Undiscovered
Chapter Three
Lost In You
Six weeks went by
Still pretending that I'm fine
It was you and I Holding back what's on our minds
And all the things I should have said
And all the letters left unsent It was you and I But mostly me
Lost in you
And I can't find myself again
Lost in you
And I can't find myself again
-Sugarcult: Lost In You
Peyton walked over to Brooke as she stretched, "Are we friends?"
Brooke looked up at Peyton, "I don't know yet," she said as she stretched her quads, "I know I told you about the Nathan thing, but I really want to be able to trust you," she said quietly.
"You can trust me Brooke," Peyton said as she helped Brooke stretch her arms, "I know I screwed up, and if I could then I would take that all back because letting a guy get between us is the stupidest thing ever. I can't tell you enough how sad I am that I don't have my best friend anymore," she said as she crossed her arms uncomfortably.
"Just answer me this," Brooke said as she picked up her pom-poms, "Do you love him?"
"Yes," Peyton answered truthfully.
Brooke gave her a weak smile, "I guess you can't really help it when you love someone," she said as she looked at Nathan.
Peyton looked in Brooke's direction and smiled, "No," she said looking at Brooke, "You can't."
Brooke's lips turned up into a big smile and she hugged her friend, "I've missed you so much!"
Peyton hugged Brooke tight, "I'm so sorry," she said quietly.
Brooke looked over Peyton's shoulder and saw Nathan watching them she smiled at him and he smiled back, "I think I love him," she whispered.
The girls broke the hug and smiled at each other, Peyton looked over at Nathan who was now going in for a lay-up, "Don't give up, who knows? Maybe he feels the same way."
Brooke looked at Peyton and then back at Nathan, "Only time will tell."
Practice ended and the girls walked out into the parking lot, Lucas came over to Peyton and smiled at her, he was happy that the two girls were friends again. Brooke looked at her friend and winked at her, "Pey, I'm going to go, I'll see you later tonight at Tim's party."
Peyton gave her friend a hug bye, "See you later tonight."
Brooke walked over towards Nathan and gave him a hug, "Peyton and I are friend again," she exclaimed as she waved her pom-poms around.
Nathan smiled, "That's good I knew that you two were going to become friends sooner or later."
Brooke nodded her head, "We're still friends right?"
"Yeah," Nathan said switching his bag over to his other shoulder.
"Good," Brooke said softly, "So," she said changing the subject, "Are you going to Tim's party tonight?"
"Would I, Nathan Scott, pass up a party?" Nathan asked as he set down his bag.
Brooke laughed, "I guess you have a point. Is Haley going?" She asked as she looked around the parking lot.
"Probably," he shrugged, "She usually goes everywhere I do."
"How does it feel to know that when you go to a party you're hooked to one girl, I mean the old Nathan Scott would've been single and made out with every girl at the party," Brooke teased as she poked him in the ribs.
Nathan laughed, "That was old Nathan, new Nathan has a girlfriend, but don't get me wrong I sometimes miss being single," he said.
Brooke rolled her eyes, "Believe me; you're not missing anything grand."
"Come on Brooke, you can go to the party tonight and make out with every guy there," Nathan said.
Brooke looked down at the ground, "It's different, see guys can go and make out with girls and sleep with them and they come back the hero. A girl does it, and she comes back the slut. When I make out with random guys all the time I go home every night feeling like shit," she said not daring to look Nathan in the eye.
Nathan brought her chin up, "Then why do you do it?" He asked looking into her dark brown eyes.
Brooke bit her lip, "I don't know," she said with a dry laugh, "Isn't that the lamest answer you've ever heard?"
"No," Nathan said seriously. "You know what I miss? I miss the fact that I can walk into a room and see girls that I think would be better than Haley."
"Nobody's better than Haley," Brooke stated, "She's the perfect girl."
Nathan sighed, "Maybe I don't want perfection."
Brooke looked at him confused, "You're not dumping her are you?"
"No," Nathan exclaimed.
Brooke sighed in disappointment, "What do you want Nathan?"
Nathan squinted, "I want..." Nathan was cut off by Haley jumping on his back.
"Hey you," she said giving him a kiss on the cheek, "Hey Brooke."
Brooke gave her a nod as she watched the whole scene taking place in front of her. She knew that Nathan loved Haley, but when he talked to Brooke he made it seem like he wanted somebody different. Brooke walked away from the couple and headed towards her car, she had so much jealousy towards their relationship it was unbelievable. Maybe she shouldn't have become friends with Nathan, because she knew she's end up falling for him.
Nathan looked on as Brooke walked to her car, he felt bad in a way. Brooke was different than other girls. She knew how to talk to guys and had this strong will to her that made guys weak to their knees. Nathan looked down at Haley's brown eyes, but didn't see the same thing he saw when he looked into Brooke's.
Brooke walked into the party a little bit later than everyone else; she always thought it was sexy to arrive late that way everyone was looking for you. She watched as Theresa stumbled over towards her, "Too many drinks tonight?" Brooke asked.
Theresa drunkenly laughed, "Just a wee bit," she said as she held onto Brooke's shoulders for support, "You know that girl that Nathan is dating?"
"Haley?" Brooke said as she looked around the house.
Theresa snapped her fingers, "Yeah," she exclaimed, "Well, her and Nathan are totally making out on the couch it is like soft porn dude!"
Brooke rolled her eyes, "Honey, let me give you a tip. Don't drink so much," she said slowly so that Theresa could comprehend what she was saying.
Theresa nodded, "Good idea," she said smiling and giving Brooke thumbs up. She then stumbled towards some guy.
Peyton walked up to Brooke and handed her a drink, "I suppose ditzy Theresa already told you what was happening on the couch?"
Brooke nodded, "Yeah, but I'm not going to let it phase me."
Peyton put her arm around Brooke's neck, "Come on," she said taking Brooke outside on the back porch, "Sit," she said pulling a chair towards her.
Brooke sat down and took a sip of her drink and set it down, "Maybe I don't love him," she said looking up at the sky.
"Yes you do," Peyton said matter-of-factly.
Brooke smiled, "Okay, but for tonight I'm going to pretend I don't."
Peyton laughed, "How can you pretend?"
"I just fake it," Brooke said shrugging, "Is he drunk?"
Peyton shook her head, "They started making out like 5 minutes before you got here."
Brooke sighed and leaned forward, "Why does she act like such a goody two shoes?"
Peyton shrugged, "I don't know, but tonight she is definitely being wild."
Brooke chuckled, "Maybe she can now take the throne of Slut of the School."
"The queen is bowing down?" Peyton joked.
"I don't know," Brooke said with a half smirk.
Tim walked outside, "Oh my god guys Nathan and Haley are totally going at it!" He exclaimed.
Brooke picked up her drink and chugged it in one gulp, "Cheers," she said after the drink was gone.
Peyton looked at her friend worried, "Are you okay?"
"I will be after I get a couple more drinks in me," Brooke said as she got up and headed towards the kitchen to mix herself another drink. Peyton sighed and walked inside towards where Lucas was sitting.
Lucas smiled up at her, "Hey," he said as he took a sip of his drink.
"Do you want to go up to a room or something?" She asked looking towards the crowd of people surrounding Nathan and Haley.
Lucas nodded and took her hand, "Yeah," he said leading her up the stairs.
Brooke mixed her drink slowly with a straw, she took a sip and gave a disgusted look, "More vodka," she said as she poured more vodka into the cup. She took another sip and smiled, "That's better." She sat at the kitchen counter by herself and played with her nails that she had just gotten done.
She looked up when she saw Nathan walk into the kitchen he looked over and smiled at her, "I haven't seen you around," he said sitting across from her.
"I came late," Brooke said twirling a strand of hair in her fingers, "Besides, I didn't think you would see me since you had your tongue in Haley's mouth the whole night," she flinched when the comment came out, she didn't want Nathan to get any suspicion that she had feelings for him.
"Why do you care?" He asked as the lines on his forehead appeared.
"I don't," Brooke grumbled chugging her drink and making a new one, "I don't care at all," she repeated.
Nathan sighed, "Brooke, why are you acting all pissed off at the fact that I was making out with my girlfriend? I mean that's what couples do, they make out," he said.
"I know what couples do," Brooke snapped.
Nathan put his hands up in defense, "I never said you didn't."
"Look," Brooke said as she bit her bottom lip, "I'm sorry for flipping out."
"It's okay," Nathan said standing up.
"Hug?" Brooke asked smiling and reaching her arms out.
Nathan looked around the kitchen and shook his head, "Haley's waiting for me."
Brooke looked at him in disbelief, "Um okay," she said hurt.
"I'll talk to you later," he said heading out the kitchen.
"Don't count on it," Brooke said coldly. Nathan gave her a pleading look, but Brooke rolled her eyes and went outside. She saw a swing in the backyard and sat on it as she drank. Brooke heard the listed to the music and the people talking and singing. That was her world; she would be in there mingling with all the boys who have girlfriends, but tonight she just wasn't in the mood. Brooke closed her eyes for a moment and when she opened them she was in Nathan's room, "What the hell?" She said sitting up and putting her hand on her forehead. She looked around the room and saw Nathan sitting at his computer. "Why am I here?" She asked impatiently.
"You fell asleep on the porch swing and I took you back here to sleep," Nathan said never looking away from the computer screen.
Brooke rolled her eyes, "You don't have to do me any favors."
Nathan turned his chair around and looked at Brooke, "What did you want me to do? Let a bunch of drunken guys take you home and gang bang you?"
"You wouldn't have cared," Brooke grumbled as she got out of the bed and stood up trying to regain balance. Nathan sighed and turned back to the computer and started typing, "What are you doing?" Brooke asked.
"I'm chatting with Haley," Nathan said.
Brooke laughed, "Wow, she's turned you into a computer nerd."
"No she hasn't I just thought I should chat with her," Nathan said in defense.
"Whatever," Brooke said as she put on her shoes.
"Again, why do you care?" Nathan asked coldly as he turned around.
Brooke sighed and put her hands on her hips, "Because Nathan, the truth is, I..." She was cut off by her cell phone ringing, "I have to go it's my mom."
Brooke walked out of the bed room door, but Nathan followed her and grabbed her arm, "Finish what you were saying," he said interested.
Brooke looked down at his hand on her arm, "It's just, while we were hanging out I kept thinking that I had feelings for you, and maybe I just had those feelings because we were spending so much time together and you were being so sweet and stuff," she said looking Nathan in the eyes.
Nathan took a step back and put his hands on his head, "I didn't expect this."
"How couldn't you? We've been flirting this whole week," she exclaimed.
"I was just being nice, I thought we were just friends," Nathan stated.
Brooke bit her lip, "We are just friends. Look you told me to tell you what was up with me so I just did," she said a little irritated, "You never felt anything for me when we were just 'being friends'?"
Nathan stood in silence and looked down at the carpet.
Brooke looked away from him so he couldn't see her eyes watering, "I thought the old Nathan was gone," she said softly to him.
"I have a girlfriend Brooke," Nathan said still looking down at the floor.
Brooke looked at him and shook her head, "I'm sorry I ever bothered you," she said and then walked down the stairs and walked out the door. She knew she hadn't brought a car, but she wanted to get out of their as soon as possible. Brooke saw Haley pull into the driveway, "Haley," she called for her as Haley got out of the car, "I must have passed out last night and Peyton brought me here, could you give me a ride home?"
Haley sighed, but nodded her head, "Yeah sure." They drove in silence for awhile, "Did you have fun at the party last night?" she asked.
"Yeah," Brooke lied, "Did you?"
Haley laughed, "Obviously," she teased, "I think Nathan is the guy for me."
"You two must really love each other," Brooke said as she looked out the window.
Haley smiled, "We do."
They got to Brooke's house and Haley pulled into her driveway, "Thanks," Brooke said as she got out of the car. She walked into her house and saw that her parents had left again; she walked into her room and laid on her bed. Brooke looked down at herself and noticed she was wearing Nathan's jacket.
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