Disclaimer: this isn't mine... read what I said on the warning on chapter one if you have a short term memory (jk o)

Author's Note: the previous chapter is really depressing aok... I can fix that... there is a lil surprise for everyone at the end, but you have to read in order to get that surprise... omg this is going to be the one time I can make up for making everyone think that I wasn't going to make this a SS... you'll see o -- lifesux88imeanit
p.s this is also in the present so don't worry I am not trying to confuse ne one... and in his point of view... in the beginning and then I am going to switch it to third person narrative later on... bear with me I no what I am doing...

Chapter Five: We Meet Again Sakura

I am so damned late she is going to... Ahhhhh.... I don't see Tomoyo there. This isn't funny. I am going to see the one that I have killed so many people for and I see that girl there again. Dammit, what am I going to do? I never should've agreed to seeing her again I should just turn around and go home she isn't going to show up.
"Hey Syaoran are you looking for me?" she appears out of no where.
"Sakura!" why am I running to her?
"Syaoran Li it has been ten years and you still look the same." She's really cute.
"You too Sakura, anything new lately?" why am I asking her that?
"Alright I guess how about you." Shit she is looking at me that way again.
"You want to go eat somewhere my treat." I take her hand; boy holding her hand is just like high school.

Sakura and Syaoran walked off hand in hand and they go to dinner. Syaoran is just sitting there at the table looking at Sakura all googlely eyed. Sakura just blushes when Syaoran strikes a conversation on his "Midnight Blues Personal Quotes" column. Finally, they begin to eat dinner. Unfortunately, Tomoyo is at another table recording everything again, but is a tad bit jealous that it isn't her with Syaoran.
Dinner is finished and Syaoran pays the bill and then asks Sakura if she would care for a walk in the park to talk a little bit more on what they have been doing for the past ten years. The walk is rather interesting, since Sakura is really interested in what Syaoran has to say. Finally, Sakura has the guts to say something.
"Um... Syaoran there is something I have to tell you right now." She is acting shy now.
"Sakura whatever it is you can tell me." He takes her hands into his and just gazes into hers like they were on their first date.
"Tomoyo told me what you told her ten years ago. I am sorry that you feel that way, it isn't your fault, but why did you keep it from me you jerk?" she punches him lightly on the arm smiling sweetly to show her forgiveness.
"Sakura, I just didn't want to hurt you in any way; how could I say that I loved you so much that I could kill you at the same time."
"That wasn't what she told me. What is this about killing me when you loved me so much huh? Syaoran what is wrong with you? She told me that you were so worried about me and Chance that you couldn't bear to see the both of us in the hospital."
"That isn't what I told her, besides that is what I was thinking, but I never told her that, it is different Sakura you wouldn't understand it one bit," turned to mouth something.
"Syaoran you can tell me. I wouldn't want to have you keeping any secrets from me anymore. That just isn't fair that you can keep secrets and I have to tell you everything. Dish everything out Li." She was getting really angry.
"Can we discuss this at my place I don't want anyone hearing a word of this," scratches his head.
"Fine, as long as you are telling me the truth I won't run away."

The two walk to Syaoran's apartment and sit down on his couch talking. The look he gave her when he told her everything that he had done to keep people from hurting her made her cry and the fact that her boyfriend from college was murdered by his best friend.
"Syaoran, why didn't you tell me that you felt like that?" she was still crying.
"Sakura you didn't know that it was you that drove me insane did you?"
"I don't know what to say anymore Syaoran. First you fall in love with me even if you never knew me, but by your dreams from when you were a child. And then you and I messed up and had two children and lost them when they reached not even one. Then you tell me that when we continued on to college you killed your best friend and then killed many others that were out to harm me. What is wrong with you Syaoran Li? You aren't the boy that I thought you were." She gets up to leave.
"Sakura I am really sorry please don't leave me again. I love you too much."
"You love me too much to kill me Syaoran Li. I can't believe a word you are saying now. I am just going to leave you like you are supposed to be. I can't stand to see your face ever again." She heads for the door.
"Sakura can you at least listen to me?" he blocks the door.
"No! You're going to try to kill me you sick-minded maniac!" she begins to scream.
"It's no use Sakura you're just to going to get yourself into more trouble by screaming. No one is here to hear you're screams and pleads. It's just no use." He gets away from the door and just sits down on the couch.
"What are you saying Syaoran? You're confusing me."
"Sakura as much as I want to love you I know that you're just going to keep on running away from everything you come to face. We lost two children at a very young age and I don't know whether or not you remember that as much as I do, but I remember it quite well. "
"Syaoran are you trying to tell me after all of these years you haven't forgotten me?" she sits down next to him.
"Sakura, I'm so sorry I killed him, I'm so sorry I never told you how much I loved you. I am just a mess you can leave if you want to."
"I'm not going anywhere."
"What?"
"You heard me I'm not going anywhere."
"Sakura you don't want to be here right now."
"Why? Give me three good reasons why I shouldn't be here and then I can leave."
"One, I am dangerous, two I can kill you since I love you too much, and three I don't want to hurt you anymore."
"They're not good enough, I'm staying."
"Sakura will you just get out of here before--." She kissed him.
"Will you be quiet now?"
"::speechless::" he just looks at her.
"What's with that face? You just got kissed by me and all you are giving me is a look of surprise?"
"Sakura... I... I just want to say I love you."
"I love you too, but why did it take you ten years to tell me that? And why did you just hide all of these years?"
"Hiding? You're telling me!! You were the one that I was looking for all of these years."
"Why did you give up?"
"Because you just wouldn't give me a sign. There was no trace of you and besides Tomoyo was helping me too."
"You were with Tomoyo of all people?"
"Sakura it isn't what it seems we just had a couple one night... sorry."
"Syaoran you are one of the most annoying people I have ever met in my entire life you know that right? Further more you are really sick you know that? She was my best friend of all people. How could you?" she slapped him across the face.
"Sakura please understand she was trying to help me."
"So you slept with her a couple of times? Do you realize you hurt me even more by just telling me this?"
"Sakura listen to me." Embraces her.
"Keep your filthy hands off of me."
"That was months back this is now. Please listen to me."
Syaoran just turned her around so she could face him and then he kissed her hard and she began to soften up a little. He was kissing her like he did when she followed him home the first time they met. It was twelve years ago when she met him and twelve years ago when she made the horrible mistake of trying to love him.
"Syaoran we can't." pulls away from the kiss.
"I understand, I'll wait for you." He lets her go and runs to his room.
"Syaoran! Don't take it like this again. I just can't we're going to make the same mistake again I know we are. I am sorry. I have to go now." She kisses him on the forehead before leaving.
The door slams behind her and she doesn't leave the building she just sits by the door and begins to cry. Syaoran is already crying and wondering what he did wrong. He knew that the evil inside him was at fault and wanted to kill himself so badly, but he heard someone at his door crying. He walks to the door and finds Sakura sitting there crying.
"Sakura I thought you left."
"I can't I just can't. Why can't I leave you? Why?"
"I don't know, I don't know." He kneels down to console her.
"Every night for ten years, ten years Syaoran you are all I could think of and this is how I am repaid you have changed so much. I love you too much to even leave you or even hurt you. I know I hurt you a lot. I wish I could take the pain away, but it is done."
"You already relieved me of my pain and suffering Sakura. Come inside now. I don't want my neighbors to think I was out here all night."
"Okay."
They went back into his apartment and stayed up all night trying to catch up. The next day the two went out to venture around Tokyo and Syaoran surprisingly proposed to her in the restaurant. She accepted.

... to... be... continued....

this is getting really corny I don't make sense right now... this is getting really corny... I swear it is... at this rate I think that I am going to get no reviews whatsoever and I don't care I just don't want to make this whole fanfiction seem like a piece of crap... I can't write anymore I need more ideas... there are no more reminisces of the real world... I hate that fact... haha... -lifesux88imeanit...