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James sat on his bed in the dorm alone. He was being suffocated by his grief. James had not left his bed in the last three days, soon everyone would be back and classes would start. Sirius and Remus had been trying since they arrived to get him to move. Dumbledore had taken him to his room as soon as they got to the school. Lily had come up a few times with Remus or Sirius, but James had rebuffed her every time. On the last day before the holiday ends, Sirius, Remus and Lily go up. They were determined to get him out of bed. James could not act like this once school starts. As they enter the room, they realize that the curtains around his bed are still closed. They were closed when the boys had left earlier. Lily turned to the boys.
"Why don't you let me handle him alone this time? If I really need help then I'll call for you. Maybe this just needs a woman's touch. Come up in 20 minutes if we're not down yet." She tells them. Remus and Sirius leave the room as Lily climbs through the curtain surrounding the bed. James lies on his side facing the other direction. Lily watches him, by the way of his breathing, James is asleep. Bloody Hell, this guy is so hard to wake up; the only way is for me to kiss him. With the way he's been lately, though, I'm not sure it's a good idea, she thinks. Finally she gives up the internal battle and moves over so she can kiss him. James doesn't seem to wake up at first, but soon he pushes her off. Lily tumbles off the bed backwards from the unexpected force.
"What was that for Sirius?" he grumbles, thinking it was his best friend. He turns over and sees the curtains slightly parted, with Lily on the ground. She gets up, rubbing her bum.
"So I take it I'm not the only one who uses that method on you. Sirius seems to have found the only way to wake you up." Lily tells him with humour in her voice. She climbs up onto the bed again and closes the curtains. She becomes serious. "James you need to get out of this funk. All you've done since we got back is lie in bed. I know you loved your mum, but this out of hand. Classes start tomorrow, everyone comes back tonight. You have to get out of bed. You're deteriorating. Come on Remus and Sirius are down in the common room waiting for us."
"Lily just leave me alone. I get enough of this from Sirius and Remus."
"Please James...do it for me. Your mum wouldn't want you to be like this...do it for her. We all love you James, just come down to the common room. You don't have to leave the dorm right now, but just have a shower get, dressed and come down. I'll wait here for you." She tells him. James sits up, still under the covers.
"I really don't want to Lily. I get this all the time from Remus, from Sirius, from Dumbledore. Just leave me alone Lily...I want to be alone."
"I'm not leaving until you get out of bed and get ready. I'll stay here all night if I have to."
"Lily just go away." He tells her forcefully. She stares at him and shakes her head no. "Lily...just go! I want to be alone! Don't you understand? My mum didn't just die, she was murdered! I can't just get over that. She was the only good thing in my life before Hogwarts."
"James you can't change what happened. No one can. I think you need to get out of bed, come down to the common room at least. We need to get you out of here, out of this room." She tells him. She notices there are tears forming in his eyes. She crawls over to him and pulls him into her arms. "Oh James...I'm sorry. I'm here for you, Sirius is here, Remus is here, and Eloise and Jenna got here once they heard what happened. You have so many people here for you. Please, for us, go have a shower and get dressed. I'll wait here."
"I don't want to leave this room. You're the only one I need right now." He says to her. Lily grabs his hand and pulls him out of bed. Reluctantly he follows her tug. As she envelops him in a hug, he leans down and kisses Lily. She responds quickly to him. He deserves some pleasure in his life, the poor guy, she thinks. James runs his tongue along her bottom lip begging for permission. She grants it, he probes her mouth, searching every crevice of it. Their tongues dance ferociously. Leaving her mouth, James kisses down to her collarbone. Lily moans as he reaches the sensitive flesh. His blood stirs. James works his way back up to her mouth, capturing her again. Somehow they had gotten turned around; James slowly backs Lily up until her knees hit the bed. Lily lets go of him and sits down, she edges her way farther back on it. James just stares at her for a few minutes; finally he joins her on the bed. He lies down next to her, propping himself up on his elbow. She leans over and catches him in a passionate kiss. She sucks his lower lip. James runs his hands over her body, not touching but skimming the air over her. This made Lily shiver, just having James so near, doing something so sensual, was too much. He slowly undoes the buttons holding her thin sweater on her body. Sitting up, it easily falls from her shoulders and is taken off. She kisses him again. James pulls away from her and sits up. His painful erection tents his pants; he held a pillow over his lap so Lily wouldn't see. "I want to, but we can't..."
"James, I know. Come on...please go have a shower and we'll get out of here. Remus and Sirius will be coming up here any minute now. Please we can do anything you want to, just get out of bed." Lily pleads. James nods his head and goes into the bathroom. He needed a cold shower. While Lily waits on his bed, James goes into the adjoined bathroom. He turns the shower on, filling the room with steam. He strips off all his clothes and steps in letting the hot water run down his body. He strokes himself thinking of what happened with Lily. His body bucks as he finishes. He goes threw all the motions of washing himself. He walks back into his room clad in only a towel. Lily sits on the bed, still waiting. She watches him as he comes out. Water drips from his body and hair. This looks familiar, oh yes at home...wait did I say home? I did, it's not my home though, it's his...maybe not anymore, if Dumbledore doesn't let him go back. Well I got him out of bed, she thinks not wanting to think about Mrs. Potter death and what will happen anymore. James shakes his head spraying water everywhere as he walks over to the end of the bed. Lily laughs at him as she gets sprayed. He opens his trunk up and gets out clean boxers, a white t-shirt and a pair of jeans. He looks up at her, she smiles. "Feel any better?"
"A little." He says. He pulls the boxers on under the towel and lets it drop. Lily looks at the door as they hear it open. Sirius and Remus walk in.
"Well..." Remus starts.
"Looks like you were right Lils. It did take a woman's touch." Sirius finished. They both sit down on James' bed.
"But Sirius, I didn't do anything you haven't done before." Lily tells them coyly. Sirius shoots her a confused look. She laughs at it; James, fully clothed now, laughs along. "All I did was kiss him, he pushed me off thinking it was you."
"Padfoot, I didn't know you swung the other way, you puff." Remus joked.
"I never kissed you mate."
"No, you just did everything else though...how was I supposed to know it wasn't you?" James responds grumpily. Lily starts to pull him to her as he starts to walk by. He pulls her up into his arms.
"Why don't we all go to the common room? Jenna and Eloise should be down there, right guys?" Lily asks. Remus nods. The two boys get up and they all walk down the staircase. Eloise and Jenna are sitting on the couch waiting expectantly for them.
"Are you ok James?" Eloise asked as she went over to Sirius.
"Better then I was thanks." he says. Remus goes and sits down on the couch with Jenna. Sirius takes the chair, with Eloise on his lap. Lily leans up against the couch, James lays down with his head in her lap. They sit there in silence for what seems like hours. No one can think of what might be the right thing to say.
"So..." Jenna starts. She can't think of anything to finish it off with.
"Yeah..." Remus does the same thing.
"Guys...it's ok. I'll cope. So what's been going on while I've been stuck up there?" James asks them quietly.
"Besides trying to get you out, not much." Remus tells him.
"We've, I mean Jenna, Sirius, Remus and I, have been to Hogsmeade a few times. Dumbledore thought we might like it, he said you could've come to, but we couldn't get you out." Eloise says shyly from her spot.
"You didn't go Lils?" he asks her. He looks up at her, waiting. She shakes her head no. "Why not?"
"I couldn't just leave you here alone, well without a friend. What if you needed something? It wouldn't be right to have left you. I wanted to be here for you if you needed something or someone." Lily responds.
"You really didn't need to."
"I know. I wanted to."
"Why aren't you two together yet? You're perfect for each other and it's not like we haven't caught you snogging before." Jenna blurts out. She slaps a hand over her mouth. "I'm sorry guys. I'm so stupid. I feel so bad, you know me I say whatever in my head. It must seem like I'm not sympathetic at all."
"It's all right Jenn. I'm fine with it, you're not stupid." James tells her. "I'm not sure the answer to your question though. Lils?"
"I'm not sure either. You stopped asking me out." Lily tells him, blushing slightly, unconsciously playing with his hair. She looks down at his face. He reaches up and drags a finger along her jaw line.
"Well then I guess we are." James says.
"Since you put it that way..." Lily says sarcastically. James looks up at her, seeing the look on her face; he realizes he went about it all wrong.
"All right, all right." He says. He gets up on one knee. He starts dramatically. "Lily Evans, love of my life, will you do me the great pleasure of going out with me?"
Dun dun duh... what will she say yes?...no? Tell me what you want to happen. Do you guys want them to get together now or later? Hehehe I love all you who review me...and I guess I love all you who don't too, but not as much as those who do. So review so I can love you all the same.