A Horrible Episode – Part 13.
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A/N – Once again, thanks for the reviews. It gives me a boost to continue. I can't promise too much fluff in this story as its supposed to be angsty, but I'll put a bit in later!
Previously;
He opened the door and with a heavy heart and weary eyes he looked up. Nothing could have prepared him for the sight he saw...............
Chapter 13 - Fighting for breath.
Abby had pulled the oxygen mask off her face and was attempting to strangle herself with the wires."Abby NO!" Carter yelled. He rushed over to her and pulled the mask away from her, which was quite a struggle as Abby had an iron grip on it. He managed to wrestle it away from her eventually and threw it in the bin. Abby lay back on the bed shaking. She kept mumbling to herself. Then to Carters dismay, she looked at him and said, "It's all your fault". She said it over and over again until Carter could take it no more. He ran out of the room and explained to a couple of nurses what had happened. He ordered them to make sure Abby was observed at all times and that anything that could be used as a suicide aid was removed from her room. This entailed almost everything in her room – tissues, so Abby could not stuff them into her throat, any cleaning fluids that were sometimes left by the domestic staff. Carter could not believe what he was saying. He wondered what had gone wrong. Soon it was just Abby and her bed. A nurse was stationed in there at all times. Carter had one last look through the window in the door. Abby was still muttering to herself. He wasn't sure if the suicide attempt had been for real or for attention, but he knew Abby wasn't right. Carter almost ran to Dr Legaspi's room, to try and get some help for Abby.
Dr Legaspi immediately went to see Abby after Carter had reported what had happened. Once again she left Abby's room looking rather grim and went to talk to Carter.
"Hey Carter. No change I'm afraid. I believe that Abby will eventually open up but she needs time. I haven't been able to get to the bottom of the suicide attempt but that's hardly surprising considering the state she is in. I tried to prescribe her a small sedative but she refused to take it and I cannot force her. I've advised the nursing staff to keep a constant check on her. I really don not want to admit her to the psych ward at present, but obviously it may be a consideration if her condition does not improve. She is very unstable mentally and I'm worried for her safety".
"Oh God. She wouldn't take to that. We can't allow that to happen" Carter replied.
"Carter. I know this is hard for you. Harder than anyone can imagine, but you have to think of Abby's best interests. I talked to Dr Romano yesterday and he was planning on discharging Abby in a few days. Obviously she will have to return for daily physio, but I cannot allow her to go home in this state. It's far too dangerous. She could hurt herself, or someone else"
"How long will you give her before you decide"
"A couple of days. I wanted to ask you about Abby's family. Will they be coming to visit?"
"I haven't made that phone call yet. I mean, they know she's in hospital, but they don't know about her regression. Maggie sounded like she was off her meds and her brother has disappeared again"
"Oh no. Does Abby know this?" "No. I didn't want to worry her. Everything was going so well. I didn't want to rock the boat. Now look at what's happened"
"Carter. You have got to try and stay positive. Abby will recover, I'll make sure of that. It will just take time. A setback like this is common in her condition. It was going to happen; it was just a matter of when. Somebody should have warned you. Just support her John, and she'll get through it"
"Thanks Kim"
Abby's POV
It's all his fault. It's all his fault. Am I a bad person? Well I must be. I can't get these bad thoughts out of my head. It's like someone has taken over my body and I can no longer control it. Sometimes I can hear the pain in people's voices when they speak to me, the look of pity in their eyes. I want to blink and be me again, but I'm lost in this wilderness. It's like being in a black hole and I can't reach the light. It's so unfair. My life is over and I'm not sure I care anymore.
Carter's POV
What did we do to deserve this? Just for once, everything was going on the right track. Now it's back to square one. Abby won't talk to me, won't look at me, or anyone for that matter. Now there's talk of admitting her to the psych ward. It's unreal. You see these people with crazy minds everyday in the hospital and although it's sad, it doesn't affect you personally. Abby's not crazy. Not like them. When it happens to someone you love, it turns your world upside down.
It had been two days since Abby's suicide attempt. Carter had made no progress with her. In fact, nobody had. Abby had not spoken a word for days and it was starting to concern everyone. Carter was walking towards Abby's room that morning with a hope that he would get there and everything would be all right. He had just reached the door when a nurse came running out shouting for help.
"What's the matter" Carter yelled, immediately concerned.
"She's gone crazy in there. She's found a scalpel and was trying to cut herself. I tried to stop her and she swiped at me" The nurse showed Carter a bloody arm.
"Ring psych NOW!" Carter said.
Carter rushed in the room. Abby was sitting in bed with a crazed look on her face. She was holding the scalpel to her left wrist and was cutting through the skin. It didn't appear to be hurting Abby which was worrying Carter. He took a step toward her, but hastily retreated when she held the scalpel out towards him as a threat. At this point Dr Legaspi and security ran in. Dr Legaspi ordered haldol to be given to Abby. Carter thought he was going to cry. He hated seeing Abby like this. It was scaring him.
"Carter. We're taking Abby up to the psych ward. She can't stay down here in this state" Kim said.
"Oh God. How did this happen?"
Dr Legaspi administered the haldol to Abby who was attempting to get out of bed. It was fortunate that Abby was still so weak from her injuries otherwise she would have damaged her back. She was extremely distressed and as soon as the syringe needle punctured her skin, she lunged at Kim with the scalpel. Carter was able to snatch it from Abby this time. To Carters dismay, Kim ordered restraints to be put on.
"Restraints? Come on, she'll be asleep in a minute" Carter said.
"I'm sorry Carter, it's the only way"
Security held down Abby whilst the restraints were put on. Abby was then wheeled out of the room to go up to the psych ward. Carter was left behind to listen to Abby screaming abuse at him and every other health professional. He dropped to his knees and began to sob violently. Nothing was right anymore. Everything was wrong.
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