Author: BlackCherrymeg
Chapter 3
Disclaimer: I do not own these characters.
Summary: Faith and Buffy are Twin slayers who move to Sunny Dale with their sister Dawn. Now having to live with an aunt, they meet new people, one which they aren't pleased to see.
Three Weeks Later
I have been at Sunny Dale High now for three weeks and it is so boring! All I do is think about Spike during my classes, but that barely gets me through the day anymore. Matt, Angel, and Spike were all seniors, while me and Faith were juniors. I had met a shy girl named Willow in my chemistry class. She talked to me a few times after I got her to open up. She joined us at lunch and at the Bronze a few times. My thoughts were interrupted by the bell for lunch, so I gathered up my books and walked off.
"Hey Buffy, is it ok if I sit with you today? I'm kind of all alone…" Willow had caught up with me.
"Hey Willow, you don't have to ask if you can sit with me. You're my friend and are welcome to the table anytime." She smiled gratefully and walked with me to a table where Angel, Faith, Gunn, and Cordi already were. "Isn't Spike here today?"
Angel and the rest shifted uncomfortably in their seats. "Guys just tell me where he is please."
"He came over to the table right as the bell rang, but Dru came over and he left with her."
They could all see the sadness in my eyes as I was about to break down in tears. "Hey B you need to me to punch him a few times? I could take him and you know it."
"No offense Faith, but Spike is pretty strong. Or do you have some special power or something like that?" Cordi mocked from her seat.
"Yeah something like that princess." Faith gave her a dirty glare, before sitting back down.
"I think I'll take him on my own."
"Ok Faith beating up Spike is one thing, but Buffy? I mean you hardly have any fat, let alone muscle on you. I guess city girls really are full of themselves."
"Why don't you just can it?" Faith was losing her temper, but I gave her a warning look.
"I'm going to go look for him, ill be back later." They all nodded and I went searching for him.
I had no idea where to begin looking so I started with the couches in the cafeteria area. And sure enough there was Dru sitting with Spike close to her. Any closer and she would be on his lap. I didn't want to run at them and have him think I didn't trust him, so I stayed in the shadows and moved closer to hear their conversation.
"Spikey I need you in my life, please come back to me."
"Listen Dru I just can't be with you anymore. You left me heart-broken."
"You know I never meant to da'ling, just one last kiss?" She leaned in quickly and surprised him with a deep kiss, I didn't see him struggling to pull away, but the kiss did end…after I interrupted them.
"You know Spike I trusted you! And then you just go and do this?" Tears were threatening to spill, and I tried my hardest to hold them back.
"Buffy, luv, please let me explain." By now my tears had fallen and I was breaking down. My emotions were going crazy and I could hardly move from where I sat; I had collapsed on the ground and onto my knees. "Here let me help you up." He put his hand out, but I glared at him.
"I think you've done enough." I got up and wiped away the tears. I saw the people staring, so I just left. Spike stood there, and Dru sat with an evil grin.
My friends at the table saw me coming out and rushed over to me asking me so many questions that they all blurred. Their voices turned to one distorted noise as I stopped walking and my friends circled around me. They seemed to be spinning and then my vision was blurry. After that I felt weak and fell to the ground…everything went black.
Couple Hours later in a Hospital
I heard voices around me and recognized Faith and Dawn. I opened my eyes slowly and blinked a few times to clear the blur. "Buffy you're awake!" Dawn ran over to me and hugged me.
"Hey Dawnie, Hey Faith."
"You gave us quite a scare B. Aunt Loraine is talking to the doctor outside to find out what's wrong." I nodded and noticed Angel and Willow also in the room.
"Hey Buffy I got your assignments from the classes you missed." Willow spoke up and smiled shyly.
"Oh thanks Will."
"Oh you probably didn't want your work… I'm sorry I …"
"Hey don't worry about it. My teachers would be mad if I didn't get it." I reassured her with a smile. Then Aunt Loraine came into the room with a worried and angry expression cross her face.
"May I have a word with Buffy alone for a minute?" Aunt Loraine looked around the room until the others got out and she shut the door. "Oh dear Lord Buffy. I'm not sure what you have gotten yourself into, but we'll fix it."
I gave her an odd look and had no idea what she was talking about. "Aunt Loraine what's wrong with me?"
"Oh honey you can't blame yourself for this, you are a troubled teen who is in need of love."
"Please just tell me what it is."
"It seems you are almost a month along in pregnancy." I could feel my mouth drop open and tears form in my eyes.
"Aunt Loraine it was only once… I don't understand. It was just one time." She was now crying as well.
"Don't worry dear; we have a very good clinic here that will make this go away."
"Go away! You mean kill my baby?"
"Well Buffy I don't see any other way. You are too young to have a baby and you have school."
"Then I will just work something out. As for now I'm leaving this hospital. I heal way too fast to just sit around in a stupid gown and have nurses bring me sugar-free jello!"
"Just settle down please!" But before she could stop me I ripped the I.V out of my arm and put on my jeans and a shirt. I ran out of the door nearly knocking over Faith. I knew exactly where I was going… and the person there wouldn't like Buffy the Slayer strength that was about to hit him.
I came upon a small house that was a little broken down. I walked up to the door and knocked. Dru came to the door with a smile across her face. I would've broken down and smashed her face in, but then Spike came up behind her and I took my anger out on him. I drew back my arm and punched him in the nose.
"You selfish jerk! I swear to God it seems every guy in my life knows how to really push my buttons, but this is unbelievable!" Spike got up, but still shocked from my strength.
"Buffy, Dru only came by to give me my assignments. After you saw me and her on the couch I left school. Dru was just on her way out." He gave her a look and she left. "Now please let me explain."
"It's ok Spike I heard the conversation and saw the whole kiss. You never pulled away from her."
"Yes I bloody well did! It's just hard to. She had such a firm grip with her hand on the back of my head…" He continued talking but I spaced off trying to remember where her hands were. I stood there for a while and remembered they were holding him there! Then I thought of the little life in me and clutched my stomach. "Buffy are you listening to me?"
"I'm sorry I was just thinking of something."
"So Buffy please give me another chance?"
"Well I'm not sure if you will want to be with me. I have to tell you something."
"What is it?"
"I fainted today… and I was taken to the hospital."
"Are you ok?" A look of concern was clear in his blue eyes.
"Yeah… well I mean I don't know. They said I'm…well that we, I'm pregnant."
"Oh…um wow." We stood in an uncomfortable silence for about five minutes until I broke the ice.
"You don't have to be apart of the baby's life…I will do just fine."
"No I won't abandon my child. I'll help you with the baby and I'll stay with you. We will be a family. And a happy one at that." He didn't look as worried after that. And I realized it would be ok; I would have a family with a wonderful man… now I just had to tell Faith and Dawn. "Buffy are you still there?" Spike was waving his hand in front of my face.
"Sorry I was just thinking."
"So how far along are you?"
"They said I am almost a month, well I mean we should know. We've only you know… once." He nodded and I guess that meant he understood or something.
"So… what are we going to do?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean like… do we move in together, or raise the baby like divorced parents?"
"No I don't want to be like we are divorced. I mean this baby deserves full-time parents. And I don't want to be a single mother like my mom." Tears were falling down my cheeks and spike immediately put his arms around me.
"There there luv. No need to cry. Let's go for a walk ok?" I nodded and we left the old house. "What are you going to do about school?"
"I'm not really sure. My Aunt Loraine didn't even want me to have the baby. She said there was this good little clinic to make this 'go away'."
"Really now, your aunt doesn't strike me as the type for abortion."
"Yeah well I'm a teen and I have school. Apparently a life isn't as important as that."
"Well they are all wrong aren't they? This life we created is more important than anything. It's something that's helpless and can't fend for itself. A life put into our hands to care for when it can't. Something fully depending on two people." I listened ever so carefully to him talking about our baby. It was amazing the love he had already developed within the few minutes he had known about this baby. It made me wonder if it was real.
"Do you really feel that way?"
"Excuse me luv?"
"I mean do you really love our baby?"
"Of course I do pet. Listen there's something I need to tell you. Back when I was a sophomore, I had met my first love. Her name was Haley. She was a popular cheerleader and every guy went crazy over her. I went by William back then, and was quite the nerd. But after some ponce dumped Haley she went into rebound and saw me at a party. I had a bit too much to drink, but she knew exactly what she was doing. We headed upstairs and well that was my first time. We went steady for about a month and a half before I heard she was pregnant. Haley said she wanted nothing to do with me or the baby, so I offered to take it in after it was born, but it was too late and she was due for an appointment in that 'nice little clinic' to kill my baby." Spike was choked up on tears and I could see the pain in his eyes.
"I'm so sorry that happened. I can promise I won't do that to you though."
He looked up at me and smiled. "That's why I love our baby so much, because I know I can get attached to it and it won't go away. Plus you're the mother. I know it's early in life for us to have a baby, but that doesn't mean we can't."
"That's how I feel. Now let's go back to my house and tell Faith and Dawn. Then we can talk about you moving into the house."
"Oh really, now I have to move in with a bunch of girls?"
"Matt lives there too."
"Like I said a bunch of girls!" We laughed and it helped lighten the mood. Then we stopped walking as we got to the front porch of the house I lived in. "Are you ready pet?"
"Not exactly, it would be better if we could just runaway and not face them." I smiled weakly then he pushed open the door. Faith, Dawn, Angel, Matt, and Aunt Loraine were all on the couch. Most likely awaiting us.
"Hey B, Aunt Loraine told u to wait for you two. You have some big news?" Faith could sense my nerves going crazy and my fear. "Or maybe this should be a strictly family matter?"
"That's non-sense! Buffy got herself into this and she will tell everyone her mistake." I glared at her, and thought of all the ways I could use my slayer advantages to make her regret saying that.
"I guess it's time that I tell you anyways. You all know Spike and I are really close and in love… and well."
"Come on Buffy my show is coming on so don't screw around." Dawn complained.
"I'm pregnant. Spike and I are having a baby together. And I would hope you guys would give us all your support." I looked around at all the shocked faces. Dawn looked a little happy, but also shocked and worried.
"But Buffy you are so young… are you allowed to have a baby?" Dawn was clearly confused about the situation.
"Yes I guess I'm allowed, and I am young as well, but I think it will be ok. Spike is going to move in and help raise the baby." Aunt Loraine was shocked at this announcement.
"And when was this decided?"
"When we were walking back home. I figure that this baby deserves the best life and a father. Spike is willing to be an active father. I don't want this baby to end up in a situation like Faith, Dawn, and me."
"I think you're doing a good thing B. I'm behind you one-hundred percent." Faith hugged me then took Dawn upstairs. Then it was just Spike, Loraine, Matt, Angel, and me.
"Well Buffy I see you've made a choice, I'm going to the bar. I'll be back later." Aunt Loraine left and little Joyce came out of her room.
"Where'd my mommy go?" I went over to the little girl and kneeled down. I combed my fingers through her long straight hair.
"Your mommy went out for a little bit sweetie, want to go get some ice cream?" Her face lit up and she smiled, revealing two front teeth missing. I laughed at the happy girl. "Alright go get your shoes on and I'll take you." She ran to her room.
I got up from my position and saw Spike leaning on the frame of the doorway with a smile on his face. "You're going to be a great mum." I went over to him and gave him a quick kiss on the lips.
"Well then that will give her a great mom and an even greater dad."
"So now it's a girl?" He raised one eyebrow.
"Well I surely don't want a stinky little boy."
"Well I'll have you know I wasn't some stinky little boy and neither will he." He put his hands over my flat stomach and kissed me again.
"I don't care what our baby is, as long as he/she is healthy and has your eyes."
"But luv, your eyes are amazing." Just then Joyce came up in between us and latched on to my leg.
"Come on Auntie Buffy! Let's get ice cream!" She was smiling uncontrollably and her socks didn't match.
"That sure was fast little one. Your socks don't even match." The excited girl calmed down for a second to notice her green and red socks.
"It's ok I don't care. Now let's go!" She grabbed my hand and tried to drag me; I took Spike's hand and dragged him along too.
"Don't think you weren't coming along too mister." He grinned and willingly went.
We walked along the street all joined by linking hands. Faith and Dawn were running up behind us. "Guys wait up!" We stopped and they did too. Dawn was hunching over out of breath and Faith was ok. She was used to running with vamp duty every night. "We want come ice cream too."
Little Joyce got an angry expression on her face. "You guys are making me late!" We all laughed and went on walking.
As soon as we got there Joyce had run up to the counter and was picking out flavors for her triple scoop ice cream I had promised her. Spike came up behind me in the line and wrapped his arms around me. The shop was a little noisy with kids and machines going on. Spike leaned down to my ear to whisper. "Hey luv how you feeling?" His hands rested on my stomach.
"A little sick, but I'll manage."
"I will stay here with Faith, Dawn, and the Bit. You can walk back home and rest ok?" I nodded and gave him a long kiss.
"Ewe Auntie Buffy that's gross!" She scrunched her nose up and covered her eyes.
"Sorry I'll remember not to do that in front of you next time. I'm going to go back home and sleep, I'm not feeling well. Aunt Faith, Dawn, and Spike will walk home with you ok?" She nodded and I gave her a five dollar bill from my back pocket. She smiled and ran back up to pick more flavors. "Don't let her get to hyped on sugar Spike." He smiled and kissed me once more.
I closed the door and the noise disappeared. The streets were dark except for the occasional street lamp or some cars. It was almost seven now and the sun was way past set. I have an extra stake in my purse in case there was early patrol necessary. Then I stopped to think of how I would have to tell spike soon. After I got further in the pregnancy Faith would have to take over full time.
I was pulled out of my thoughts by a voice behind me. "Hey there pretty girl." I turned around hoping it was a local vamp and that I could stake him. I saw a human face instead.
"Hey I'm not up for any games right now, so just run along and I'll forget about this."
"Oh I don't think so little lady, because I'm lonely and it looks like you are too." He came at me and grabbed my arms, hoping to hold me back. I used my strength to back out of his grip and slam his face with my heel. "Dang you're a strong one aren't you?" He said getting up and rubbing his face.
"I told you I wasn't in the mood for your games."
"Well that's too bad." He grabbed my waist; picking me off the ground. After I was a good distance off the ground and threw me back down. My back ached, and I felt like I couldn't move, but I reluctantly got up and brushed the dirt off me. He came at me again, but I blocked him. His fist slammed into my stomach and I fell back. I didn't get up. I grabbed my stomach and cried. My baby couldn't survive that and I knew it. I could see the man walking towards me with a grin, but a hand grabbed his neck and lifted him up. Faith was standing there and Dawn had taken Joyce so she wouldn't see.
"Buffy luv are you alright?" Spike helped me up and noticed me clutching my stomach and crying. "No… don't tell me…did he?"
"He hit me in the stomach. I'm so sorry I couldn't stop him. I'm so sorry Spike. Please don't hate me." He hushed me and cradled me before turning to Faith and the man. Faith had him in a head lock and was punching him furiously in the gut.
"That's for my sister, that's for my soon to be niece or nephew and that's for me, because my clothes are dirty now." Spike took the man from Faith and hauled him to the nearby police station.
We were there for hours reporting and I had to make a statement. They said he would be going to jail and would be contacting me later. The way home was silent except for the random sobs of pain I let out. As we entered the house Aunt Loraine was passed out on the couch and Spike took me up to my room.
"Spike I need to go to the hospital. The baby could be hurt…" I looked up at him and noticed he wasn't looking at me. Instead he was looking at the wall with a straight face.
"Get some new clothes on and come down stairs when you're done. I'll be waiting." He walked out and slammed the door. I jumped at the sudden noise. He must have blamed me for losing his baby.
I couldn't cry right now. I had to be strong and hope she was ok. I went to the closet and put on my Capri pajama pants and a sweater top. Faith came in and noticed my tear-stained cheeks. She came over and hugged me tightly and cried with me. This was the second time Faith had ever cried. The first was when mom died. She sniffed a couple times and wiped away the tears. "Listen B. I know you're young and you've already gotten enough crap about your baby but I hope she's ok."
I smiled at her as a thanks and she left. I looked in the mirror and noticed my hair was a mess. I quickly brushed it. I cried once more, but stopped myself and walked out of the room. Spike wasn't in the living room, but Dawn and Faith were. They both had tears on their face and looked up at me. "I'll be back in a bit ok?" They nodded and hugged me.
I walked outside and noticed Spike on the porch smoking a cigarette. "I-I'm ready." I tried to keep my voice from breaking but it didn't work. He looked back at me and got up from the steps.
"Lets' go." He walked off not waiting for me or anything. I followed closely behind him, but not too close. We soon got to the hospital and I signed in.
A lady in a white uniform came out of a door. "Miss Buffy Summers you're up now." I looked back at Spike but he just sat there and looked at the floor.
I was walked to a small room where a man was waiting. "Miss Summers I assume."
"Y-yes that's m-me." I was shaking with nervousness.
"It's alright Miss, now I need you to lie down and lift your shirt to your bust line please." I did as he said and a female nurse came in to make sure nothing funny went on. He put a gel on my stomach and continued with an ultrasound. "How far along?"
"The d-doctors said about one m-month." He nodded and kept with looking for a heartbeat. Tears ran down my face as I realized the truth. "M-my baby's g-gone right?"
"I'm sorry Miss Summers I'm just not getting anything. There's the baby right there," He pointed at a small dot. "But there's no heartbeat. I'm sorry for your loss. I know what you're going through right now. My wife just recently lost our baby." He got up and turned the monitor off after printing out a couple pictures. He was about to walk off, but I spoke up.
"Did you blame her?"
"Excuse me?"
"When your baby died… did you blame her?"
He came back in and closed the door. "I blamed myself. For not doing something or for not watching her every movement. But the truth is, with these situations it's not one's fault." I nodded and he handed me the pictures, then left the room. A nurse came in giving me a couple pamphlets for counseling and some vitamins and pills to help get the baby out. She explained everything and I was free to go if I wished.
I saw Spike still in the waiting room and looked up as he heard me talking. "I can go home now." He nodded and got up. I clutched the pictures from the ultrasound in my hand. He looked down and saw them then looked back at me. "You can have one too…" I handed him one and noticed tears streaming down his cheeks as he read the bottom. "Baby Crawford-One Month Along."
"That didn't take too long to get her out." I broke down in tears as I heard him mention our baby. I couldn't find the strength to walk; I collapsed on the ground and continued my sobs. "Listen luv you really need to be getting home. Was it something I said?"
"They didn't take the baby out Spike."
"So she's alive?"
"No I have to wait with our baby inside of me and take pills to 'flush' her out as the nurse so coldly put it." I was shaking and crying.
"It will be ok pet. Let's just get you home. You have pamphlets for counseling and that will help." He helped me up, but let go of me and started walking again. We were in silence the rest of the way. We entered the house to find Aunt Loraine drinking coffee and Faith curled up with Dawn watching a movie. They all gave me weak smiles and continued with what they had been doing. I walked up to my room to find Spike following me.
I pulled the covers down on my bed and went over to my vanity mirror. I started brushing my hair and noticed Spike on the bed crying with the picture in his hands. I went over to him and linked my arm with his. "I don't blame you luv, I just can't believe she's gone."
I couldn't help but crumble into a teary mess with the words of love he spoke. "It's ok Spike. This wasn't anyone's fault and there's always the future for more babies." He looked up at me and his eyes were red and watery.
"This is the second baby of mine that I haven't got to see or hold. Buffy I love you so much and we will get through this."
"I know we will."
"Can I stay here tonight? Just to hold you and have our baby near for the last time."
"That'd be great. I don't have to start the pills until tomorrow…" He nodded and put his fingers up to my mouth to stop me from talking.
"I don't want to talk about that right now." I said ok and he kissed me. I broke the kiss and got under the covers; lying on my back. Spike lay down on his side and kept a hand on my stomach, caressing it and kissing it every so often until we both fell asleep. The next morning I got up and saw Spike still peacefully asleep. I went into the bathroom and looked at the pills. Before taking them I kneeled down to pray.
Back in L.A. my friend Tara was a witch and told me to pray to the goddess when in desperate need of help and she will respond. So I started my prayer softly aloud.
"Oh Goddess wherever you are right now, please watch over me. Please watch over this baby and guard her. I thank thee for listening and please help me." I stopped and got back up. Looking at the pills I set them down and got dressed. I ran out of the room and took Aunt Loraine's car to the doctor's again. As soon as I got there my doctor was standing in the waiting room talking to a nurse.
"Excuse me doctor, could you please do another ultrasound for me?"
"Miss Summers correct?"
"Yes that's me."
"We didn't find anything yesterday… I'm sorry I just don't think your baby is alive."
"Just please look again." He nodded and took me back to the same room and prepared everything. He turned on the monitor and started the ultrasound. He looked and looked for a few minutes but there was nothing.
"Miss Summers I feel this is a waste of our time."
Tears formed in my eyes and a look of pleading was on my face. "Please doctor and I know she's alive."
He said ok and kept searching, and then stopped and kept still and quiet. He turned up the monitor as a faint heartbeat was heard on the monitor. He was astonished by the sounds of my baby's heartbeat. "Well it looks like you were right. Your baby is alive. You will need to start on some pre-natal vitamins and give back those pills I gave you." I handed back the pills and talked to the nurse for another appointment. I left the office and sped home. I arrived within a couple minutes and ran into the house with a smile across my face.
"Good morning Buffy would you like to tell me where you have been all morning with my car?" Aunt Loraine was standing in front me with her hands on her hips and tapping her foot.
"I went to the doctors' office. Where is Spike?"
"Oh hey B. I think I saw him in the kitchen getting some Hot Pockets with Matt." I smiled and ran in there throwing my arms around Spike.
"Hey luv where were you this morning?"
"I went to the doctors." I handed him another picture of an ultrasound.
"It's today's date?"
"She's alive spike! Our baby is alive!"
His face was lit up with happiness and shock. "How did you know to go to the doctor's?"
"I … I had a dream… that she was alive!" I couldn't tell him about praying to the goddess.
"Well that's just… God I'm so happy." He kissed me and didn't let go as we shared the happiness of our baby.
That's chapter three. Please review and I will write more soon!