Chapter 3
When Harry woke up he had only one thought on his mind, he had to get away from everything. He spent half the day thinking up ways that he could accomplish that. He had come up with lots of ideas but all of them included magic. When Harry looked out his window and saw a group of teens talking and laughing with not a care in the world he snapped.
"I'm never going to be allowed a normal life. I've got to get out of here and away from everything." Harry thought angrily as he ran out of his room.
Harry sprinted down the stairs and out the door. He kept running when he was outside. Running pushed everything out of Harrys' mind. The only thing he had to think about was putting one foot in front of the other.
Harry could hear someone running behind him but didn't care. The person was close behind Harry, but he was quickly putting space between himself and whoever it was. Harry didn't even slow down when he heard the person swear and tell him to stop running. It was nice not to have to think about anything and Harry planned on keeping it that way.
The person took his invisibility cloak off so he could run freely. Even without the cloak the person couldn't catch Harry. The person may have been in excellent shape, but with Harry releasing all of his emotion there was no hope in keeping up much longer. So the person pulled out a chocolate frog card with Dumbledore on it and said.
"I need help. He's running. I can't keep up."
"Kingsley where's Harry headed?" Dumbledore asked.
"He's on his way to the play park." Kingsley answered as he kept running.
"I'm sending Remus to help you." Dumbledore said as Kingsley put the card back in his robes.
Kingsley stopped for a minute and apparated closer to Harry. At the same moment Lupin appeared. They continued chasing Harry for ten minutes. They were both out of breath when they saw Harry collapse. Seeing this Lupin and Kingsley put forth one last burst of speed. When they arrived at Harry's side Lupin shook Harry and said.
"Wake up." Nothing happened so he tried again a little harder. "Wake up!" Still nothing happened.
"Let me see him." Kingsley said as he knelt down next to Harry. Kingsley forced one of Harrys' eyes open, looked at the response he got and turned to Lupin. "We need to get him back to Headquarters. He was to weak to do that much running and needs attention immediately."
Lupin quickly made a portkey to take them back to Headquarters. They made sure that Harry was touching it and then felt the familiar jerk behind their bellybutton.
When they arrived at Headquarters Mrs. Weasley and Tonks were in the kitchen. Mrs. Weasley immediately noticed Harry.
"What happened?" Mrs. Weasley shrieked which brought everyone else in the house running into the kitchen. Ron, Hermione and Ginny stopped in their tracks when they saw Harry.
"Is he dead?" Hermione asked worriedly.
"He's going to be fine." Kingsley said reassuringly. "We just need to get him to bed."
"Are you sure? Do you want me to get Madame Pomfrey?" Mrs. Weasley asked.
"Molly just let them get Harry settled in." Tonks said restraining Mrs. Weasley from taking Harry out of Lupin's arms. "Harry just needs some rest and quite a bit to eat."
"I'll start making him some food to eat when he wakes up." Mrs. Weasley said as she headed toward the kitchen.
"Do you need any help?" Ginny asked Lupin.
"No I think I can handle it." Lupin said to the three friends.
Once Lupin had made sure that Harry was alright he started to prepare himself for the way Harry would act when he woke up. He knew that Harry was going to be very angry at being brought back to this house. Silently Lupin thought that it was a good thing this had happened. If it hadn't they would have never gotten Harry here.
"I promise I will help you through this wether you want my help or not." Lupin said. "Both Sirius and your Father would kill me if I didn't."
Harry was watching Sirius being killed again. He was throwing curses a mile a minute at Bellatrix even though he knew it wouldn't make a difference. The noise he was making brought Mr. and Mrs. Weasley, Ron, Ginny, Hermione, Tonks and Lupin running to see what was wrong. When they opened the door they saw the curses flying all over the room. Lupin noticed that Harry wasn't using his wand, since it was still on the table beside him, and that Harry was still asleep.
"We've got to wake him up." Lupin shouted.
Lupin's shouting brought Harry out his doze. He jerked into sitting position just in time to see his last stunning spell hit the wall. He looked around for a minute trying to figure out where he was when his eyes landed on the people that had come to check on him.
"Where am I? What are you doing here?" Harry asked coldly glaring at everyone. Then directing his attention to Lupin added. "I thought I told you to keep yourself and everyone else as far away from me as possible." Everyone shivered slightly. They had all heard Lupin say how bad Harry was but thought that he had been exaggerating. Now they knew that Lupin had not been exaggerating at all.
"I'm waiting for an answer." Harry said. Lupin took a deep breath and said.
"You collapsed while trying to run away from us. We brought you back to Headquarters. We are all here because we were worried about you."
"I can take care of myself." Harry started.
"That's obvious." Tonks said as Harry glared at her.
"I told you I didn't want to come back here. I'm leaving." Harry growled as he got out of bed. Mrs. Weasley quickly forgot her fear and switched to mothering mode.
"If you even try to get out of that bed, Harry, I will conjure up some ropes to keep you there." Mrs. Weasley told him. Harry glared at her but got back into bed. Knowing that he wasn't strong enough to get passed everybody in the room.
"Fine." Harry said his voice a forced calm. "Get out."
"What?" Tonks asked.
"You heard me. I want all of you to leave." Harry growled his voice getting lower.
Tonks, Mr. Weasley, Ron, Hermione and Ginny all backed out of the room. Mrs. Weasley and Lupin stayed put. Harry glared at both of them. Neither backed down. After a couple minutes Harry relaxed into his bed. It took to much energy to continue glaring at the two people in his room and he was still tired from the day before. Upon seeing Harry give in Mrs. Weasley conjured up some food and took it over to Harry.
"Eat up. You're severely underweight. I will be checking on you every half hour and if it doesn't look like you're eating I will force you." Mrs. Weasley said then left the room.
Harry knew Lupin was still in the room and ignored him. He looked around the room once more recognizing it as Sirius' old room. What little appetite he had was lost.
"You should have this room. I don't want it." Harry said not looking at Lupin but knowing that he was still there.
"This is your room in your house." Lupin said. "Sirius said that if anything should happen to him you were to get the house."
"If this is my house then I want a different room." Harry said back.
"Sirius also said he wanted you to have his room. I don't know why I'm just following his wishes." Lupin responded. Harry glared at Lupin and said.
"Is this some kind of sick joke? Just so you know I don't find it amusing."
"This is not a joke." Lupin said. "Sirius would want you to move on with your life. He would hate the fact that you're beating yourself up over his death."
"I can't help it." Harry said quietly the coldness in his voice gone. "It's my fault. If I had learned Occlumency then this never would have happened." Harry said needing to cry but not being able to. Lupin noticed this and made his way over to Harry. He put a hand on Harry's shoulder and said.
"Don't ever believe this is your fault. Had Sirius seen a vision of you being tortured he would have tried to save you too." Then trying to change the subject asked. "How long of you been able to produce strong spells without a wand?"
"I didn't know I was." Harry answered. Then noticing Lupin standing so close said in a much harsher tone while putting the 'walls' back up around himself. "Get out. Enough people have died because of me. I have enough blood on my hands without yours added to it."
Lupin left Harry's room and went to contact Dumbledore. If Harry was able to do wandless magic without knowing something bad could happen.
When Harry woke up he had only one thought on his mind, he had to get away from everything. He spent half the day thinking up ways that he could accomplish that. He had come up with lots of ideas but all of them included magic. When Harry looked out his window and saw a group of teens talking and laughing with not a care in the world he snapped.
"I'm never going to be allowed a normal life. I've got to get out of here and away from everything." Harry thought angrily as he ran out of his room.
Harry sprinted down the stairs and out the door. He kept running when he was outside. Running pushed everything out of Harrys' mind. The only thing he had to think about was putting one foot in front of the other.
Harry could hear someone running behind him but didn't care. The person was close behind Harry, but he was quickly putting space between himself and whoever it was. Harry didn't even slow down when he heard the person swear and tell him to stop running. It was nice not to have to think about anything and Harry planned on keeping it that way.
The person took his invisibility cloak off so he could run freely. Even without the cloak the person couldn't catch Harry. The person may have been in excellent shape, but with Harry releasing all of his emotion there was no hope in keeping up much longer. So the person pulled out a chocolate frog card with Dumbledore on it and said.
"I need help. He's running. I can't keep up."
"Kingsley where's Harry headed?" Dumbledore asked.
"He's on his way to the play park." Kingsley answered as he kept running.
"I'm sending Remus to help you." Dumbledore said as Kingsley put the card back in his robes.
Kingsley stopped for a minute and apparated closer to Harry. At the same moment Lupin appeared. They continued chasing Harry for ten minutes. They were both out of breath when they saw Harry collapse. Seeing this Lupin and Kingsley put forth one last burst of speed. When they arrived at Harry's side Lupin shook Harry and said.
"Wake up." Nothing happened so he tried again a little harder. "Wake up!" Still nothing happened.
"Let me see him." Kingsley said as he knelt down next to Harry. Kingsley forced one of Harrys' eyes open, looked at the response he got and turned to Lupin. "We need to get him back to Headquarters. He was to weak to do that much running and needs attention immediately."
Lupin quickly made a portkey to take them back to Headquarters. They made sure that Harry was touching it and then felt the familiar jerk behind their bellybutton.
When they arrived at Headquarters Mrs. Weasley and Tonks were in the kitchen. Mrs. Weasley immediately noticed Harry.
"What happened?" Mrs. Weasley shrieked which brought everyone else in the house running into the kitchen. Ron, Hermione and Ginny stopped in their tracks when they saw Harry.
"Is he dead?" Hermione asked worriedly.
"He's going to be fine." Kingsley said reassuringly. "We just need to get him to bed."
"Are you sure? Do you want me to get Madame Pomfrey?" Mrs. Weasley asked.
"Molly just let them get Harry settled in." Tonks said restraining Mrs. Weasley from taking Harry out of Lupin's arms. "Harry just needs some rest and quite a bit to eat."
"I'll start making him some food to eat when he wakes up." Mrs. Weasley said as she headed toward the kitchen.
"Do you need any help?" Ginny asked Lupin.
"No I think I can handle it." Lupin said to the three friends.
Once Lupin had made sure that Harry was alright he started to prepare himself for the way Harry would act when he woke up. He knew that Harry was going to be very angry at being brought back to this house. Silently Lupin thought that it was a good thing this had happened. If it hadn't they would have never gotten Harry here.
"I promise I will help you through this wether you want my help or not." Lupin said. "Both Sirius and your Father would kill me if I didn't."
Harry was watching Sirius being killed again. He was throwing curses a mile a minute at Bellatrix even though he knew it wouldn't make a difference. The noise he was making brought Mr. and Mrs. Weasley, Ron, Ginny, Hermione, Tonks and Lupin running to see what was wrong. When they opened the door they saw the curses flying all over the room. Lupin noticed that Harry wasn't using his wand, since it was still on the table beside him, and that Harry was still asleep.
"We've got to wake him up." Lupin shouted.
Lupin's shouting brought Harry out his doze. He jerked into sitting position just in time to see his last stunning spell hit the wall. He looked around for a minute trying to figure out where he was when his eyes landed on the people that had come to check on him.
"Where am I? What are you doing here?" Harry asked coldly glaring at everyone. Then directing his attention to Lupin added. "I thought I told you to keep yourself and everyone else as far away from me as possible." Everyone shivered slightly. They had all heard Lupin say how bad Harry was but thought that he had been exaggerating. Now they knew that Lupin had not been exaggerating at all.
"I'm waiting for an answer." Harry said. Lupin took a deep breath and said.
"You collapsed while trying to run away from us. We brought you back to Headquarters. We are all here because we were worried about you."
"I can take care of myself." Harry started.
"That's obvious." Tonks said as Harry glared at her.
"I told you I didn't want to come back here. I'm leaving." Harry growled as he got out of bed. Mrs. Weasley quickly forgot her fear and switched to mothering mode.
"If you even try to get out of that bed, Harry, I will conjure up some ropes to keep you there." Mrs. Weasley told him. Harry glared at her but got back into bed. Knowing that he wasn't strong enough to get passed everybody in the room.
"Fine." Harry said his voice a forced calm. "Get out."
"What?" Tonks asked.
"You heard me. I want all of you to leave." Harry growled his voice getting lower.
Tonks, Mr. Weasley, Ron, Hermione and Ginny all backed out of the room. Mrs. Weasley and Lupin stayed put. Harry glared at both of them. Neither backed down. After a couple minutes Harry relaxed into his bed. It took to much energy to continue glaring at the two people in his room and he was still tired from the day before. Upon seeing Harry give in Mrs. Weasley conjured up some food and took it over to Harry.
"Eat up. You're severely underweight. I will be checking on you every half hour and if it doesn't look like you're eating I will force you." Mrs. Weasley said then left the room.
Harry knew Lupin was still in the room and ignored him. He looked around the room once more recognizing it as Sirius' old room. What little appetite he had was lost.
"You should have this room. I don't want it." Harry said not looking at Lupin but knowing that he was still there.
"This is your room in your house." Lupin said. "Sirius said that if anything should happen to him you were to get the house."
"If this is my house then I want a different room." Harry said back.
"Sirius also said he wanted you to have his room. I don't know why I'm just following his wishes." Lupin responded. Harry glared at Lupin and said.
"Is this some kind of sick joke? Just so you know I don't find it amusing."
"This is not a joke." Lupin said. "Sirius would want you to move on with your life. He would hate the fact that you're beating yourself up over his death."
"I can't help it." Harry said quietly the coldness in his voice gone. "It's my fault. If I had learned Occlumency then this never would have happened." Harry said needing to cry but not being able to. Lupin noticed this and made his way over to Harry. He put a hand on Harry's shoulder and said.
"Don't ever believe this is your fault. Had Sirius seen a vision of you being tortured he would have tried to save you too." Then trying to change the subject asked. "How long of you been able to produce strong spells without a wand?"
"I didn't know I was." Harry answered. Then noticing Lupin standing so close said in a much harsher tone while putting the 'walls' back up around himself. "Get out. Enough people have died because of me. I have enough blood on my hands without yours added to it."
Lupin left Harry's room and went to contact Dumbledore. If Harry was able to do wandless magic without knowing something bad could happen.