Chapter 1 ½ Desires
"Bleeding hell! Oh hell!" Yelled Remus. "Rem?" Sirius said, grabbing a hold of Remus' shoulders. "The newest vicar. Cor ..... blimey! Gods why?" Remus bellowed. "What's the problem Rem?" "He'll tell my mum, he'll tell father ..... I don't know what'll happen to me, to my family. He hates me, he does!" "Remus, why not forget about it until you have to think about it. Until then, Let's get you sloshed."
Remus was not pleased, but unsure what else he could do. Remus of course knew he was done for and didn't really fear his mother. His father was in jail, and the only one he truly feared was O'Brien. It was not uncommon for priests to slap wrists with rulers and other various ways of beating, but Remus was feeble and fragile. That was his true weakness.
"No, no Sirius, let's just walk. Let's get out of here." Sirius nodded and the two walked away slowly, arms clutching loosely. They walked for hours discussing trivial things like the weather, ignoring what had happened earlier in the day. Remus and Sirius walked till about 10:00 pm and collapsed on a beach side. Sirius smiled lightly as Remus fell into his arms on the sand bank. The moon was glowing above and the wind of the sea took the night off. Waves crashed lovely on the sand, and Sirius held onto Remus. "Sirius, you know I've never met anyone as wonderful as you." "Rem..." "Yes?" "Likewise." Remus took a deep inhale and pushed back further into Sirius arms until they lie in the moonlit sand. "I'm in a lot of trouble you know." "Nonsense, you're of age." Sirius said encouraging Remus to relax. "I mean with the bloody vicar." "Ah, well, I'll have to make you forget about him then, won't I?" "How Sirius?" "Well, it's night isn't it? And I'll spend it with you." "Sirius...." "Yes?" "Well, about what I said earlier...." "Listen, Rem...." Remus climed out of Sirius grasp and sat facing him, then blushed and quickly turned away. "I really want to.... Well, what I mean is.... I really want to be with you, but I'm just a .... Slightly... afraid." Sirius laughed lightly and embraced Remus lovingly. "Rem, I won't hurt you. I won't pressure you into anything you're uncomfortable with. I lo..." Remus looked at Sirius in shock and admiration. "I love you Remus." Sirius said. "I love you too Sirius."
The two young boys fell asleep grasping onto each other and woke the following morning by the sun that was just beginning to rise. Sirius opened his eyes and found Remus smiling at him. Remus kissed him lightly, and then began to stare at the small waves breaking onto the shore. The air was slightly chill, but the sky was glorious as wild colors sprang across in patches of egg yoke, citrus, rimmed with red and slightly plum in minor patches.
Sirius sat up and stretched like a cat or a fierce dog. Remus remained in a trance of the calming water before them both. "Come on, Rem, let's get breakfast." Remus smiled and followed without thought.
The two arrived at a small restaurant with great hunger and tired eyes. "After you," Sirius said holding the door open for Remus. "Thanks Sir." "Sir, now that's brill Rem, I like it." The two entered and choose a table next to the window with a fabulous view of the beach they had just come from. "You know, my mother is probably worried sick." Replied Remus as he stirred is tea furiously fast. "Yeah, mine too, but it was worth it." Remus smiled in response. "We will have to do that again sometime."
Sirius ordered bacon, eggs, toast, and one large glass of milk. Remus ordered bacon, eggs and a side order of fruit with a large glass of orange juice. They both achieved cleaning their plates and finished in records time. "Delicious," they both said in unison as a waitress with blue hair cleared their plates. "And we don't just mean you." Sirius replied with a friendly smirk. The waitress however paid little attention. "He's kidding," Remus declared as Sirius continued with comments alike.
As they left the busy eatery, Sirius bowed to the waitress as he held the door open for Remus.
"You are insane Sirius." "Just being polite love." "Well then, why not bow to me?" "I'll do more than that!" Replied Sirius grabbing Remus and dipping him gracefully. Then, Sirius lifted him back up and placed his arms around him and hugged him deeply.
As they stepped onto the street shock overpowered them upon seeing an unforgettable face they had seen only the morning before. Father O'Brien spotted Remus and his hands clasping with Sirius. "Good morning Remus Lupin. What am I to do with you?" Remus turned away from the towering man and shrugged his shoulders lightly. "What was that Mr. Lupin?" "I.... I'm sorry...what?" "I saw an interesting sight as I was leaving the Abby. I saw you intertwined with this gentleman here. Now, Mr. Lupin I demand to know what is occurring between you two."
Father O'Brien was a rather lanky man with a proper sort of face that wanted power but timid in taking hold of it. An honest, neat, downright modest man who was of tradition and little room for alternative life styles in all sense. He was not materialistic in any sense, but would never fancy sleeping on a beach side with another man unless he was saving them from something that needed rescuing. However, he wasn't to know of Mr. Lupin's little ecstatic delight of the night before.
"May I say something?" Sirius replied in watching his companion become intimidated by the taller man. Sirius knew the type of man O'Brien was. He knew he could intimate boys like Remus, but didn't have the heart to accomplish anything much as he was very alike Remus when he had been his age. Instead, Sirius thought to change the older man's mind if at all possible. O'Brien turned to Sirius in surprise and curiosity, though refused to hide his more playful side and frowned instead. "I suppose." "The truth is, Remus had been terribly upset because he really dreams of being a vicar like yourself someday." "Come again?" O'Brien spat. "What?" Remus said a little louder than he had intended. "Yes, that's right. Remus has been trying to figure out exactly how to tell his parents, especially his mother. You see she dreams of him getting married someday and of having children and all that. Of course telling her has been tearing him apart. I wanted to surprise him and cheer him up, when he ran out with tears in his eyes, I did the first thing that came to mind. I still don't understand why I choose to kiss him, but my girlfriends do that for me if I'm ever in that state. So I kissed him." "Then why did you run away when you saw me?" "I didn't want to but Remus was so fearful that you might tell the other priest you know." "I see. Is that true Mr. Lupin?" Remus nodded averting his eyes. "Well, if I see that type of thing again I'll have to question you're close, lecherous relationship." The boys nodded in understanding and they parted, leaving the boys to themselves again.
"My dream is to be a vicar!" Remus shouted in between mad giggles. "Well it was either that or I was teaching you how to kiss." Sirius replied with a playful grin. The two boys laughed all the way back home and parted on Oak Ave. "If everything turns out all right, would you like to come to dinner tomorrow night?" Asked Remus. "Of course, Rem. I'll do anything to see you. Even sneak out and surprise you for a late night shag, if you like." Remus blushed and began to run his hands all over Sirius body. "Not here, Rem." "All right, see you later then." Remus said with a pout, leaning in for one last kiss. "I'll see you tonight Rem."
Both boys finally pulled away slightly out of breath and both smiled as they walked further apart. "Tonight?" Remus said to himself.
All the way home Remus thought about the night before and the day so far. It wasn't even over, and he would see Sirius again. He hoped he'd finally experience everything he obsessively thought about. He licked his lips wanting to taste Sirius lovely flavor in his mouth again and completely forgot about what he was going home to.
"Bleeding hell! Oh hell!" Yelled Remus. "Rem?" Sirius said, grabbing a hold of Remus' shoulders. "The newest vicar. Cor ..... blimey! Gods why?" Remus bellowed. "What's the problem Rem?" "He'll tell my mum, he'll tell father ..... I don't know what'll happen to me, to my family. He hates me, he does!" "Remus, why not forget about it until you have to think about it. Until then, Let's get you sloshed."
Remus was not pleased, but unsure what else he could do. Remus of course knew he was done for and didn't really fear his mother. His father was in jail, and the only one he truly feared was O'Brien. It was not uncommon for priests to slap wrists with rulers and other various ways of beating, but Remus was feeble and fragile. That was his true weakness.
"No, no Sirius, let's just walk. Let's get out of here." Sirius nodded and the two walked away slowly, arms clutching loosely. They walked for hours discussing trivial things like the weather, ignoring what had happened earlier in the day. Remus and Sirius walked till about 10:00 pm and collapsed on a beach side. Sirius smiled lightly as Remus fell into his arms on the sand bank. The moon was glowing above and the wind of the sea took the night off. Waves crashed lovely on the sand, and Sirius held onto Remus. "Sirius, you know I've never met anyone as wonderful as you." "Rem..." "Yes?" "Likewise." Remus took a deep inhale and pushed back further into Sirius arms until they lie in the moonlit sand. "I'm in a lot of trouble you know." "Nonsense, you're of age." Sirius said encouraging Remus to relax. "I mean with the bloody vicar." "Ah, well, I'll have to make you forget about him then, won't I?" "How Sirius?" "Well, it's night isn't it? And I'll spend it with you." "Sirius...." "Yes?" "Well, about what I said earlier...." "Listen, Rem...." Remus climed out of Sirius grasp and sat facing him, then blushed and quickly turned away. "I really want to.... Well, what I mean is.... I really want to be with you, but I'm just a .... Slightly... afraid." Sirius laughed lightly and embraced Remus lovingly. "Rem, I won't hurt you. I won't pressure you into anything you're uncomfortable with. I lo..." Remus looked at Sirius in shock and admiration. "I love you Remus." Sirius said. "I love you too Sirius."
The two young boys fell asleep grasping onto each other and woke the following morning by the sun that was just beginning to rise. Sirius opened his eyes and found Remus smiling at him. Remus kissed him lightly, and then began to stare at the small waves breaking onto the shore. The air was slightly chill, but the sky was glorious as wild colors sprang across in patches of egg yoke, citrus, rimmed with red and slightly plum in minor patches.
Sirius sat up and stretched like a cat or a fierce dog. Remus remained in a trance of the calming water before them both. "Come on, Rem, let's get breakfast." Remus smiled and followed without thought.
The two arrived at a small restaurant with great hunger and tired eyes. "After you," Sirius said holding the door open for Remus. "Thanks Sir." "Sir, now that's brill Rem, I like it." The two entered and choose a table next to the window with a fabulous view of the beach they had just come from. "You know, my mother is probably worried sick." Replied Remus as he stirred is tea furiously fast. "Yeah, mine too, but it was worth it." Remus smiled in response. "We will have to do that again sometime."
Sirius ordered bacon, eggs, toast, and one large glass of milk. Remus ordered bacon, eggs and a side order of fruit with a large glass of orange juice. They both achieved cleaning their plates and finished in records time. "Delicious," they both said in unison as a waitress with blue hair cleared their plates. "And we don't just mean you." Sirius replied with a friendly smirk. The waitress however paid little attention. "He's kidding," Remus declared as Sirius continued with comments alike.
As they left the busy eatery, Sirius bowed to the waitress as he held the door open for Remus.
"You are insane Sirius." "Just being polite love." "Well then, why not bow to me?" "I'll do more than that!" Replied Sirius grabbing Remus and dipping him gracefully. Then, Sirius lifted him back up and placed his arms around him and hugged him deeply.
As they stepped onto the street shock overpowered them upon seeing an unforgettable face they had seen only the morning before. Father O'Brien spotted Remus and his hands clasping with Sirius. "Good morning Remus Lupin. What am I to do with you?" Remus turned away from the towering man and shrugged his shoulders lightly. "What was that Mr. Lupin?" "I.... I'm sorry...what?" "I saw an interesting sight as I was leaving the Abby. I saw you intertwined with this gentleman here. Now, Mr. Lupin I demand to know what is occurring between you two."
Father O'Brien was a rather lanky man with a proper sort of face that wanted power but timid in taking hold of it. An honest, neat, downright modest man who was of tradition and little room for alternative life styles in all sense. He was not materialistic in any sense, but would never fancy sleeping on a beach side with another man unless he was saving them from something that needed rescuing. However, he wasn't to know of Mr. Lupin's little ecstatic delight of the night before.
"May I say something?" Sirius replied in watching his companion become intimidated by the taller man. Sirius knew the type of man O'Brien was. He knew he could intimate boys like Remus, but didn't have the heart to accomplish anything much as he was very alike Remus when he had been his age. Instead, Sirius thought to change the older man's mind if at all possible. O'Brien turned to Sirius in surprise and curiosity, though refused to hide his more playful side and frowned instead. "I suppose." "The truth is, Remus had been terribly upset because he really dreams of being a vicar like yourself someday." "Come again?" O'Brien spat. "What?" Remus said a little louder than he had intended. "Yes, that's right. Remus has been trying to figure out exactly how to tell his parents, especially his mother. You see she dreams of him getting married someday and of having children and all that. Of course telling her has been tearing him apart. I wanted to surprise him and cheer him up, when he ran out with tears in his eyes, I did the first thing that came to mind. I still don't understand why I choose to kiss him, but my girlfriends do that for me if I'm ever in that state. So I kissed him." "Then why did you run away when you saw me?" "I didn't want to but Remus was so fearful that you might tell the other priest you know." "I see. Is that true Mr. Lupin?" Remus nodded averting his eyes. "Well, if I see that type of thing again I'll have to question you're close, lecherous relationship." The boys nodded in understanding and they parted, leaving the boys to themselves again.
"My dream is to be a vicar!" Remus shouted in between mad giggles. "Well it was either that or I was teaching you how to kiss." Sirius replied with a playful grin. The two boys laughed all the way back home and parted on Oak Ave. "If everything turns out all right, would you like to come to dinner tomorrow night?" Asked Remus. "Of course, Rem. I'll do anything to see you. Even sneak out and surprise you for a late night shag, if you like." Remus blushed and began to run his hands all over Sirius body. "Not here, Rem." "All right, see you later then." Remus said with a pout, leaning in for one last kiss. "I'll see you tonight Rem."
Both boys finally pulled away slightly out of breath and both smiled as they walked further apart. "Tonight?" Remus said to himself.
All the way home Remus thought about the night before and the day so far. It wasn't even over, and he would see Sirius again. He hoped he'd finally experience everything he obsessively thought about. He licked his lips wanting to taste Sirius lovely flavor in his mouth again and completely forgot about what he was going home to.