Title: Meant to Be-chapter 5
Disclaimer: Come now. I think you're all smart enough to know that I don't
own Third Watch.
Author's Note: Hey all! Sorry for such a long delay in updating. I wrote
another small piece called Seeing Me Through that had been rolling around
in my head, and after I was done with that I blanked. Anyhoo, enough of my
sob story. Enjoy!
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Kim was glad about her and Jimmy's decision to wait at least until there was a bed, for about 24 hours. Ok, more like his decision. She woke up the next morning thinking about how much he had changed and that maybe things would work out after all. By the end of the night, after a hard and long day at work, he was looking really tempting, all sweaty and sleepy. By the end of the week, the back of his car sounded like the far off promised land. With each and every day that passed, she was getting more frustrated and not even an exhausting double shift could help the situation. She finally had to resort to ignoring him, the danger of ripping his clothes off in public and having her way with him, very real.
For the second time that day, Kim was cleaning out the back of the bus. Usually she would wait till the end of the shift, but she had to do something to try and maintain some sanity. "What are my eyes beholding?" asked Alex in shock, "Are you actually cleaning when it's not you're turn?" she smirked.
Kim blew the hair away from her face, wiped her brow and gave her a dirty look, "You offering to help?"
Alex just leaned against the bus door, looking amused, "Not in the least." She gave Kim's sweaty, disheveled form a once over, "You're looking positively dynamite today!" she teased.
Kim slumped to the floor and leaned against the wall of the bus, "You know, you're a great friend," she grumbled sarcastically.
Alex laughed and jumped up to sit in the bus across from her, "So are you gonna tell me was crawled up your ass and died or am I stuck with your lovely attitude for the rest of the week?"
"I'm just trying to work off some tension, that's all," Kim sighed.
"Ahh, let me guess. The late night rendezvous in the back seat of Jimmy's car aren't cutting it for you," she smiled wryly.
"I wouldn't know, we haven't even got that far," Kim groused out bitterly.
"You mean you two still haven't.," she trailed off, eyebrows raised in surprise.
Kim glared at Alex, "No, Miss Gets-some-every-night-from-her-hotty- cop-boyfriend. We almost did that night after the bar, but Jimmy had a sudden attack of romantic dignity and decided that we should at least wait for a bed."
Alex was trying hard not to smile and be sympathetic towards her friend, "Why don't you just tell Joey and get it over with? Then you won't have to sneak and plot and plan." Kim stayed silent and stared at a box of bandages like they were the most interesting thing in the world. "Kim, really. What's the problem?" Alex asked seriously.
"I'm still not sure that things are gonna work out with us and I don't want to put Joey through that if I can help it," she said sadly, still staring at the bandages.
Alex scooted a little closer, "But you told me that he's really seemed to change. What are you afraid of?"
Kim finally looked at Alex, "I've seen it before. The night before Jimmy got shot, he came to me and told me that if I asked, he would break up with Brooke. He told me that he was still in love with me and he wanted to be a family again. I admit, I was resistant, but if he really meant that, he would have waited a little longer before changing his mind back and marrying Brooke. I mean, one day he's ready to prove to me that he still loves me and the next he's back to being engaged to another woman. How am I supposed to know that this isn't just some phase he's going through?"
Alex was quiet for a while. "I don't think you're being fair." Alex quickly went on when she saw the hurt look on Kim's face. "Look, you both made really bad decisions concerning each other in the past. Admittedly, he's made more. But he knows that and is trying to prove to you that it'll be different. I mean, ever since you were attacked, he's taken care of you and has tried to do right by you. Maybe, just maybe, you should give him the benefit of the doubt."
Kim felt the tears sting her eyes, "I know. You're right. He's done everything right and I feel terrible that I have such huge doubts, but I can't help it, Alex. I know him. I was married to him. He loses interest in things quick. I think I'm proof of that."
Alex truly felt bad for her friend. "Kim, maybe you should talk to him. I know that ignoring him and hoping it'll blow over isn't a good idea. He's gonna start thinking you're pushing him away again. Plus, getting laid always helps," she smiled in triumph when Kim laughed.
"Yeah, about that. I don't think I can hold out much longer and I see no bed in the near future," she laughed.
"You know, this bus here has a bed-like substance. That could work to your advantage," Alex laughed.
"You laugh, but I'm not below strapping him to that gurney and playing nurse," Kim laughed at the look on Alex's face as she leapt out of the bus.
"Oh god! I can't take anymore of these horrendous visuals!" she covered in face in mock horror and started to walk away, but turned around, "Hey. You ok?" she asked in concern.
Kim smiled, "Yeah. I'll be fine."
Kim was glad about her and Jimmy's decision to wait at least until there was a bed, for about 24 hours. Ok, more like his decision. She woke up the next morning thinking about how much he had changed and that maybe things would work out after all. By the end of the night, after a hard and long day at work, he was looking really tempting, all sweaty and sleepy. By the end of the week, the back of his car sounded like the far off promised land. With each and every day that passed, she was getting more frustrated and not even an exhausting double shift could help the situation. She finally had to resort to ignoring him, the danger of ripping his clothes off in public and having her way with him, very real.
For the second time that day, Kim was cleaning out the back of the bus. Usually she would wait till the end of the shift, but she had to do something to try and maintain some sanity. "What are my eyes beholding?" asked Alex in shock, "Are you actually cleaning when it's not you're turn?" she smirked.
Kim blew the hair away from her face, wiped her brow and gave her a dirty look, "You offering to help?"
Alex just leaned against the bus door, looking amused, "Not in the least." She gave Kim's sweaty, disheveled form a once over, "You're looking positively dynamite today!" she teased.
Kim slumped to the floor and leaned against the wall of the bus, "You know, you're a great friend," she grumbled sarcastically.
Alex laughed and jumped up to sit in the bus across from her, "So are you gonna tell me was crawled up your ass and died or am I stuck with your lovely attitude for the rest of the week?"
"I'm just trying to work off some tension, that's all," Kim sighed.
"Ahh, let me guess. The late night rendezvous in the back seat of Jimmy's car aren't cutting it for you," she smiled wryly.
"I wouldn't know, we haven't even got that far," Kim groused out bitterly.
"You mean you two still haven't.," she trailed off, eyebrows raised in surprise.
Kim glared at Alex, "No, Miss Gets-some-every-night-from-her-hotty- cop-boyfriend. We almost did that night after the bar, but Jimmy had a sudden attack of romantic dignity and decided that we should at least wait for a bed."
Alex was trying hard not to smile and be sympathetic towards her friend, "Why don't you just tell Joey and get it over with? Then you won't have to sneak and plot and plan." Kim stayed silent and stared at a box of bandages like they were the most interesting thing in the world. "Kim, really. What's the problem?" Alex asked seriously.
"I'm still not sure that things are gonna work out with us and I don't want to put Joey through that if I can help it," she said sadly, still staring at the bandages.
Alex scooted a little closer, "But you told me that he's really seemed to change. What are you afraid of?"
Kim finally looked at Alex, "I've seen it before. The night before Jimmy got shot, he came to me and told me that if I asked, he would break up with Brooke. He told me that he was still in love with me and he wanted to be a family again. I admit, I was resistant, but if he really meant that, he would have waited a little longer before changing his mind back and marrying Brooke. I mean, one day he's ready to prove to me that he still loves me and the next he's back to being engaged to another woman. How am I supposed to know that this isn't just some phase he's going through?"
Alex was quiet for a while. "I don't think you're being fair." Alex quickly went on when she saw the hurt look on Kim's face. "Look, you both made really bad decisions concerning each other in the past. Admittedly, he's made more. But he knows that and is trying to prove to you that it'll be different. I mean, ever since you were attacked, he's taken care of you and has tried to do right by you. Maybe, just maybe, you should give him the benefit of the doubt."
Kim felt the tears sting her eyes, "I know. You're right. He's done everything right and I feel terrible that I have such huge doubts, but I can't help it, Alex. I know him. I was married to him. He loses interest in things quick. I think I'm proof of that."
Alex truly felt bad for her friend. "Kim, maybe you should talk to him. I know that ignoring him and hoping it'll blow over isn't a good idea. He's gonna start thinking you're pushing him away again. Plus, getting laid always helps," she smiled in triumph when Kim laughed.
"Yeah, about that. I don't think I can hold out much longer and I see no bed in the near future," she laughed.
"You know, this bus here has a bed-like substance. That could work to your advantage," Alex laughed.
"You laugh, but I'm not below strapping him to that gurney and playing nurse," Kim laughed at the look on Alex's face as she leapt out of the bus.
"Oh god! I can't take anymore of these horrendous visuals!" she covered in face in mock horror and started to walk away, but turned around, "Hey. You ok?" she asked in concern.
Kim smiled, "Yeah. I'll be fine."