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Before I start , I'm sorry you guys don't like the whole Nikkie/ Craig thing. But things start heating up and things are being stirred up. Hazel's plans and Nikkie's crisis. But trust me you'll love my storyline in the end. I have everything planned out. Don't worry. Just to give you a little hint. Jimmy could also be holding in some risidule guilt.

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Where I'll Always Be

Chapter 25: Is this the End?

After eating lunch, he brought Nikkie to The Dot. It was drizzling outside. So they took a taxi. They had created a stage, big enough for a group of 5 to perform on. Nikkie was sitting at a table with Paige, Manny, and Emma. They were talking while the boys were setting up the instruments. Nikkie was drinking a vanilla milkshake. She was learning alot about Manny's relationship with J.T. and Emma and Chris's tragic break-up. But she said she would live. Even though being alone on Valentines Day killed her.Nikkie was staring into space looking out the window as the rain poured down harder and harder.While they waited they had the radio playing. It was playing "Dontchange" by Musiq / Soulchild. Liberty had taken that chance to hand out flyers to audition for the school play on Monday.

Suddenly the radio shut down and the lights went out. The only light was the light coming from outside. The power had gone out from the storm. They guys were upset. But there was such a bright side to that dimmed restaurant.

Jimmy turned on a battery powered radio. He went up to Nikkie and told her to just enjoy. Nikkie was confused and totally suspisious to what he had said to her. The half croweded restaurant became quiet. Suddenly the intro to one of Nikkie's favorite songs had showered the room. It was "what's it like". But the most weirdest thing. She heard the music but the people singing sounded so close. That's when she heard a bunch of people gasping and saying "Oh my god". Nikkie turned around and saw 4 guys in blue jeans and white wife-beaters and black hoodies. They had microphones in their hands as they sang the intro to the song. It was JE or put it correctly JAGGED EDGE!!!!! Nikkie opened her eyes and opened her mouth to speak, but there were no words.

Ooh, Ooh ahh, ooh ahh ahh ahh

Ooh, Ooh ahh, ooh ahh ahh ahh

(1st verse)

Everyday I age, I just want my life to change

I've been around, put away my childish things

Like my attitude, it ain't good to be so rude

I wanna be in love, it's my right to

And every year I seem to make some really bad mistakes

And I'm ready now, I don't wanna be this way

I'm finding out, what it's all about - yeah

I want to be in love...

(Chorus)

What's it like to be in love? That's all a nigga thinkin of

And I was just wondering, will love ever know me?

And my heart is open, and I've been hoping

To find what it is everybody keep on talking 'bout

What's it like to be in love? That's all a nigga thinkin of

And I was just wondering, will love ever know me?

And my heart is open, and I've been hoping

Somebody show me, what's it like to be in love?

(2nd Verse)

My life has changed somehow, but still so much the same

Got a bank account, I'm still broken down

I need to know, where does this road go (hopefully someone for me)

Family, is that so much to ask thee?

Begging please

Feel like I'm going mad

I'd trade all I have

Just to know...

(Chorus)

What's it like to be in love? That's all a nigga thinkin of

And I was just wondering, will love ever know me?

Cause my heart is open, and I've been hoping

To find what it is everybody keep on talking 'bout

What's it like to be in love? That's all a nigga thinkin of

And I was just wondering, will love ever know me?

Cause my heart is open, and I've been hoping

Somebody show me, what's it like to be in love?

(Bridge)

I know love is something that you can't go out and buy

When you looking, always seems like it's the wrong time

But I hope one day I'll give away this heart of mine

Girl I think I'm ready

I wanna know love

(Chorus)

What's it like to be in love? That's all a nigga thinkin of

And I was just wondering, will love ever know me?

Cause my heart is open, and I've been hoping

To find what it is everybody keep on talking 'bout

What's it like to be in love? That's all a nigga thinkin of

And I was just wondering, will love ever know me?

Cause my heart is open, and I've been hoping

Somebody show me, what's it like to be in love?

What's it like to be in love?

What's it like to be in love?

What's it like to be in love?

What's it like to be in love?

What's it like to be in love?

What's it like to be in love?

What's it like to be in love?

What's it like to be in love?

What's it like to be in love?

Nikke was completely shocked. Tears had come to her eyes. Jimmy came up to her and kneeled in front of her. He handed her a rose and and shiny red girft bag. The tear released itself from her eye and rolled down her cheek.He wiped the tear from her cheek and said "Happy Valentines Day and Happy Anniversary" to her. She smiled and kissed him. Hazel was getting uncomfortable. She had her arms crossed. And she had a disgusted look on her face when Jimmy and Nikkie kissed. Spinner then came beside Paige. He handed her a silver bag and a white rose.

Everyone stared as some had already confessed their love to their loved ones. Suddenly the lights went back on. Jagged Edge laughed. They began to setup for the next song. They sang "I Don't Wanna". Nikkie was happy. It was the most best thing Jimmy had ever done for her. After Jagged Edge sang "Walked Outta Heaven", "Promise" and "Let's Get Married". Jimmy, Craig, Marco and Spinner had gotten together to sing the song that Jimmy performed for the show. Craig had learned his section and his backround vocals.

After The Dot, Nikkie was outside waiting for Jimmy. She was speaking with Emma and Manny.

"Your really, really lucky to have Jimmy" Nikkie said

"Yeah, Nikkie. You should be proud" Manny said as she smiled and ran over to J.T.

"Don't worry I am" Nikkie said

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It was Monday morning. Nikkie was in the hallway looking in her notebook for her homework. Craig appeared on the scene.

"Hey, Nikkie. What are you looking for" Craig asked her

"My history homework" Nikkie said as a few papers fluttered out on the floor. Craig picked them up.

"Would this be it" he said as he scanned it and handed them to her.

"Yeah, oh thanks Craig" Nikkie said as she locked her locker shut.

"Welcome" he said "Hey, Iwas thinking of auditioning for the play" Craig added

"Acting dosn't suite you. Stick to singing. I really need to go. We'll talk later" Nikkie said

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Nikkie was in the middle of math. Her worst subject. She raised her hand and asked to use the bathroom. She was walking towards the washroom. She heard some loud voices coming from the gym. She walked towards the room and looked into the window. She saw Ms. Kwan talking. It just so happened that it was time for the auditions. To her surprise Jimmy was in their. Even Hazel and Marco were there.

".....Ok, so the play is called "Shadows of Love". It was written by our very own...Shannon Breswerth. It's a wonderful peice of work. The play will take place in a month and a half. So we have to start auditioning today. The actors will be put up tomorrow. You will get your script tomorrow and rehearsals will start Thursday. Ok, so girls on one side boys on the other" Ms. Kwan said. Nikkie smiled and left to the bathroom.

It was lunch and Nikkie caught up with Jimmy. She tapped him on the shoulder.

"So it's true actor Denzel Washington is walking the halls of Degrassi" Nikkie joked

"Hey baby, how did you know I auditioned" Jimmy asked

"I just happened to be walking in the hallway" Nikkie said. "So you wanna be the lead" Nikkie added

"Maybe, hopefully" Jimmy said

"Positivley, absolutely. I'm sure you'll get it" Nikkie said kissing him on the cheek and leaving to sit with Paige and Hazel.

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It was Tuesday. The results were up. Jimmy was at his locker. Nikkie came up to him in her green and white celtics jersey and blue jean skirt.

"So did you make it" Nikkie asked him

"I havn't even checked yet" Jimmy said kissing her

"So I'll check for you" Nikkie said as she skipped towards the bulliten board. Nikkie smiled. She walked slowly towards Jimmy.

"So did I get in" Jimmy asked her. She nodded. "Let me guess a small role" Jimmy added. Nikkie nodded.

"Damn" Jimmy said putting his book in the locker.

"Wait, what would you say if you compared tiny to small" Nikkie asked

"Well small would be bigger than----tiny....right, you mean" Jimmy said

"Yeah, I mean small can be compared to huge becuse you got the lead as Jake the main charater" Nikkie said as her voice grew louder. She jumped and wrapped her arms around him. He was shocked. Suddenly Ms. Kwan came by.

"I guess you heard the news, here's your script. Congradulations" Ms kwan said patting him on the shoulder. Nikkie smiled as he stared mindlessly at the script.

"I need to go. See you later" Nikkie said

"Yeah, yeah, later" her said as Nikkie kissed him on the cheek. After Nikkie left. He knew getting the role was great. But the role was wrong for him. Not the character, but what he do was just too much. In the front of the book it read:

"Shadow of Love"

By: Shannon Breswerth

:Casting:

main character #1: Jake Carter: Jimmy Brooks

main character #2: Rachel Dash: Hazel Aden

main character #3: Brandon Scott: Christopher Brasten.......(and so on)

That right there was his problem. It's not that he disliked Hazel it's just, if the story's about love and Jake and Rachel are the main characters, then somethings bound to happen between them in the play. Jimmy flipped through pages. He stopped on page 22. It read:

Rachel moves toward open locker.

Jake (rounded corner from hearing rukus):

"Rachel, again. He did something to you again"



Rachel:

"Please stay out of it Jake, I don't want you to get hurt"



Jake:

"I don't care if I get hurt, what about you. He's hurting you. This is out of control"

Rachel:

"Please, if he catches you, he'll come after you"



Jake( walks toward her and put hand on her face)

"He won't hurt me, and he won't hurt you, if you just, just leave him"



Rachel (tough hand that touched your face)

"Jake, I can't he won't allow me to"

Jake:

"Your not his property, he's your phsyco boyfriend"

Rachel:

"Jake I can't"

Jake:

"You can. Rach..... you have to. I love you. (pause)

Jake and Rachel kiss.

Jimmy was nervous. He wasn't going to tell Nikkie until it was time to.

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It was a week before the play. Jimmy was sitting in the hallway reading a book. Hazel walked by.

"Hey Jimmy, I was thinking about having a run through of the scrpit" Hazel said

"Sure, cool. When?" Jimmy asked

"How about......7th period. After lunch" Hazel said

"Ok" Jimmy said

It was 7th period. Jimmy walked Nikkie to class. He met up with Hazel, Christopher, and a few other kids. Ms. Kwan wasn't present, but they did get premission to rehearse.

"Ok, let's start on page 20. Where Brandon and Rachel have and argument" Hazel said

"Ok" Christopher and Jimmy both said.

MEANWHILE.......Ashley was in the hallway with Mr. Simpson, Toby and 3 other students. They were putting up fliers for the play. Ashley passed by the classroom where they were rehearsing. It was the first time any student at Degrassi had the chance to sneak a peek at the rehearsals. Ashley smiled and ran to Nikkie's Math class. She signaled for Nikkie to come out. Nikkie excused herself to the washroom.

"What is it" Nikkie asked as she whispered. Ashley pulled her away from the front of her classroom.

"Jimmy, he's rehearsing" Ashley said

"Now..... finally I can see his acting in action" Nikkie said running towards the classroom. But now the door was open. But they snuck a peek anyways.

///////// Rehearsal (while Nikkie and Ashley watch) \\\\\\\\\

Hazel (Rachel): Please, If he catches you he'll come after you

Jimmy (Jake): He won't hurt me, and he won't hurt you, if you just...... just leave him

Hazel (Rachel): Jake I can't he won't allow me to

Jimmy (Jake):Your not his property, he's your phsyco boyfriend

Hazel (Rachel): Jake I can't

Jimmy (Jake): You can. Rach..... you have to. I love you

Nikkie had a smile on her face. But soon the smile went flat. She stood up from kneeling down. She stood flat and dead in front of the door. Hazel and Jimmy kissed. It wasn't a tap kiss, it wasn't a regular quick I -love-you kiss. It was a 10 second round of tounge wrestling. But those 10 seconds seemed so slow, eveything was slowing down. And all Nikkie could hear was her heartbeat. And heat tingled furiously up and down her neck and back. Suddenly the washroom pass slipped from her hands. Jimmy and Hazel seperated and Jimmy turned towards the door. He saw Nikkie in her jean mini-skirt, and red t-shirt and white nike's. He studied her face. Her eyes were watery and her cheeks were red. Her chin shivered a bit.

"Nikkie" Jimmy said surprised yet softly. Nikkie backed up and ran down the hallway. Jimmy ran out of the room and followed her. Hazel and Ashley followed them.

Nikkie stopped in the hallway and leaned her forehead on a locker. She wasn't crying she was just watery eyed and pissed off. She punched the locker with her fist. Jimmy turned the corner. He walked up to her. He slightly put his hand on her shoulder. She shrugged it off.

"Don't touch me" she said

"I'm sorry, I was going to tell you earlier it's just...." Jimmy started

'It's just what....were you going to tell me the day of the play. Or the day after you had her in your bed. I don't know.....all I wanna know is why, why.....why" Nikkie cried as a tear fell from her eye.

"Nikkie, I don't know, it's just a play. It meant nothing" Jimmy said

"Trust me, from where I was standing, it looked perfectly wanted to me" Nikkie said

"No, I was planning on rehearsing the kiss, but not like that, not that deep" Jimmy said

"Jimmy, please. I didn't see a push or a negative signal anywhere during that moment" Nikkie said

"But..." Jimmy started

"But nothing, save it for someone who actually listens to lame excuses" Nikkie said. She turned away and walked into the girls washroom. Jimmy stood there. He looked down at he ground while Ashley went into the washroom after Nikkie. Hazel smiled a sneaky evil smile. She came up behind Jimmy and touched his shoulder.

"It's ok, if she can't handle a simple kiss for a stupid play, then she's not ready for anything else" Hazel said. Jimmy stayed silent.

"Come on if she's gonna be like that, then she dosn't deserve you. She's not worth it" Hazel added

Jimmy turned around. To Hazel's surprise he had a tear running down his cheek, his eyes watery, and his grey sweatshirt decorated with 3 little tear stains.

"Your wrong, she's is worth it" Jimmy said with his voice sounding soft and hoarse. He turned around and walked away. Leaving Hazel worried and pissed.

Author's Note: WOWOWOWOWOWOWOW!!!! I'm surprised about how I wrote this chapter. PLEASE PLEASE!!!! REVIEW!!!!. Chapter 26 coming next week.