A/N: Hey all! Hope you enjoy this one!
LilVickiRyan: Thanks for reviewing! Keep reading!
Shadw: The latest plotline in those two soaps in interesting, isn't it? I actually missed class the day Paul kidnapped the baby, but shhh! Thanks for your kind words and I hope you keep reading!
This chapter is a bit controversial, so I am sorry in advance if you are offended. Also, they might seem a bit OOC here.
"You WHHHHHAAAAATTTTT?!?!?!?!" TJ screamed, shocking both of them by raising his voice. (a/n: That line has significance to me---part of a puppet show my siblings were in that I made a movie about—but I digress)
"I don't think I can do this," Spinelli said simply, looking down at her hands as if she just announced she was planning on doing something trivial, like selling her car, not making a decision that affected three lives.
"But it's my baby too! We created a child, Spinelli, and you want to get rid of it as if it were some old piece of clothing? Did you even think of how this would affect me, or that I just might want to raise the baby? How could you do this to me?" TJ ranted as he tried his best not to cry. Why was Spinelli considering getting abortion, didn't she even care about how this would affect them? Ever since he found out she was pregnant, TJ was caught up in the idea of the two of them raising the baby together, even though in the back of his mind he knew it was going to be a hard task and that his parents would not be thrilled about being grandparents at their age. He was hoping that the baby would bring the two of them closer together and finally give Spinelli a second chance at having a family, and finally allow Spinelli to recover from her eating disorders. So why was she doing this?
"Because, Teej," Spinelli snapped, as if she were reading his mind. "I will gain weight, get a bad reputation and have to give up college. Not to mention we are young and stupid, how the hell are we going to bring a child into the world. Just because we had one amazing night together doesn't mean we have to have a lifetime reminder of it. If we want a reminder, we can just reenact it." Spinelli was being so snotty and so nasty at that moment that it took everything in TJ's willpower not to smack her at that moment. Even though he swore he would never raise a hand to a girl, he was so tempted at that moment, because he thought that maybe it was what Spinelli needed to snap out of whatever she was in.
"How can you say that? How can you be such a self centered, looks obsessed snob? Do you really care that much about your weight that you would kill? You were the one who was always pro life! It was you who had that protest when they wanted to allow free confidential abortions for teens in the health center! You always said that if you were in the situation we are in now, you would take responsibility for it, not as you say, take the easy way out! Why are you going against everything you believe in, everything you always fought for! Why are you being a goddamn hypocrite?" TJ was enraged now, his eyes practically shooting fire at his girlfriend. He knew he was probably being a jerk, but Spinelli's attitude was so not like her and he hoped by badgering her and keeping on her case, she would finally open up and tell him what was really bothering her. He knew in his heart she really didn't want an abortion, but was using it as a cover for something.
"It's my body, my choice, and I don't even have to tell you what I plan on doing because frankly, it is none of your business. Its my decision and why do I even have to tell you if I want an abortion. I could just get it and we can all live the lives we planned on before we found out I was pregnant!" Spinelli shot back, trying to fight the tears in her eyes. "Don't do this, Spinelli, don't break down now," she thought to herself.
TJ looked at her closely, noticing the tears forming in her eyes. "Maybe I am getting somewhere," he thought. "Maybe she is finally going to break down and tell me what is really going on." He moved onto the edge of her bed, taking her hands into his and looking into her eyes.
"Baby, it is a decision we have to discuss together," he said, using a gentler tone. "I know right now you are probably in shock, but you need to think this through because once you do this, there is no going back. We can't just go back and reverse it. once it's done its done. Plus, in all honesty, you are most likely too weak for any kind of surgery right now. You need to think about that too, since it would put you in more danger. I love you, Spinelli, and the last thing I want is for you to do anything else that can hurt you." TJ smiled at her, noticing the tears that were finally falling from her eyes. He knew he had finally reached her, finally made her realize that the decision was not what she truly wanted. Now if she would only tell him what was really going on.
"Teej," Spinelli whispered, blinking a few times, trying to keep the tears from falling, but was unsuccessful in doing so. "You are right, I know you are, but how can I possibly bring a life into this world that is only going to leave me? Everyone else leaves me, so why should this be any different? Why not take care of it before I only end up getting hurt again?"
A/N whoa, I have no idea where this idea even came from, but it's here! I know they are both very OCC, but it was needed, and you will see why in the next chapter. Please r./r but please keep my golden rule in mind. Happy reading!
LilVickiRyan: Thanks for reviewing! Keep reading!
Shadw: The latest plotline in those two soaps in interesting, isn't it? I actually missed class the day Paul kidnapped the baby, but shhh! Thanks for your kind words and I hope you keep reading!
This chapter is a bit controversial, so I am sorry in advance if you are offended. Also, they might seem a bit OOC here.
"You WHHHHHAAAAATTTTT?!?!?!?!" TJ screamed, shocking both of them by raising his voice. (a/n: That line has significance to me---part of a puppet show my siblings were in that I made a movie about—but I digress)
"I don't think I can do this," Spinelli said simply, looking down at her hands as if she just announced she was planning on doing something trivial, like selling her car, not making a decision that affected three lives.
"But it's my baby too! We created a child, Spinelli, and you want to get rid of it as if it were some old piece of clothing? Did you even think of how this would affect me, or that I just might want to raise the baby? How could you do this to me?" TJ ranted as he tried his best not to cry. Why was Spinelli considering getting abortion, didn't she even care about how this would affect them? Ever since he found out she was pregnant, TJ was caught up in the idea of the two of them raising the baby together, even though in the back of his mind he knew it was going to be a hard task and that his parents would not be thrilled about being grandparents at their age. He was hoping that the baby would bring the two of them closer together and finally give Spinelli a second chance at having a family, and finally allow Spinelli to recover from her eating disorders. So why was she doing this?
"Because, Teej," Spinelli snapped, as if she were reading his mind. "I will gain weight, get a bad reputation and have to give up college. Not to mention we are young and stupid, how the hell are we going to bring a child into the world. Just because we had one amazing night together doesn't mean we have to have a lifetime reminder of it. If we want a reminder, we can just reenact it." Spinelli was being so snotty and so nasty at that moment that it took everything in TJ's willpower not to smack her at that moment. Even though he swore he would never raise a hand to a girl, he was so tempted at that moment, because he thought that maybe it was what Spinelli needed to snap out of whatever she was in.
"How can you say that? How can you be such a self centered, looks obsessed snob? Do you really care that much about your weight that you would kill? You were the one who was always pro life! It was you who had that protest when they wanted to allow free confidential abortions for teens in the health center! You always said that if you were in the situation we are in now, you would take responsibility for it, not as you say, take the easy way out! Why are you going against everything you believe in, everything you always fought for! Why are you being a goddamn hypocrite?" TJ was enraged now, his eyes practically shooting fire at his girlfriend. He knew he was probably being a jerk, but Spinelli's attitude was so not like her and he hoped by badgering her and keeping on her case, she would finally open up and tell him what was really bothering her. He knew in his heart she really didn't want an abortion, but was using it as a cover for something.
"It's my body, my choice, and I don't even have to tell you what I plan on doing because frankly, it is none of your business. Its my decision and why do I even have to tell you if I want an abortion. I could just get it and we can all live the lives we planned on before we found out I was pregnant!" Spinelli shot back, trying to fight the tears in her eyes. "Don't do this, Spinelli, don't break down now," she thought to herself.
TJ looked at her closely, noticing the tears forming in her eyes. "Maybe I am getting somewhere," he thought. "Maybe she is finally going to break down and tell me what is really going on." He moved onto the edge of her bed, taking her hands into his and looking into her eyes.
"Baby, it is a decision we have to discuss together," he said, using a gentler tone. "I know right now you are probably in shock, but you need to think this through because once you do this, there is no going back. We can't just go back and reverse it. once it's done its done. Plus, in all honesty, you are most likely too weak for any kind of surgery right now. You need to think about that too, since it would put you in more danger. I love you, Spinelli, and the last thing I want is for you to do anything else that can hurt you." TJ smiled at her, noticing the tears that were finally falling from her eyes. He knew he had finally reached her, finally made her realize that the decision was not what she truly wanted. Now if she would only tell him what was really going on.
"Teej," Spinelli whispered, blinking a few times, trying to keep the tears from falling, but was unsuccessful in doing so. "You are right, I know you are, but how can I possibly bring a life into this world that is only going to leave me? Everyone else leaves me, so why should this be any different? Why not take care of it before I only end up getting hurt again?"
A/N whoa, I have no idea where this idea even came from, but it's here! I know they are both very OCC, but it was needed, and you will see why in the next chapter. Please r./r but please keep my golden rule in mind. Happy reading!