms Dawn realized looking at the webbed walls. They came to a portrait of a man who looked like a dark wizard. The man looked a lot like Snape. He had the same black hair and eyes.
"Sonoro." The man in the portrait smiled giving Dawn a dirty look and opened the door hidden behind him. The chambers of Severus Snape were just like Dawn had imagined them to be. Cold and dark. The man led her to a table on which was something silver.
"Is this?"
"Yes, it's my Pensieve. I have never shown it to anyone" His eyes darkened even more. "But you must see it if you want to know the real me."
"But." Dawn hesitated remembering Harry's telling how Snape reacted to him seeing his Pensieve.
"Just do it." The girl touched it lightly and was soon surrounded by a silver mist. Snape sat down and waited. He knew that once Dawn has found out about the real him there was no way she would still want to be with him. During the week he had realized that the young Potter didn't know all about him, it was just some brief moments from his life. And now, now she was learning the truth. Snape tried to get away from a little voice in his head repeating what a fool he was. It would have been so much easier just to start living forgetting the past. But he couldn't, he couldn't do that to her. The girl, no woman, he loved deserved the truth. From there it would be only her decision what to do next. He smiled remembering Dawn confessing she was the Key. Snape knew it must have been hard for her but she gave him this secret. He had to do the same. Half an hour later Dawn let out a painful cry.
"Oh god." She fell on her knees and he came closer to help her. As he touched her hand she jumped away.
"Don't touch me. Please, not now." The man just nodded knowing this was the end. He turned around not wanting her to see his tears. It has been so close, so close. For a moment he thought he would be happy. And now it hurt so badly. A hand touched his shoulder and soon the girl was hugging him from behind.
"Don't cry." A soft whisper pained him even more.
"You hate me now."
"I would never hate you."
"But you saw what I did to that girl." Dawn closed her eyes trying to forget what she saw. She could still hear the pleads, the cries of pain. The sight of a girl being raped was still in her eyes. Dawn didn't know if she would ever forget it.
"Yes. Where is she now?"
"She had my baby." Snape sighted, it was painful to remember it. And his daughter, his beautiful daughter he had only seen once. It was rather ironic but Anne never blamed him for what he did, actually, her forgiveness was the reason why he had turned to be a spy. His daughter made him want to be a better man. Then Dawn came, she was his everything, his life and all Snape wished was for her to be happy even if she was happy without him.
"She went to America and married Larry Maclay."
"Maclay?" A soft whisper made him look into those green eyes.
"Yes, she became Anne Maclay. She named the girl Tara."
"Tara? Tara was your daughter?"
I just couldn't leave Tara out. I love her sooooo much. And what do you think will happen when Willow gets to Hogwarts?:0)
Hi, firstly I would like to apologize because this part is again un-betad. I have written it about a week ago and haven't heard from my beta since then. I really appreciate you reading my story, especially in this state, because I know I am not a very good writer and let's confess, my spelling and grammar sucks. (. Then again THANKS TO ALL MY REVIEWERS I LOVE YOU ALL. ChancingFate – yes a rapist. You will find out more about it in this chapter. Jultz and DracofutureBF – 1000 thanks, it's always nice to get a review. I would like you to tell me what you would like from this story, because I have many ideas and I am not sure which one's I should use. Vote for Harry pairings.
A week has passed since Dawn's miraculous waking up. The girl was back at classes at last. She was very grateful for all the notes Hermione made because she knew there was no way she could pass anything without them. Dawn tried to focus at her lessons so she wouldn't think about Severus so much but it seemed that the professor has occupied all her thoughts. Dawn looked at the Potions essay she was writing and sighted. Halloween was coming so all her classmates were preparing for it. Hermione was kissing Ron again. It seemed that once they have started they couldn't stop. And Ginny was flirting with Harry under Dean's nose. All the love irritated Dawn so much because it only reminded her that the man she loved was impossible to reach. The only thing that helped to ease the pain a bit was Spike who came back from the forest two days ago.
Flashback
It was night. The blonde vampire and Dawn were sitting outside looking at the stars. Although it was autumn the weather was still nice and quite warm. Spike was looking at Dawn with concerned eyes.
"So you love him Bit?"
"Yeah."
"For real?"
"Yeah." The blonde vampire didn't want to believe this. How could his Bit love someone like that man? He wasn't even handsome. He noticed tears in those green eyes. It was rather strange to see them green not blue. It was the only thing that had changed in Dawn's appearance since she became Potter.
"What's wrong pet?"
"He left, he left because he thinks he isn't good enough for me but he is. Oh Spike, I love him so much, I don't think I can live without him." She sobbed into his shoulder. The vampire's heart broke seeing this girl like that.
"There, there pet. Spike will make it better. I will make the fool see what he is leaving. Don't worry." Spike hugged the crying girl promising himself to make her happy. He just wished Buffy would never find out that he helped his sister to get together with an old git.
End of Flashback
The talk helped a bit and she saw Spike having conversation with Severus and wondered what they had talked about. Dawn looked at her essay. She was never going to finish it if she kept thinking about potion master instead of the stupid potion.
"I am going for a walk." Harry just nodded and kept talking with Ginny. Dawn went outside. The weather was cold and wet so there were no students outside. She shivered. A cloak was wrapped around her shoulders. It smelled of herbs. She smiled leaning into the man standing behind her.
"Thank you."
"Your welcome." Arms wrapped around her waste and Dawn relaxed in the embrace of Snape. They were standing like that for awhile until he talked.
"I should go."
"Don't." Warm lips caressed her neck and she moaned lightly.
"I know I should stay away from you." His soft murmur reached her. "I try to, I really do it just being with you..."
"Feels right." She finished for him.
"Strangely it does." Cold fingers touched the spot where the lips were pressed just a minute ago.
"You fascinate me. Everything about you does. I love you so much, I want you so much."
"Want me?"
"Yes." One hand was lifting her skirt and Dawn shivered from pleasure. This felt so good but was frightening at the same time. Girl knew she wasn't ready for this part of the relationships. Sex was something special, something she didn't want to do yet.
"Stop." She whispered as the hand caressed her tight.
"So perfect." He was kissing her passionately. The kiss was gentle but demanding as well.
"Please, stop." Snape closed his eyes for a moment trying to calm himself.
"I am sorry. I shouldn't do this. I shouldn't be here."
"It's not that I didn't like it, it's just too fast. I am not ready."
"I am sorry." Black eyes were still filled with lust. "It seems that I can't control myself when I am with you. I should leave you as I wanted to."
"No, please, don't." Dawn cried out. She couldn't lose him, just couldn't not now when he was talking to her again.
"I should. I am sorry for coming here in the first place. It's just that it has been so hard not to see you, not to touch you." The teacher kissed the girl. "You are so young. Merlin, I could be your father. I don't deserve you. After everything I have done..."
"Severus, I don't care."
"You should." A determinate look was on his face. "You must know what I did if you really want to be with me. You must."
"But how?"
"Let's go." He took her hand and let her to the dungeons. It was very cold there. Severus Snape was walking to his rooms Dawn realized looking at the webbed walls. They came to a portrait of a man who looked like a dark wizard. The man looked a lot like Snape. He had the same black hair and eyes.
"Sonoro." The man in the portrait smiled giving Dawn a dirty look and opened the door hidden behind him. The chambers of Severus Snape were just like Dawn had imagined them to be. Cold and dark. The man led her to a table on which was something silver.
"Is this?"
"Yes, it's my Pensieve. I have never shown it to anyone" His eyes darkened even more. "But you must see it if you want to know the real me."
"But." Dawn hesitated remembering Harry's telling how Snape reacted to him seeing his Pensieve.
"Just do it." The girl touched it lightly and was soon surrounded by a silver mist. Snape sat down and waited. He knew that once Dawn has found out about the real him there was no way she would still want to be with him. During the week he had realized that the young Potter didn't know all about him, it was just some brief moments from his life. And now, now she was learning the truth. Snape tried to get away from a little voice in his head repeating what a fool he was. It would have been so much easier just to start living forgetting the past. But he couldn't, he couldn't do that to her. The girl, no woman, he loved deserved the truth. From there it would be only her decision what to do next. He smiled remembering Dawn confessing she was the Key. Snape knew it must have been hard for her but she gave him this secret. He had to do the same. Half an hour later Dawn let out a painful cry.
"Oh god." She fell on her knees and he came closer to help her. As he touched her hand she jumped away.
"Don't touch me. Please, not now." The man just nodded knowing this was the end. He turned around not wanting her to see his tears. It has been so close, so close. For a moment he thought he would be happy. And now it hurt so badly. A hand touched his shoulder and soon the girl was hugging him from behind.
"Don't cry." A soft whisper pained him even more.
"You hate me now."
"I would never hate you."
"But you saw what I did to that girl." Dawn closed her eyes trying to forget what she saw. She could still hear the pleads, the cries of pain. The sight of a girl being raped was still in her eyes. Dawn didn't know if she would ever forget it.
"Yes. Where is she now?"
"She had my baby." Snape sighted, it was painful to remember it. And his daughter, his beautiful daughter he had only seen once. It was rather ironic but Anne never blamed him for what he did, actually, her forgiveness was the reason why he had turned to be a spy. His daughter made him want to be a better man. Then Dawn came, she was his everything, his life and all Snape wished was for her to be happy even if she was happy without him.
"She went to America and married Larry Maclay."
"Maclay?" A soft whisper made him look into those green eyes.
"Yes, she became Anne Maclay. She named the girl Tara."
"Tara? Tara was your daughter?"
I just couldn't leave Tara out. I love her sooooo much. And what do you think will happen when Willow gets to Hogwarts?:0)