Umarekawaru: Chapter 4
Author's notes: Yes, I am terribly sorry I didn't get to this sooner! I've been busy with my homework, and kanji, and all sorts of other stuff I don't have time to list! Okay, so here's the next chapter!
This…this face…could it be? Could it be…
"Onkan?" the soft lavender eyes gazed at her from the picture, the whitish hair glinting in the sun. It was Onkan all right, but who were these other people? Dawn decided the only way to find out was to check the remainder of the diary. She turned the photograph over to see the date 7-10-04 written neatly in purple pen. She opened the diary to the entries and began to look for the entry labeled 7-10-04, if there was one. Indeed, she did find it, after scanning all of the pages. It was one of her last entries.
7-10-04 8:00 PM
Dear Journal,
I feel so worthless right now. I've…I've shamed everyone. I feel that the name of the Pretear does me justice no longer. Sasame is dead, and it is all my fault! I wonder why I've even written in here, as it will do me no good.
If you could have seen Sasame's face as he died, diary, you would understand the pain I've relived over and over again, the agony that has bound me to depression.
His face was bleeding! Everything…everywhere was blood! And you know who did it? Me! Me, I killed Sasame! And all of the other Knights-Hayate, Shin, Kei, Goh, Mannin, and Hajime-I hurt them all as well! I'll never forgive myself for what I've done, never! Sasame…all he wanted to do was help, and he died. Died because of me. All my fault…
"Who is this Sasame? She seems to like him…But that was then, this is now. I have to find out who this white haired stranger is and how he knows Himeno." Dawn frowned as she turned the page to the next entry.
7-11-04 9:00 PM
Dear Journal,
Sasame tried to comfort me today. He kept telling me that he was alright, that his death was not my fault. But I know in my heart that it was. If he wouldn't have preted with me, then he wouldn't have died, simple as that.
"Prêt? Pretear? What is she talking about? And I thought she said Sasame, whoever he is, was dead. How in the world is he comforting her?" Nothing in that entry satisfying her, she turned the page once more.
7-21-04 7:00 PM
Dear Journal,
I think I have a new power. I went to visit the other Leafe Knights to ask them about it. They didn't have any idea about it, but Sasame did. I wonder how he communicates with me…he's been talking to me these past few days, maybe by telepathic message. Something like that. But he said not to use my power yet. He said I should use it for when I really, truly need it. When my heart says it's right? But how will I know? Will the answer just come to me? Or will Sasame tell me?
Sasame refuses to give me any real details about the power, except for it is too important to use now. What is that supposed to mean? When will an emergency count? I think now is time enough, because Hayate is still missing, and Sasame is gone. The Leafe Knights are going out of their minds and I'm falling into depression! It feels like Fenir is already here; everything is going so bad! I wish I could just roll myself up into this comforter and wash everything that's happened out of my brain. Just delete it all, push it into the garbage. But…then I would be letting the kids down. And that wouldn't be a very good thing, would it? The Leafe Knights may not want to admit it, and I don't want to admit it, but we need each other, more than ever now! If I give up now, what will they do?
"Leafe Knights? Is that who the strangers in the picture are? And Himeno is this thing called a…a Pretear? Who is Fenir? Who are Hayate and Sasame? And who are the kids? I don't think these are helping me much…" Clueless, Dawn turned to the middle of the diary, finding exactly what she had wanted.
2-22-04 5:00 PM
Dear Journal,
Hello…I'm so confused. I feel…lightheaded…sick to my stomach…okay, I guess I'd better start at the beginning…
Dawn read the entry slowly and carefully, soaking up all the information about each 'Leafe Knight' and what had happened to her darling daughter Himeno.
When she was finished, she began to inspect the pictures that were taped into the cover of the diary. She saw a tall and dark blue haired man, the labeling 'Hayate.' Next to that was a small picture of a small boy with blonde hair and emerald eyes, titled 'Shin.' Then came people named Mannin, Goh, Hajime, and Kei, each with their picture above their name. Surprisingly, the last one was the man called Sasame. He looked exactly like Onkan, with the exception of the clothes.
"Is that really Onkan, and not a twin? Sasame is dead…" She remembered her own apparent experience with death, and realized that Onkan and Sasame were one in the same. But why the name change? Why not come out and say 'Oh, I knew your daughter. My name is Sasame,'? Was it honestly that hard?
A few seconds after seeing the picture, she heard footsteps in the hallway and someone in the doorway. She started to turn around, knowing exactly who was there waiting for her. Did he know she knew?
Author's Notes: Not quite a cliffhanger there. I made it so you would easily be able to tell who was waiting for her. But are you all wondering how Sasame got there in the first place? (I am too! I haven't thought that part up yet…) Therefore, it will take a while for me to think up a solution to this problem and then write it out, so you might have to wait a while. I have to crack down on my homework too, so…(3 weeks till school! Yay!) Alright, gotta go!