Chapter 4
Harry spent the day eating what he could. True to her word Mrs. Weasley came to check on him every half hour. His friends hadn't come to see him which was just fine with Harry. Lupin came back with all his belongings in the early evening.
Early the next day Ginny, Ron and Hermione tried to visit their friend. Ron tried to talk about Quidditch. Harry just ignored him. Ginny tried to get him to play a game. Harry ignored her. Ron and Ginny finally let Hermione try to ask him about O.W.L results. Yet again Harry ignored them.
After two hours of being ignored they gave up. Once outside Harry's room they started talking.
"Doesn't seem the same does he." Ron said.
"Of course he wouldn't be the same Ron. Where have you been? Sirius is dead. Sirius was the closest thing to a family Harry had and now he's dead!" Ginny practically yelled.
"I know Sirius is dead but Harry has lost people before and hasn't acted this bad." Ron yelled back.
"Cool it both of you." Hermione said. "You're both right only in different ways. Yes Harry has lost people before but no one he was this close to." Hermione said and Ginny gave Ron a smug smile. "But he's also different in another way. While you two were trying to cheer him up did you look in his eyes?" Ron and Ginny both shook their heads. "If you had looked in his eyes you would have seen deep grief and strong hatred." Hermione said sighing that her friends weren't more observant.
"He has strong hatred toward us?" Ron asked. "But we're his best friends."
"I think his hatred is directed toward the whole world. I even think a little of his hatred might be aimed at Sirius." Hermione answered.
"Why is Harry mad at Sirius?" Ron asked.
"Harry's anger toward Sirius is probably due to the fact that he thinks that Sirius abandoned him." Hermione answered as though this was the most obvious answer in the world.
"What can we do? He won't talk to us, and I don't think we'd get very far by torturing him." Ginny said.
"I have an idea but we need to ask Dumbledore first." Hermione replied.
"That should be easy enough. I heard Lupin saying that Dumbledore was coming by today." Ron said.
It was early afternoon when Dumbledore came by to see Harry. Dumbledore had been delayed a few minutes by Ron, Hermione and Ginny. Lupin accompanied Dumbledore to Harry's room but stopped at the door.
"Aren't you coming in Remus?" Dumbledore asked.
"Harry doesn't want me anywhere close to him at the moment. I think your visit will be a lot easier without me." Lupin answered.
"Nonsense, I want you to come to." Dumbledore replied dragging Lupin into Harry's room.
Harry felt two people enter his room. He ignored them hoping they would go away. He knew they wouldn't as they came and sat by his bed.
"Good afternoon Harry." Dumbledore said. Harry made no sign that he had heard the Headmaster. "How are you doing?"
"I'd be fine if everyone would leave me alone." Harry answered.
"Well seeing as that's not going to happen why don't we talk." Dumbledore said. Harry didn't answer. "Harry don't blame yourself for Sirius' death. If you want to blame anyone blame Voldemort or Peter or Bellatrix."
"Don't worry they're getting plenty of blame. But seeing how my parents, Cedric's and Sirius' death had one thing in common I blame that thing too." Harry answered.
"What would that one thing be?" Dumbledore asked.
"Me." Harry answered. "They all died because they were around me."
"I see." Dumbledore answered deciding he wasn't going to get any farther on that subject. "I brought your supply list. I gave it to Molly. I think she is planning on going to Diagon Alley tomorrow so you might want to tell her what else you need." Dumbledore said.
"If I'm not allowed to go get my supplies I don't really care wether or not I have my list." Harry answered.
"Harry ignoring Sirius' death is not going to help anything." Dumbledore said.
"I'm not ignoring his death! The fact that he's dead is tearing me apart! I want you both to leave NOW!" Harry yelled. As if to emphasize his point three books came flying across the room and hit the door.
Dumbledore and Lupin exited Harry's room. They could both see the pain in Harry's eyes and hear the grief in his voice when Sirius was brought up. Both were so bad that it almost made them cry. They also knew that Harry was not going to be able cry and that made them feel worse.
"I see what you mean about the wandless magic." Dumbledore said to Lupin. "You will need to keep an eye on him. If the spells start getting more complex Harry could be a danger to himself and others."
"Albus, do you think there's any chance of getting the old Harry back?" Lupin asked.
"I'm afraid that at least until Voldemort is killed the chances of that happening are very slim. Especially with his new found power. The best you can do is to keep pushing yourself into his life. I have instructed Ron, Hermione and Ginny to do the same. Harry feels that the reason Sirius is dead is because he was to close to him. So to counter that Harry is going to try and push everyone else away. And Remus, Harry knows what the prophecy says." Dumbledore finished then left.
Lupin wished that he could take Harry's pain away. The only person Lupin knew that could do that was Sirius. So short of brining Sirius back from the dead he would have to wait until Harry was ready to talk.
Harry spent the day eating what he could. True to her word Mrs. Weasley came to check on him every half hour. His friends hadn't come to see him which was just fine with Harry. Lupin came back with all his belongings in the early evening.
Early the next day Ginny, Ron and Hermione tried to visit their friend. Ron tried to talk about Quidditch. Harry just ignored him. Ginny tried to get him to play a game. Harry ignored her. Ron and Ginny finally let Hermione try to ask him about O.W.L results. Yet again Harry ignored them.
After two hours of being ignored they gave up. Once outside Harry's room they started talking.
"Doesn't seem the same does he." Ron said.
"Of course he wouldn't be the same Ron. Where have you been? Sirius is dead. Sirius was the closest thing to a family Harry had and now he's dead!" Ginny practically yelled.
"I know Sirius is dead but Harry has lost people before and hasn't acted this bad." Ron yelled back.
"Cool it both of you." Hermione said. "You're both right only in different ways. Yes Harry has lost people before but no one he was this close to." Hermione said and Ginny gave Ron a smug smile. "But he's also different in another way. While you two were trying to cheer him up did you look in his eyes?" Ron and Ginny both shook their heads. "If you had looked in his eyes you would have seen deep grief and strong hatred." Hermione said sighing that her friends weren't more observant.
"He has strong hatred toward us?" Ron asked. "But we're his best friends."
"I think his hatred is directed toward the whole world. I even think a little of his hatred might be aimed at Sirius." Hermione answered.
"Why is Harry mad at Sirius?" Ron asked.
"Harry's anger toward Sirius is probably due to the fact that he thinks that Sirius abandoned him." Hermione answered as though this was the most obvious answer in the world.
"What can we do? He won't talk to us, and I don't think we'd get very far by torturing him." Ginny said.
"I have an idea but we need to ask Dumbledore first." Hermione replied.
"That should be easy enough. I heard Lupin saying that Dumbledore was coming by today." Ron said.
It was early afternoon when Dumbledore came by to see Harry. Dumbledore had been delayed a few minutes by Ron, Hermione and Ginny. Lupin accompanied Dumbledore to Harry's room but stopped at the door.
"Aren't you coming in Remus?" Dumbledore asked.
"Harry doesn't want me anywhere close to him at the moment. I think your visit will be a lot easier without me." Lupin answered.
"Nonsense, I want you to come to." Dumbledore replied dragging Lupin into Harry's room.
Harry felt two people enter his room. He ignored them hoping they would go away. He knew they wouldn't as they came and sat by his bed.
"Good afternoon Harry." Dumbledore said. Harry made no sign that he had heard the Headmaster. "How are you doing?"
"I'd be fine if everyone would leave me alone." Harry answered.
"Well seeing as that's not going to happen why don't we talk." Dumbledore said. Harry didn't answer. "Harry don't blame yourself for Sirius' death. If you want to blame anyone blame Voldemort or Peter or Bellatrix."
"Don't worry they're getting plenty of blame. But seeing how my parents, Cedric's and Sirius' death had one thing in common I blame that thing too." Harry answered.
"What would that one thing be?" Dumbledore asked.
"Me." Harry answered. "They all died because they were around me."
"I see." Dumbledore answered deciding he wasn't going to get any farther on that subject. "I brought your supply list. I gave it to Molly. I think she is planning on going to Diagon Alley tomorrow so you might want to tell her what else you need." Dumbledore said.
"If I'm not allowed to go get my supplies I don't really care wether or not I have my list." Harry answered.
"Harry ignoring Sirius' death is not going to help anything." Dumbledore said.
"I'm not ignoring his death! The fact that he's dead is tearing me apart! I want you both to leave NOW!" Harry yelled. As if to emphasize his point three books came flying across the room and hit the door.
Dumbledore and Lupin exited Harry's room. They could both see the pain in Harry's eyes and hear the grief in his voice when Sirius was brought up. Both were so bad that it almost made them cry. They also knew that Harry was not going to be able cry and that made them feel worse.
"I see what you mean about the wandless magic." Dumbledore said to Lupin. "You will need to keep an eye on him. If the spells start getting more complex Harry could be a danger to himself and others."
"Albus, do you think there's any chance of getting the old Harry back?" Lupin asked.
"I'm afraid that at least until Voldemort is killed the chances of that happening are very slim. Especially with his new found power. The best you can do is to keep pushing yourself into his life. I have instructed Ron, Hermione and Ginny to do the same. Harry feels that the reason Sirius is dead is because he was to close to him. So to counter that Harry is going to try and push everyone else away. And Remus, Harry knows what the prophecy says." Dumbledore finished then left.
Lupin wished that he could take Harry's pain away. The only person Lupin knew that could do that was Sirius. So short of brining Sirius back from the dead he would have to wait until Harry was ready to talk.