Chapter 4: No More Emotion
Inu-Taisho galloped his horse through the broken gates to his courtyard in front of the castle. He slowed his horse down to a walk as he looked around at the horrific, and bloody mess that covered the once beautiful garden. He jumped off his horse and left him by the gates. As he stepped over the dead bodies of the cat demons he noticed the bodies of the two tower guards. He shook his head in sadness for the two men.
He looked towards his castle and noticed a huge hole in the first floor wall. Next to the hole was a sliding door window. Blood was smeared over the windows. Inu-Taisho then noticed sitting on a rock wall about a two ft high in front of the sliding door window, was his 11 year old son Sesshomaru.
Sesshomaru was sitting with his right side facing the sliding door window and his left side facing towards Inu-Taisho who stood a few ways away staring at him. Sesshomaru's left leg hung loosely over the rock wall and his right leg was bent with his right foot resting on the wall. His right arm rested on his knee. His clawed hand was covered, and dripping with blood. His shoulder-length tangled hair blew majestically in the soft wind. His face was blank as his eyes stared at the ground, filled with nothing, nothing at all. No thought, no emotion, nothing.
"Sesshomaru." Inu-Taisho said, his voice stern, but soft, "Where is your mother?"
Sesshomaru lowered his head so that his blue-silver bangs shadowed his eyes. He lifted his bloody hand and pointed to his right into the room he sat outside of.
Inu-Taisho walked past Sesshomaru into the room. What he saw next he would never be able to get out of his mind. The sight of his dear mate dead so horrifically in front of him was almost too much. And what was even more depressing is that with his keen senses he could look at the scene and be able to play out in his head what had happened. Looking at the two dead cat demons in the room... killed by his own son. His mate had been raped and then killed. Inu-Taisho could never forgive himself, or the cat demons.
Inu-Taisho walked back outside and stood by his son. "Sesshomaru, look at me." Sesshomaru lifted his head up and turned it towards his father. Still no emotion on his face but his eyes were filled with tears. "Sesshomaru, I..."
"Where were you?" Sesshomaru asked with anger, his voice surprisingly deep.
"I tried my hardest to get here as fast as I could Sessho...." Inu-Taisho paused. Seeing his son's chest begin to heave while more tears began to flow down his cheeks. His son's breathing became little gasps.
Inu-Taisho leaned forward and rapped his arms around Sesshomaru. "LEAVE ME ALONE!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!" Sesshomaru pushed his father away and sprinted across the court-yard, out the gates and into the woods.
Inu-Taisho watched his son leave. He knew he'd come back within a days time. His own son had just watch his mother be raped and killed and then through rage he killed an entire army of cat demons. Sesshomaru now knew what it was like to kill. The feeling of fresh blood on your hands. The rich, warm taste of it on your lips. Eyes filled with fury.
Sesshomaru was now a killer.
But what did that matter? All demons were bound to become blood-thirsty killers sooner or later. It is part of growing up for a demon.
Sesshomaru ran as fast as his demon legs could carry him through the forest. He didn't look back at all. He just kept going straight. He wanted to get as far away from that place as possible. Finally after an hour's worth of running, Sesshomaru stopped and collapsed to the ground where he stood. He fell asleep instantly.
A few more hours later Sesshomaru slowly opened his eyes. He found himself in a field of tall light green grass. He hadn't even paid attention to where he had fallen asleep.
It was late afternoon, for the sky was a dark blue color and a few stars had begun appearing in the sky. Sesshomaru got up to his feet and sniffed the wind. The wind blew through his hair. He could sense that where the wind was blowing was where a near-by cliff was. He followed where the wind was going and sure enough he came to the cliff. He stood tall near the edge and watched the sun set.
It was a stunning, but calming sight. While the sun was laying half covered by the ground the sky above it was a bright rainbow of colors. A mixture of reds, yellows, oranges, then rising up into the sky were blues, and purples, then bluish-black sky with bright stars. Then there was the moon. It was a crescent moon tonight and it looked exactly like the marking on his, and his mother's forehead.
Being reminded of his mother he grit his teeth and growled loudly. He clenched his fists so tightly that his talons dug into his skin and his hands began to bleed. Sesshomaru felt tears swell up in his golden eyes.
"NO!" He yelled as he jerked his hands to his face to roughly wipe away those tears. "I will not cry! I will never let my emotions get the better of me!" His breathing was un-steady and came in short breaths. He continued to stare through blurry vision at the sunset till it was completely gone, and the sky was then black.
He turned back towards the forest and walked slowly all the way back to his father's castle.
When he got back to the castle he was relieved to see that his father had all the bloody carcasses removed from the garden. Though he could still smell the faintly the scent of cat demon, and dog demon blood.
As he slowly walked past the great hole in the wall where his mother had been thrown into, he paused by it for a moment. Flash-backs of the nauseating scene of his mother being raped and killed, raced through his mind overwhelmingly. The grunts of that sick, twisted, and shameless cat demon. The whimpering sounds of his mother while she tried to hold back her screams. Trying to remain tough, all the while fighting back as hard as she could to keep her dignity.
Then all the blood flooded his mind. The frightened faces of cat demon soldiers. The garden being painted with fresh blood. And then the blood covering his hand. To the naked eye it would look like it had been washed off. But in spirit the blood will always remain on his hands. The sight of his will forever burn his eyes. And the sweat rich taste will remain in his mouth, dripping from his pearl white fangs.
Beginning to breathe heavily again, Sesshomaru quickly walked on. He clumsily opened the sliding doors and hurried to his room. He buried himself in his bed and silently cried himself to sleep. This would be the last night he ever cried. No matter what he vowed he would never shed a single tear for anyone ever again.
His dreams were filled with nightmares. All he saw was blood, dead bodies, his mother being raped and killed over and over again, right in front of him. He himself killing everything that got in his way. him then seeing his father being wounded, then dieing shortly after. Then Sesshomaru found himself standing in a field covered with dead bodies. The grass stained a dark ugly crimson color of blood. Sesshomaru noticed he was older in this nightmare of a dream. And standing in front of him was another demon. Sesshomaru couldn't see him clearly, but he could tell this demon had long white hair and was wearing read clothing.
"Who are you?" Sesshomaru demanded.
"This is the end Sesshomaru, you bastard!" the demon yelled, "You will finally die!"
"What did I ever do to you?" Sesshomaru growled, "And how do you know my name?"
The demon lunged at Sesshomaru, "DIE!!!"
The scene disappeared all together and then Sesshomaru found himself in another battlefield with demons of all kinds attacking him one right after another. Sesshomaru killing more and more, shedding more and more blood.
"When will this nightmare end?"
Finally after endless bloody dreams of satanic horror, Sesshomaru woke up with a gasp. He was covered in sweat. It was still dark out but he could tell that the sun was getting ready to rise soon. He could see the bottom of the sky turning into the lighter blue color.
Sesshomaru sat on the window sill and stared off lost in his mind till it was bright morning. He heard one of the maids enter his room and say, "The Lord Inu-Taisho wishes you to join him for breakfast."
"I will be there shortly." Sesshomaru replied not turning his head.
Once the maid left Sesshomaru sat at the window sill for a few more minutes and then got dresses to go down and eat with his father. When he reached the low table he sat himself down across from his father as usual. His mother would have normally sat next to his father but the pad seat next to Inu-Taisho was empty.
For the first few minutes of eating freshly cooked fish, with warm herbal tea, and white rice, they were silent. Inu-Taisho broke the silence by saying, "Did you sleep well?"
Sesshomaru bit his tongue to keep from snapping at his father. He replied, "I slept dreamlessly, Father."
"Ah, that is good"
They continued to eat again in silence then Sesshomaru asked,
"Father,"
"Yes?"
"Do you believe that dreams can sometimes tell the future."
Inu-Taisho paused, "It is said that sometimes when you have a dream, especially when you are young, you might meet a person in that dream that you will later on meet at some point later on in your life. And most of the time that person will have a great effect on your life. Same goes for seeing something happen to a person. Or seeing a scene of actions take place, or something like that may be a part of what might happen to you later on in life. It is also said that spirits from the spirit world sometimes enter our dreams to talk with us, or maybe show us something, trying to give us a message. Why do you wish to know this?"
"No reason, I was just wondering."
"Ah, I see."
They continued to eat in silence after that.
Inu-Taisho galloped his horse through the broken gates to his courtyard in front of the castle. He slowed his horse down to a walk as he looked around at the horrific, and bloody mess that covered the once beautiful garden. He jumped off his horse and left him by the gates. As he stepped over the dead bodies of the cat demons he noticed the bodies of the two tower guards. He shook his head in sadness for the two men.
He looked towards his castle and noticed a huge hole in the first floor wall. Next to the hole was a sliding door window. Blood was smeared over the windows. Inu-Taisho then noticed sitting on a rock wall about a two ft high in front of the sliding door window, was his 11 year old son Sesshomaru.
Sesshomaru was sitting with his right side facing the sliding door window and his left side facing towards Inu-Taisho who stood a few ways away staring at him. Sesshomaru's left leg hung loosely over the rock wall and his right leg was bent with his right foot resting on the wall. His right arm rested on his knee. His clawed hand was covered, and dripping with blood. His shoulder-length tangled hair blew majestically in the soft wind. His face was blank as his eyes stared at the ground, filled with nothing, nothing at all. No thought, no emotion, nothing.
"Sesshomaru." Inu-Taisho said, his voice stern, but soft, "Where is your mother?"
Sesshomaru lowered his head so that his blue-silver bangs shadowed his eyes. He lifted his bloody hand and pointed to his right into the room he sat outside of.
Inu-Taisho walked past Sesshomaru into the room. What he saw next he would never be able to get out of his mind. The sight of his dear mate dead so horrifically in front of him was almost too much. And what was even more depressing is that with his keen senses he could look at the scene and be able to play out in his head what had happened. Looking at the two dead cat demons in the room... killed by his own son. His mate had been raped and then killed. Inu-Taisho could never forgive himself, or the cat demons.
Inu-Taisho walked back outside and stood by his son. "Sesshomaru, look at me." Sesshomaru lifted his head up and turned it towards his father. Still no emotion on his face but his eyes were filled with tears. "Sesshomaru, I..."
"Where were you?" Sesshomaru asked with anger, his voice surprisingly deep.
"I tried my hardest to get here as fast as I could Sessho...." Inu-Taisho paused. Seeing his son's chest begin to heave while more tears began to flow down his cheeks. His son's breathing became little gasps.
Inu-Taisho leaned forward and rapped his arms around Sesshomaru. "LEAVE ME ALONE!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!" Sesshomaru pushed his father away and sprinted across the court-yard, out the gates and into the woods.
Inu-Taisho watched his son leave. He knew he'd come back within a days time. His own son had just watch his mother be raped and killed and then through rage he killed an entire army of cat demons. Sesshomaru now knew what it was like to kill. The feeling of fresh blood on your hands. The rich, warm taste of it on your lips. Eyes filled with fury.
Sesshomaru was now a killer.
But what did that matter? All demons were bound to become blood-thirsty killers sooner or later. It is part of growing up for a demon.
Sesshomaru ran as fast as his demon legs could carry him through the forest. He didn't look back at all. He just kept going straight. He wanted to get as far away from that place as possible. Finally after an hour's worth of running, Sesshomaru stopped and collapsed to the ground where he stood. He fell asleep instantly.
A few more hours later Sesshomaru slowly opened his eyes. He found himself in a field of tall light green grass. He hadn't even paid attention to where he had fallen asleep.
It was late afternoon, for the sky was a dark blue color and a few stars had begun appearing in the sky. Sesshomaru got up to his feet and sniffed the wind. The wind blew through his hair. He could sense that where the wind was blowing was where a near-by cliff was. He followed where the wind was going and sure enough he came to the cliff. He stood tall near the edge and watched the sun set.
It was a stunning, but calming sight. While the sun was laying half covered by the ground the sky above it was a bright rainbow of colors. A mixture of reds, yellows, oranges, then rising up into the sky were blues, and purples, then bluish-black sky with bright stars. Then there was the moon. It was a crescent moon tonight and it looked exactly like the marking on his, and his mother's forehead.
Being reminded of his mother he grit his teeth and growled loudly. He clenched his fists so tightly that his talons dug into his skin and his hands began to bleed. Sesshomaru felt tears swell up in his golden eyes.
"NO!" He yelled as he jerked his hands to his face to roughly wipe away those tears. "I will not cry! I will never let my emotions get the better of me!" His breathing was un-steady and came in short breaths. He continued to stare through blurry vision at the sunset till it was completely gone, and the sky was then black.
He turned back towards the forest and walked slowly all the way back to his father's castle.
When he got back to the castle he was relieved to see that his father had all the bloody carcasses removed from the garden. Though he could still smell the faintly the scent of cat demon, and dog demon blood.
As he slowly walked past the great hole in the wall where his mother had been thrown into, he paused by it for a moment. Flash-backs of the nauseating scene of his mother being raped and killed, raced through his mind overwhelmingly. The grunts of that sick, twisted, and shameless cat demon. The whimpering sounds of his mother while she tried to hold back her screams. Trying to remain tough, all the while fighting back as hard as she could to keep her dignity.
Then all the blood flooded his mind. The frightened faces of cat demon soldiers. The garden being painted with fresh blood. And then the blood covering his hand. To the naked eye it would look like it had been washed off. But in spirit the blood will always remain on his hands. The sight of his will forever burn his eyes. And the sweat rich taste will remain in his mouth, dripping from his pearl white fangs.
Beginning to breathe heavily again, Sesshomaru quickly walked on. He clumsily opened the sliding doors and hurried to his room. He buried himself in his bed and silently cried himself to sleep. This would be the last night he ever cried. No matter what he vowed he would never shed a single tear for anyone ever again.
His dreams were filled with nightmares. All he saw was blood, dead bodies, his mother being raped and killed over and over again, right in front of him. He himself killing everything that got in his way. him then seeing his father being wounded, then dieing shortly after. Then Sesshomaru found himself standing in a field covered with dead bodies. The grass stained a dark ugly crimson color of blood. Sesshomaru noticed he was older in this nightmare of a dream. And standing in front of him was another demon. Sesshomaru couldn't see him clearly, but he could tell this demon had long white hair and was wearing read clothing.
"Who are you?" Sesshomaru demanded.
"This is the end Sesshomaru, you bastard!" the demon yelled, "You will finally die!"
"What did I ever do to you?" Sesshomaru growled, "And how do you know my name?"
The demon lunged at Sesshomaru, "DIE!!!"
The scene disappeared all together and then Sesshomaru found himself in another battlefield with demons of all kinds attacking him one right after another. Sesshomaru killing more and more, shedding more and more blood.
"When will this nightmare end?"
Finally after endless bloody dreams of satanic horror, Sesshomaru woke up with a gasp. He was covered in sweat. It was still dark out but he could tell that the sun was getting ready to rise soon. He could see the bottom of the sky turning into the lighter blue color.
Sesshomaru sat on the window sill and stared off lost in his mind till it was bright morning. He heard one of the maids enter his room and say, "The Lord Inu-Taisho wishes you to join him for breakfast."
"I will be there shortly." Sesshomaru replied not turning his head.
Once the maid left Sesshomaru sat at the window sill for a few more minutes and then got dresses to go down and eat with his father. When he reached the low table he sat himself down across from his father as usual. His mother would have normally sat next to his father but the pad seat next to Inu-Taisho was empty.
For the first few minutes of eating freshly cooked fish, with warm herbal tea, and white rice, they were silent. Inu-Taisho broke the silence by saying, "Did you sleep well?"
Sesshomaru bit his tongue to keep from snapping at his father. He replied, "I slept dreamlessly, Father."
"Ah, that is good"
They continued to eat again in silence then Sesshomaru asked,
"Father,"
"Yes?"
"Do you believe that dreams can sometimes tell the future."
Inu-Taisho paused, "It is said that sometimes when you have a dream, especially when you are young, you might meet a person in that dream that you will later on meet at some point later on in your life. And most of the time that person will have a great effect on your life. Same goes for seeing something happen to a person. Or seeing a scene of actions take place, or something like that may be a part of what might happen to you later on in life. It is also said that spirits from the spirit world sometimes enter our dreams to talk with us, or maybe show us something, trying to give us a message. Why do you wish to know this?"
"No reason, I was just wondering."
"Ah, I see."
They continued to eat in silence after that.