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"Spinelli, what are you talking about? Dr. Carter said that if you make an effort to get better and follow his orders, you will have a 90% chance of recovery, so why are you saying the baby is going to leave you? And why are you considering terminating your pregnancy if you don't want to be left again? It doesn't make any sense!" TJ said, perplexed.
"Well, what if I did do something to cause the baby to die? What if I lose her? What if she resents me for being a teenage mom who can't give her what the other moms give their kids? What if she-----"Spinelli was cut off by TJ gently placing his finger on her lips.
"Shhhhhh," he whispered, pushing a strand of her hair out of her eyes. "You can't think like that. Our baby is going to love the both of us, and like I said, if you keep following doctor's orders, the baby is going to live a long, healthy happy life. So why are you being so negative?"
"TJ, think about it. After all the shit that has happened to me, why should this be any different? Why shouldn't she leave me like everyone else did? Why don't I take care of things now, before I end up getting hurt again?" Spinelli said again, hoping TJ would understand.
"Um, what do you mean, Spinelli? How is an abortion going to help anything? What is bothering you? And don't say nothing because I know something is. "
"Teej," Spinelli said slowly, as if she were talking to a kindergartener. "My parents are dead, Joey is in jail, Vitto is in Witness Protection, I have no family and probably ruined my relationships with my friends. Everyone I love leaves me, so shouldn't I save myself the pain?" Spinelli blinked, but couldn't help but let the fresh set of tears fall from her eyes, finally letting go of the pain she had harbored since Thanksgiving time. TJ put his arms around her, letting the tears fall from her own eyes.
"Baby, you didn't lose your friends, we did this because we love you and want you to get well. And you have me, and I love you more than anything in the world. That is why it is hurting me so much that you want to do this. "
"You really love me?" Spinelli asked doubtfully, as if she expected him to change his mind or something.
"Yes, Spinelli, I always have and always will. Which is one of the reasons why I want us to keep this baby. It is a symbolism of our love and I think it will bring us together as a family. It will give you the second chance at having the family you always wanted, and with any luck, we can give our child the Big Fat Greek Wedding deal." TJ grinned, hoping to make Spinelli smile.
"TJ, we aren't even Greek!" she reminded him with a laugh. "I'm Italian and you are English and German! I hate to break it to you, but there is no way we are going to raise a Greek child!" (A/N: I have no clue of TJ's real nationality, so I randomly picked two of them)
"I know, but I wanted to see how you would react to raising a child nonetheless. Besides I have a feeling you are doubting having this abortion," TJ looked at her, waiting to see her reaction to his statement.
"Why do you say that?" Spinelli wanted to know. Even though he was right, she had no idea how he could have figured it out.
"Because of something you said," TJ reminded her. "You referred to the baby as a she. If you were truly in favor of this abortion, you wouldn't have done that. You would have referred to the baby as an it or something of that nature. No one who really wants an abortion would say something like that," TJ hugged her close to him, feeling the tears falling from her eyes on his shoulder.
"I don't know what to do though," Spinelli said into his shoulder. "You have this big fantasy of us being the next Ward and June Cleaver, but realistically speaking, we are both seventeen and are only going to be graduating in June. How can we support a baby on only two high school diplomas? I am confused. On one hand, I see your point, but then again, we aren't ready."
"We could put the baby up for adoption, but then we would always wonder what it could have been, just like we would with the abortion," TJ pointed out. "But we aren't going to make a decision tonight. You need to think this through before you make such a life changing decision. However, I think it is a decision we should make together, since this is both our responsibilities. After all, if we are responsible enough to, um, make love, I think we are responsible enough to make a decision on what to do together." (A/N: I sound so preachy! Sorry y'all)
Spinelli was about to speak up when Dr. Carter walked back in.
"Is it time for me to go?" TJ asked, letting go of Spinelli and reaching for his jacket.
"Well, yes, it is almost six, but that's not why I am here," Dr Carter answered. "I am here because I want to talk to Spinelli for a moment. And since you are the father of her baby, you might want to stay for this."
"What is it, Doctor?" Spinelli asked.
"Tomorrow I want to schedule an appointment to check up on the baby to make sure everything is ok. Is three ok for the both of you? I am sure you want to be there, TJ, and I know you have school tomorrow. "
"Three's fine," TJ answered and Spinelli nodded in agreement.
"Great, see you both then. TJ, I'll give you a moment to say goodbye," Dr. Carter smiled as he left the room.
"So tomorrow we get a checkup, let's hope everything is ok with our baby." TJ gently placed his hands on Spinelli's belly and kissed her. "Just promise me you won't make any decisions before we talk again, ok?"
"I won't," Spinelli promised as she briefly kissed him back. "As long as you keep this quiet for awhile, I don't want to tell anyone before we come to a decision, is that ok?"
"It's fine, and it's a good thing too, I am going to have a hell of a time thinking of a way of telling my parents if we do decide to keep the baby," TJ sighed, the reality of the possibility of becoming teen parent finally beginning to set in.
A/N: I know this is a little odd, but this is a lead in for the next chapter where the decision is made. Anyone know what it is? Will they keep the baby, or will she have an abortion? Is the baby going to be ok? Will Spinelli want to recover from her eating disorders for the sake of her baby (and herself)? Find out next time! R/R, but please keep my golden rule in mind as you do so. Happy reading!
Shadw: Thank you, you are an awesome writer too! I hope you keep reading my stuff!
LilVickiRyan: I shall! Enjoy and keep reading!
"Spinelli, what are you talking about? Dr. Carter said that if you make an effort to get better and follow his orders, you will have a 90% chance of recovery, so why are you saying the baby is going to leave you? And why are you considering terminating your pregnancy if you don't want to be left again? It doesn't make any sense!" TJ said, perplexed.
"Well, what if I did do something to cause the baby to die? What if I lose her? What if she resents me for being a teenage mom who can't give her what the other moms give their kids? What if she-----"Spinelli was cut off by TJ gently placing his finger on her lips.
"Shhhhhh," he whispered, pushing a strand of her hair out of her eyes. "You can't think like that. Our baby is going to love the both of us, and like I said, if you keep following doctor's orders, the baby is going to live a long, healthy happy life. So why are you being so negative?"
"TJ, think about it. After all the shit that has happened to me, why should this be any different? Why shouldn't she leave me like everyone else did? Why don't I take care of things now, before I end up getting hurt again?" Spinelli said again, hoping TJ would understand.
"Um, what do you mean, Spinelli? How is an abortion going to help anything? What is bothering you? And don't say nothing because I know something is. "
"Teej," Spinelli said slowly, as if she were talking to a kindergartener. "My parents are dead, Joey is in jail, Vitto is in Witness Protection, I have no family and probably ruined my relationships with my friends. Everyone I love leaves me, so shouldn't I save myself the pain?" Spinelli blinked, but couldn't help but let the fresh set of tears fall from her eyes, finally letting go of the pain she had harbored since Thanksgiving time. TJ put his arms around her, letting the tears fall from her own eyes.
"Baby, you didn't lose your friends, we did this because we love you and want you to get well. And you have me, and I love you more than anything in the world. That is why it is hurting me so much that you want to do this. "
"You really love me?" Spinelli asked doubtfully, as if she expected him to change his mind or something.
"Yes, Spinelli, I always have and always will. Which is one of the reasons why I want us to keep this baby. It is a symbolism of our love and I think it will bring us together as a family. It will give you the second chance at having the family you always wanted, and with any luck, we can give our child the Big Fat Greek Wedding deal." TJ grinned, hoping to make Spinelli smile.
"TJ, we aren't even Greek!" she reminded him with a laugh. "I'm Italian and you are English and German! I hate to break it to you, but there is no way we are going to raise a Greek child!" (A/N: I have no clue of TJ's real nationality, so I randomly picked two of them)
"I know, but I wanted to see how you would react to raising a child nonetheless. Besides I have a feeling you are doubting having this abortion," TJ looked at her, waiting to see her reaction to his statement.
"Why do you say that?" Spinelli wanted to know. Even though he was right, she had no idea how he could have figured it out.
"Because of something you said," TJ reminded her. "You referred to the baby as a she. If you were truly in favor of this abortion, you wouldn't have done that. You would have referred to the baby as an it or something of that nature. No one who really wants an abortion would say something like that," TJ hugged her close to him, feeling the tears falling from her eyes on his shoulder.
"I don't know what to do though," Spinelli said into his shoulder. "You have this big fantasy of us being the next Ward and June Cleaver, but realistically speaking, we are both seventeen and are only going to be graduating in June. How can we support a baby on only two high school diplomas? I am confused. On one hand, I see your point, but then again, we aren't ready."
"We could put the baby up for adoption, but then we would always wonder what it could have been, just like we would with the abortion," TJ pointed out. "But we aren't going to make a decision tonight. You need to think this through before you make such a life changing decision. However, I think it is a decision we should make together, since this is both our responsibilities. After all, if we are responsible enough to, um, make love, I think we are responsible enough to make a decision on what to do together." (A/N: I sound so preachy! Sorry y'all)
Spinelli was about to speak up when Dr. Carter walked back in.
"Is it time for me to go?" TJ asked, letting go of Spinelli and reaching for his jacket.
"Well, yes, it is almost six, but that's not why I am here," Dr Carter answered. "I am here because I want to talk to Spinelli for a moment. And since you are the father of her baby, you might want to stay for this."
"What is it, Doctor?" Spinelli asked.
"Tomorrow I want to schedule an appointment to check up on the baby to make sure everything is ok. Is three ok for the both of you? I am sure you want to be there, TJ, and I know you have school tomorrow. "
"Three's fine," TJ answered and Spinelli nodded in agreement.
"Great, see you both then. TJ, I'll give you a moment to say goodbye," Dr. Carter smiled as he left the room.
"So tomorrow we get a checkup, let's hope everything is ok with our baby." TJ gently placed his hands on Spinelli's belly and kissed her. "Just promise me you won't make any decisions before we talk again, ok?"
"I won't," Spinelli promised as she briefly kissed him back. "As long as you keep this quiet for awhile, I don't want to tell anyone before we come to a decision, is that ok?"
"It's fine, and it's a good thing too, I am going to have a hell of a time thinking of a way of telling my parents if we do decide to keep the baby," TJ sighed, the reality of the possibility of becoming teen parent finally beginning to set in.
A/N: I know this is a little odd, but this is a lead in for the next chapter where the decision is made. Anyone know what it is? Will they keep the baby, or will she have an abortion? Is the baby going to be ok? Will Spinelli want to recover from her eating disorders for the sake of her baby (and herself)? Find out next time! R/R, but please keep my golden rule in mind as you do so. Happy reading!