Thunderous black clouds parted ways like dark satin curtains, revealing the
brightness that is the moon. His cold hands tried away more tears that were
sticking to his even colder face, it didn't help much though as he still
carried on crying. He leaned against the railing and looked up to the
midnight sky. His words, gentle but riddled with sadness, his prayer,
emotional.
"God. What did I do? Please, tell me. Am I that bad as a friend? Is that
why I've never had them? I was always alone....like Kane." He paused then
continued with his voice slightly lower "This may sound selfish, but please
make sure Kane's alright, he's all I've got....or maybe I've lost him"
Biting his bottom lip, his eyes still glazy, he looked to the floor as more sobs emitted from Rob Van Dam. Not really a man of emotion, he wondered whether putting a comforting hand on his shoulder would be enough, or too much. Slowly, almost shyly, he reached out and touched Rob's shoulder. Causing him to jump with shock, thus Kane drew back just as quickly. The martial artist tried his eyes and smiled sheepishly. "Hey Kane, didn't know you were up dude" Kane looked up, his left eye made Rob think about the full moon, watching over them. In Kane's usually gloved right hand, he was clutching something tightly; raising it up he opened his fingers back for Rob to see the trinket. "Thank you, it's cool"
"Cool" Rob echoed.
"Why were you crying?" Kane was concerned, it took a lot to make him care about someone but somehow Rob had made him care. "Tell me please...if you tell me, I'll tell you something"
Rob chuckled but was soon sad again. He sighed heavily. "I was just upset, because I'd hurt you" Kane nodded, suddenly, he wanted to embrace Rob pull his smaller frame closer and hold him there. "Okay then, I'll tell you this then...you haven't lost me"
Rob looked up his smile was back and his eyes wide with happiness again. "Cool" He cheekily said. "Hey, when you were asleep you're brother came in, he demanded to know if you'd been sick. I said you had then he said Good make sure he drinks plenty of water then left. Strange or what?"
"He is strange, thinks his my bloody mother" Kane rolled his eyes then smiled, Rob smiled back but his face became serious fast. He contemplated giving Kane a hug, would it be too much? Clearing his throat of any embracement his face reddened as he looked to his feet. "Kane, can I give you a hug?" (Dude, that sounded so ridicules, I am such an idiot!) His thoughts were all over the place as Kane stood silent. ".....yeah" There was a pause while Rob tried to get his head round the situation. (He said yes! What' the hell am I talking to myself for? I'm wasting valuable hugging time!) Shuffling forward a bit he wrapped his arms around his waist and rested his head on his chest. Kane's arms were loosely by his side, he felt wanted for the first time in a long time, so without thinking his arms wrapped around Rob and they both stayed there, pressed together lovingly. Pulling away, Rob didn't care anymore it was now or it would never happen. Reaching up he brought Kane's head down lower and placed his lips gently against his own. Kane watched Rob in disbelief, his initial reaction was to pull away, but it faded....he liked it. Closing his eyes the two kissed, longer until the passion, love and lust was so high the two were drunk with want, not a sexual want, but a want, a need for each other's love. They separated, chest heaving Rob smiled. Kane opened his mouth to speak but was silenced by Rob's lips once more. The only witness to true love blossoming was the moon.
Gradually, his eyes opened to the bright morning sun. Still wearing his clothes from the previous night, Kane realised he was also, still wearing his mask. Even though they had kissed and slept in each others arms, he still hadn't shown Rob his face...could he show him it? Would it put him off? Did it put Jericho off? No. So why should it put Rob off? He breathed deeply it was always hard showing people his face for the first time. He sat up from where he and Rob had held each other close all night, leaning over the table there was a note.
Gone to get breakfast. Rob xxxx
"NO NO NO! Rob banged on the lift doors; he kicked and punched furiously at them. The lights had gone off and the lift had suddenly stopped. It had broken down, Rob was stuck. "NO!"
Three long hours past, and Kane couldn't take anymore. He knew it was too good to be happening to him. Why should he be blessed with someone nice? He changed quickly into clean clothes, fighting back the tears that swelled in his eyes, he stuffed the old clothes into his bag harshly then left the room, and the feelings he hated were back again, claiming his soul. Hurt....anger...a broken heart. Rob had just used him, like everybody else, he fancied some sex and Kane was the only one there, unfortunately he never got it so he left, not wanting to stick around with a freak like Kane. Not looking where he was going he bumped into someone.
"Sorry" He mumbled before trying to leave, a hand outstretched and grabbed his upper arm, preventing him from going.
"Kane, are you alright? I've been so worried, I heard you had past out near your room, are you sick? Is something seriously wrong?" Jericho's eyes showed his concern was true.
Kane shook his head he answered sternly. "I was just drunk, it was nothing"
"I love you. I want you back please Kane! I've been nothing without you. Come back to me, please"
Looking down at his former lover, he thought about Rob, how he'd somehow made Kane love him even though he was with Chris, then, uses him and throws him away like a failed exam paper. He looked deep into Chris's icy eyes and saw what he thought was pure love, devotion, guilt for the bad things he'd done before, and forgiveness. Unfortunately, Kane was too blinded by the idea that, even though the someone wasn't who he really wanted, someone loved him so he didn't see what was truly there. Anger, jealousy, control, sex, and power. Jericho knew Kane was strong physically, but he wasn't emotionally, which made him gullible, and Jericho thrived on manipulating Kane.
Biting his bottom lip, his eyes still glazy, he looked to the floor as more sobs emitted from Rob Van Dam. Not really a man of emotion, he wondered whether putting a comforting hand on his shoulder would be enough, or too much. Slowly, almost shyly, he reached out and touched Rob's shoulder. Causing him to jump with shock, thus Kane drew back just as quickly. The martial artist tried his eyes and smiled sheepishly. "Hey Kane, didn't know you were up dude" Kane looked up, his left eye made Rob think about the full moon, watching over them. In Kane's usually gloved right hand, he was clutching something tightly; raising it up he opened his fingers back for Rob to see the trinket. "Thank you, it's cool"
"Cool" Rob echoed.
"Why were you crying?" Kane was concerned, it took a lot to make him care about someone but somehow Rob had made him care. "Tell me please...if you tell me, I'll tell you something"
Rob chuckled but was soon sad again. He sighed heavily. "I was just upset, because I'd hurt you" Kane nodded, suddenly, he wanted to embrace Rob pull his smaller frame closer and hold him there. "Okay then, I'll tell you this then...you haven't lost me"
Rob looked up his smile was back and his eyes wide with happiness again. "Cool" He cheekily said. "Hey, when you were asleep you're brother came in, he demanded to know if you'd been sick. I said you had then he said Good make sure he drinks plenty of water then left. Strange or what?"
"He is strange, thinks his my bloody mother" Kane rolled his eyes then smiled, Rob smiled back but his face became serious fast. He contemplated giving Kane a hug, would it be too much? Clearing his throat of any embracement his face reddened as he looked to his feet. "Kane, can I give you a hug?" (Dude, that sounded so ridicules, I am such an idiot!) His thoughts were all over the place as Kane stood silent. ".....yeah" There was a pause while Rob tried to get his head round the situation. (He said yes! What' the hell am I talking to myself for? I'm wasting valuable hugging time!) Shuffling forward a bit he wrapped his arms around his waist and rested his head on his chest. Kane's arms were loosely by his side, he felt wanted for the first time in a long time, so without thinking his arms wrapped around Rob and they both stayed there, pressed together lovingly. Pulling away, Rob didn't care anymore it was now or it would never happen. Reaching up he brought Kane's head down lower and placed his lips gently against his own. Kane watched Rob in disbelief, his initial reaction was to pull away, but it faded....he liked it. Closing his eyes the two kissed, longer until the passion, love and lust was so high the two were drunk with want, not a sexual want, but a want, a need for each other's love. They separated, chest heaving Rob smiled. Kane opened his mouth to speak but was silenced by Rob's lips once more. The only witness to true love blossoming was the moon.
Gradually, his eyes opened to the bright morning sun. Still wearing his clothes from the previous night, Kane realised he was also, still wearing his mask. Even though they had kissed and slept in each others arms, he still hadn't shown Rob his face...could he show him it? Would it put him off? Did it put Jericho off? No. So why should it put Rob off? He breathed deeply it was always hard showing people his face for the first time. He sat up from where he and Rob had held each other close all night, leaning over the table there was a note.
Gone to get breakfast. Rob xxxx
"NO NO NO! Rob banged on the lift doors; he kicked and punched furiously at them. The lights had gone off and the lift had suddenly stopped. It had broken down, Rob was stuck. "NO!"
Three long hours past, and Kane couldn't take anymore. He knew it was too good to be happening to him. Why should he be blessed with someone nice? He changed quickly into clean clothes, fighting back the tears that swelled in his eyes, he stuffed the old clothes into his bag harshly then left the room, and the feelings he hated were back again, claiming his soul. Hurt....anger...a broken heart. Rob had just used him, like everybody else, he fancied some sex and Kane was the only one there, unfortunately he never got it so he left, not wanting to stick around with a freak like Kane. Not looking where he was going he bumped into someone.
"Sorry" He mumbled before trying to leave, a hand outstretched and grabbed his upper arm, preventing him from going.
"Kane, are you alright? I've been so worried, I heard you had past out near your room, are you sick? Is something seriously wrong?" Jericho's eyes showed his concern was true.
Kane shook his head he answered sternly. "I was just drunk, it was nothing"
"I love you. I want you back please Kane! I've been nothing without you. Come back to me, please"
Looking down at his former lover, he thought about Rob, how he'd somehow made Kane love him even though he was with Chris, then, uses him and throws him away like a failed exam paper. He looked deep into Chris's icy eyes and saw what he thought was pure love, devotion, guilt for the bad things he'd done before, and forgiveness. Unfortunately, Kane was too blinded by the idea that, even though the someone wasn't who he really wanted, someone loved him so he didn't see what was truly there. Anger, jealousy, control, sex, and power. Jericho knew Kane was strong physically, but he wasn't emotionally, which made him gullible, and Jericho thrived on manipulating Kane.