A/N: hey all here is another chapter—I hope you all keep reading and fear
not, new chapters will be here soon!
LilVickiRyan: I know, let's hope she gets some sense into her! Stay tuned!
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TJ looked at Spinelli, wondering if she was actually serious about what she just said. She couldn't be, could she?
"What do you mean, bust you out of here?" TJ asked, letting go of her hands and gently placing his own hands on her belly. "You need to be here, to get the help you need, before your health gets any worse."
"But Teej, I'm fine, they just think I have a problem because I passed out. I'll just go back to normal and stop throwing up. After all, it can't be that hard to stop, can it?" Spinelli questioned, looking at TJ and expecting him to give in.
"Spinelli, you need to get your nutrients before you can leave. There is no way I am letting you go without getting the help you need. The last thing I want is for you to end up sick again. I love you too much to not let you get help so you can get better." TJ looked into her eyes lovingly and leaned in to kiss her, but Spinelli pushed him away.
"How dare you claim you love me and then turn around and side with those idiots that call themselves doctors who think I'm some psycho who needs help. All I did was go on a diet to lose weight for the prom and you are all acting like I did something wrong! Damn it Teej, girls diet all the time and no one puts them in the hospital! Why are you doing this to me?" Spinelli screamed, outraged.
"Because I love you, Ashley!" TJ screamed back. "I love you so much and it's killing me that you are hurting yourself so much. Can't you see the harm you are doing? You have an eating problem! You have anorexia and bulimia! No diet or amount of weight gain is that important that you need to put yourself in the hospital for it! You are beautiful, and don't need to diet! Why are you putting yourself through this hell? Can't you just look in the mirror and see what a gorgeous person you are?"
"Maybe you see that, but you're probably saying that because I'm your girlfriend, but all I see is fat! Fat that makes me feel like a pig and I need to get rid of it! I need to control my weight before I get fatter!" Spinelli shouted, making TJ more and more frustrated.
"Did you even stop to think about the other lives you might be destroying, not just yours? Is that all you are about, your diet and your appearance?" TJ shot back. "Did you stop to think that the people that love you, and the people you love are being torn apart by this?"
"TJ, I have no one, and now even you are against me! So don't feed me that bullshit that people care, because I really have no one, no family, my friends and my boyfriend that think I'm crazy, so what makes you think I am even hurting anyone?" Spinelli argued, tears forming in her eyes from frustration.
"Well maybe you should think about that baby that you are carrying!" TJ yelled. "The baby we created? The baby that may potentially die if you keep being selfish and ignoring your eating problem and refusing to get help! Do you want that to happen? Do you want something we created out of love to die because you refuse to get help?" TJ was angry now, angry that Spinelli was refusing help, denying her problem, but most of all angry that she was willing to put her life, and the life of their baby on the line just to lose a measly few pounds. Pounds she most likely gained from being pregnant, although she did not realize it at the time. He just wished he could get through to her, make her see what she was doing before she ended up hurting herself and the baby even more than she already had.
"Baby?" Spinelli asked confused. "What baby?"
TJ sighed. "Didn't Dr. Carter tell you? The baby you are carrying, the one you and I created that night, the night we got together! Do you not remember that night we shared? How special it was to us? And now we created a baby, a baby we are responsible for taking care of because at the time we were too caught up in the moment to be responsible and use protection! I want to do the right thing, Spinelli! But you have to quit being selfish and actually try and get better!" TJ hoped that by reminding her of the baby they created and the responsibility they took on by having unprotected sex would snap her out of it, and hopefully make her realize the harm she was doing.
"Yes, Dr, Carter did mention something about a baby," Spinelli said sighing, wishing that Dr. Carter never told TJ. It would have made things so much easier if TJ hadn't known she was pregnant. Then he couldn't make her feel guilty about the decision she was thinking about making.
"And that still doesn't want you to get better? You still can't let yourself get better? Are you really that self-centered and stupid where you would continue to diet just to live up to some unrealistic standard set by society? No one in real life looks like those women in magazines, Spinelli! Why don't you snap out of it and think about someone other than yourself! God damn it, Spinelli!" TJ wiped tears of frustration and sadness from his eyes. Why was the girl he loved so dead set on hurting herself and their child? Didn't she even care what she was doing and the danger she was causing?
Spinelli took a deep breath, trying to find a way to tell TJ what she wanted to do without breaking his heart. As much as she knew she was just as responsible for her pregnancy, she just couldn't handle it. She just couldn't face the fact that she would be gaining more weight, and unable to control it. Plus, how could two seventeen year olds possibly raise a child? She only hoped that he would understand.....
"Um, Teej, about that baby, what if I told you I wasn't ready to raise one and wanted to you know, terminate the pregnancy?" she asked carefully, not noticing that TJ now looked as if he had been punched in the stomach as he tried to comprehend what Spinelli just said.
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A/N: Please don't kill me for bringing up such a controversial topic, but it is needed for the story....anyway, I know they both seem a bit OOC in this chapter, but this is all needed for a decision and event that takes place in the future of this fic.....so please do not get mad at me for it! So what do you think is going to happen? Will Spinelli have the abortion, or will TJ find a way to stop her? Are they ever going to stop fighting? Will Spinelli make an effort to get better? Will we ever find out who let the dogs out? Find out in the next chapter! Please R/R, but keep my golden rule in mind!!!
LilVickiRyan: I know, let's hope she gets some sense into her! Stay tuned!
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TJ looked at Spinelli, wondering if she was actually serious about what she just said. She couldn't be, could she?
"What do you mean, bust you out of here?" TJ asked, letting go of her hands and gently placing his own hands on her belly. "You need to be here, to get the help you need, before your health gets any worse."
"But Teej, I'm fine, they just think I have a problem because I passed out. I'll just go back to normal and stop throwing up. After all, it can't be that hard to stop, can it?" Spinelli questioned, looking at TJ and expecting him to give in.
"Spinelli, you need to get your nutrients before you can leave. There is no way I am letting you go without getting the help you need. The last thing I want is for you to end up sick again. I love you too much to not let you get help so you can get better." TJ looked into her eyes lovingly and leaned in to kiss her, but Spinelli pushed him away.
"How dare you claim you love me and then turn around and side with those idiots that call themselves doctors who think I'm some psycho who needs help. All I did was go on a diet to lose weight for the prom and you are all acting like I did something wrong! Damn it Teej, girls diet all the time and no one puts them in the hospital! Why are you doing this to me?" Spinelli screamed, outraged.
"Because I love you, Ashley!" TJ screamed back. "I love you so much and it's killing me that you are hurting yourself so much. Can't you see the harm you are doing? You have an eating problem! You have anorexia and bulimia! No diet or amount of weight gain is that important that you need to put yourself in the hospital for it! You are beautiful, and don't need to diet! Why are you putting yourself through this hell? Can't you just look in the mirror and see what a gorgeous person you are?"
"Maybe you see that, but you're probably saying that because I'm your girlfriend, but all I see is fat! Fat that makes me feel like a pig and I need to get rid of it! I need to control my weight before I get fatter!" Spinelli shouted, making TJ more and more frustrated.
"Did you even stop to think about the other lives you might be destroying, not just yours? Is that all you are about, your diet and your appearance?" TJ shot back. "Did you stop to think that the people that love you, and the people you love are being torn apart by this?"
"TJ, I have no one, and now even you are against me! So don't feed me that bullshit that people care, because I really have no one, no family, my friends and my boyfriend that think I'm crazy, so what makes you think I am even hurting anyone?" Spinelli argued, tears forming in her eyes from frustration.
"Well maybe you should think about that baby that you are carrying!" TJ yelled. "The baby we created? The baby that may potentially die if you keep being selfish and ignoring your eating problem and refusing to get help! Do you want that to happen? Do you want something we created out of love to die because you refuse to get help?" TJ was angry now, angry that Spinelli was refusing help, denying her problem, but most of all angry that she was willing to put her life, and the life of their baby on the line just to lose a measly few pounds. Pounds she most likely gained from being pregnant, although she did not realize it at the time. He just wished he could get through to her, make her see what she was doing before she ended up hurting herself and the baby even more than she already had.
"Baby?" Spinelli asked confused. "What baby?"
TJ sighed. "Didn't Dr. Carter tell you? The baby you are carrying, the one you and I created that night, the night we got together! Do you not remember that night we shared? How special it was to us? And now we created a baby, a baby we are responsible for taking care of because at the time we were too caught up in the moment to be responsible and use protection! I want to do the right thing, Spinelli! But you have to quit being selfish and actually try and get better!" TJ hoped that by reminding her of the baby they created and the responsibility they took on by having unprotected sex would snap her out of it, and hopefully make her realize the harm she was doing.
"Yes, Dr, Carter did mention something about a baby," Spinelli said sighing, wishing that Dr. Carter never told TJ. It would have made things so much easier if TJ hadn't known she was pregnant. Then he couldn't make her feel guilty about the decision she was thinking about making.
"And that still doesn't want you to get better? You still can't let yourself get better? Are you really that self-centered and stupid where you would continue to diet just to live up to some unrealistic standard set by society? No one in real life looks like those women in magazines, Spinelli! Why don't you snap out of it and think about someone other than yourself! God damn it, Spinelli!" TJ wiped tears of frustration and sadness from his eyes. Why was the girl he loved so dead set on hurting herself and their child? Didn't she even care what she was doing and the danger she was causing?
Spinelli took a deep breath, trying to find a way to tell TJ what she wanted to do without breaking his heart. As much as she knew she was just as responsible for her pregnancy, she just couldn't handle it. She just couldn't face the fact that she would be gaining more weight, and unable to control it. Plus, how could two seventeen year olds possibly raise a child? She only hoped that he would understand.....
"Um, Teej, about that baby, what if I told you I wasn't ready to raise one and wanted to you know, terminate the pregnancy?" she asked carefully, not noticing that TJ now looked as if he had been punched in the stomach as he tried to comprehend what Spinelli just said.
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A/N: Please don't kill me for bringing up such a controversial topic, but it is needed for the story....anyway, I know they both seem a bit OOC in this chapter, but this is all needed for a decision and event that takes place in the future of this fic.....so please do not get mad at me for it! So what do you think is going to happen? Will Spinelli have the abortion, or will TJ find a way to stop her? Are they ever going to stop fighting? Will Spinelli make an effort to get better? Will we ever find out who let the dogs out? Find out in the next chapter! Please R/R, but keep my golden rule in mind!!!