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Chapter 9:
It's Okay To Cry
(Hermione's point of view...}
It all got worse from there. I had bruises all over my body, almost every you could spot a bruise. Ron always seemed to find a reason to punish me. I never let Ron or anyone see my bruises or cuts, and whenever I noticed the spell wearing off I would quickly put it back on again. I don't understand it, Ron was so nice and loving before. What happened to him?
"Hermione, Hermione!" Ron said waving his hand in front of my face bringing me out of my though.
"Huh? What?" I asked.
"You were kind of out of it, whats up?" Ron asked.
"Oh, nothing. Just day dreaming that's all." I said smiling at him and he smiled back at me. I was starting to get really good at this pretending thing. It kind of scared me. Then Ron moved in for a kiss, startling me. We hadn't kissed since, well, since he had raped me the hospital wing. He released my lips and looked up at me when I didn't kiss back. He looked in my eyes, and stared deep. Then he went back in for another kiss. This time I kissed him back, slowly and not really wanting to, but I did it anyways. It never really matters what I want anymore, its all about Ron, and his needs.
"Oh god! Get a room." Harry said laughing at us as he sat down beside us in the Great Hall for lunch. I broke the kiss as soon as Harry said that and looked down at my hands, trying to hide my shame. Ron looked at Harry and blushed slightly.
"Sorry Harry, didn't realize you here yet." Ron said. He looked over at me, grabbed my hands and said "We'll continue later." And then he started laughing quietly to himself. While I just sat there and stared at him, sending a half smile.
"Would you like to share what's so funny Weasley!" said Pansy Parkinson as she walked over to us with her group of girls behind her. Ron wasn't much for defending himself, and I had nothing to say to defend his honor, so it was all up to Harry.
"I don't think its any of your business, I mean Ron doesn't want to sleep with you, and n'or do I and neither does any guy or girl at this table. So you can bring you're disgusting self back over to the rest of the Slytherin whores. Have a nice day kid." Harry said simply, and looked back at me and Ron to continue our conversation.
"Well apparently you just made it my business didn't you Potter, and why on earth would I want to sleep with a damn Gryffindor. None of them are any good in bed and most of them are still virgins. They wouldn't do anything to me anyways." Pansy sneered, turning away and walking to her table with the rest of her 'gang.'
"Well, leave it up to the Slytherin whore to ruin our meal." Harry said in disgust, "God sometimes she just needs to shut up and mind her own business for once!" Ron and I both looked at Harry. He had never once said anything like what he said to Pansy before in his life!
"Wow, Harry! Bloody brilliant that was indeed!" Ron exclaimed, "Where did that come from? Seriously!"
"From the top of my head Ron. It was good wasn't it?" Harry said. I just smiled, never talked much lately, unless someone talked to me I wouldn't talk.
"You didn't like that Mioney?" Ron asked, looking at me.
"It was pretty good Harry, one of your best insults you should be proud." I said sarcastically. Harry reached over to try and punch me but I moved over before he could. Harry looked at me funny, as I shifted the way I was sitting and slowly moved back over to where I was before.
"Hermione, what was that?" Harry asked full of worry. I looked up from where I was eating and over to Harry. I smiled and shoved another fork full of food into my mouth. I chewed it quickly trying to come up with an excuse.
"Er... well I... um.. Don't really know to be honest Harry." I said and went back to my food. Harry and Ron exchanged worried glances (Ron's obviously was fake, because he knew why I did what I did.) and than went back to eating their food.
"I've got to go to the wash room, I'll catch up with you guys at Charms. Bye." I said standing up. Ron grabbed my hand and I flinched a lil, and he pulled me in for a quick kiss and again I didn't kiss back. But Harry didn't notice so I had nothing to worry about yet. Ron finally let me go a few moments later and I slowly walked out, right behind Draco. Great, now he's gonna try and get some. I thought to myself God I just want to be left alone.
Draco turned around and he say me. He smirked a lil and pushed the door open wide enough for the both of us. Than he grabbed my arm and pulled me into an empty classroom.
"Hey," Draco said as he pressed me up against the wall. My eyes began to water and I looked away.
"Draco, I...I can't." I said as my spell began to wear off. Draco backed off and looked at me.
"Oh my god!" Draco said, "Who did this to you?" I looked down at my arms, all of my bruises and cuts were back. The water in my eyes finally spilled over and slid to the ground. I tried to stop myself from crying but I couldn't. They just kept falling right to the floor. Draco reached over and touched my arms surprisingly gently trying to hurt me and pulled me into his and let me cry on his shoulders. He was stroking my hair saying "It's okay to cry, don't worry, it'll all be okay, It's okay," in a soothing voice.
When my eyes had not more tears left to cry I slowly stood up, with a little help from Draco. He gently rubbed my arm and wiped away the last tear that rolled down my cheek.
"Are you okay?" Draco asked. I shook my head no and looked up into his eyes. His nice gray eyes. Why hadn't I noticed them before, they're so amazingly, wow.
"Who did this to you?" Draco asked. I slowly said, "Ron, but you can't touch him or he'll know I told. I don't want him to hit or kick me again please don't do anything please!" and then my eyes began to water and I could no longer carry my own weight and I collapsed on the floor. Draco dropped down beside me and lifted my chin up to look into his eyes.
"Hey, I can just randomly start a fight, don't worry. I won't let him touch you again." Draco said. I smiled at him, a real smile, even though I knew there was nothing he could do to stop Ron but at least he was trying to make me feel better. I opened my mouth to say something but Draco silenced me with a gentle kiss on my lips, as if he were afraid he would hurt me. I opened my mouth slightly to let his tounge in mine and he did the same. Our tounges roamed around each others mouths as if it were for the first time but we were interrupted when we heard people leaving the great hall.
"Shit," I said, "If Ron sees me in here with you he'll kill me! And he promised he would!" We looked at each other and he gave me gentle peck on my lips and said "I'll go distract them while you go out that door over there okay. Don't worry, he'll never know." I slowly crawled over to the door on the other side of the room, luckily there were two doors. I did the spell to hide my cuts and bruises, than Draco left and I heard him say something to Harry and then there was some bickering so I quickly left. I walked into Cho on the way to Charms.
"Hermione! I haven't seen you since you're lil confession! How are you?" Cho asked. I looked at her puzzled. That's right I still couldn't remember what happened after I told Cho about Draco.
"Good, good," I said, "Cho, I can't remember anything about what happened after I told you I had a thing for Draco, could you, refresh my memory?"
"Oh, well um... I told you I was a lesbian... Than something happened, and Ron walked in on us and he took you away." Cho said, "Ya, that was it."
"What 'something' happened? I woke up really sore that day and I need to know why before I go crazy." I said. Cho looked down the hall, and than back at me.
"Um well...." Cho said and than mumbled something. "Have you seen Justin, from Ravenclaw, I've been looking for him everywhere."
"I didn't even know you talked to Justin," I said slightly fustrated that she wouldn't tell me clearly "You mumbled what ever it was you said before." Cho looked back down the hall as if trying to avoid the topic.
"C'mon Cho just tell me already," I said pleading by now, "Please!?" Cho looked back at me and sighed.
"Alright but I know you're not gonna like what happened." Cho said. I looked at her confused.
"Why wouldn't I?" I said, "Just tell me what happened."
"Well, we... um... we kind of sort of had a lil bit of lesbian action." Cho struggled to say.
"What just making out or whatever?" I asked, kind of relieved because I thought it would be worse.
"Yea, and some other stuff." Cho said. I looked at her with disgust!
"You mean you, ate me, and I ate you and and..." I shuddered in disgust.
"And you fingered me," Cho said, "Ya that sounds about right. Well I got Charms see you later." I grabbed Cho's arm and said "I have Charms too, walk with me." I said smiling. I was use to being used and what ever by now so I honestly just didn't care any more. Cho looked at me funny and than decided it would be alrighty, "I guess it's alright than?" Cho said.
"I don't even remember what happened so it doesn't really matter, but don't do that to me again!" I said. Cho nodded and we walked off and started a deep conversation on our way to Charms.
Chapter 9:
It's Okay To Cry
(Hermione's point of view...}
It all got worse from there. I had bruises all over my body, almost every you could spot a bruise. Ron always seemed to find a reason to punish me. I never let Ron or anyone see my bruises or cuts, and whenever I noticed the spell wearing off I would quickly put it back on again. I don't understand it, Ron was so nice and loving before. What happened to him?
"Hermione, Hermione!" Ron said waving his hand in front of my face bringing me out of my though.
"Huh? What?" I asked.
"You were kind of out of it, whats up?" Ron asked.
"Oh, nothing. Just day dreaming that's all." I said smiling at him and he smiled back at me. I was starting to get really good at this pretending thing. It kind of scared me. Then Ron moved in for a kiss, startling me. We hadn't kissed since, well, since he had raped me the hospital wing. He released my lips and looked up at me when I didn't kiss back. He looked in my eyes, and stared deep. Then he went back in for another kiss. This time I kissed him back, slowly and not really wanting to, but I did it anyways. It never really matters what I want anymore, its all about Ron, and his needs.
"Oh god! Get a room." Harry said laughing at us as he sat down beside us in the Great Hall for lunch. I broke the kiss as soon as Harry said that and looked down at my hands, trying to hide my shame. Ron looked at Harry and blushed slightly.
"Sorry Harry, didn't realize you here yet." Ron said. He looked over at me, grabbed my hands and said "We'll continue later." And then he started laughing quietly to himself. While I just sat there and stared at him, sending a half smile.
"Would you like to share what's so funny Weasley!" said Pansy Parkinson as she walked over to us with her group of girls behind her. Ron wasn't much for defending himself, and I had nothing to say to defend his honor, so it was all up to Harry.
"I don't think its any of your business, I mean Ron doesn't want to sleep with you, and n'or do I and neither does any guy or girl at this table. So you can bring you're disgusting self back over to the rest of the Slytherin whores. Have a nice day kid." Harry said simply, and looked back at me and Ron to continue our conversation.
"Well apparently you just made it my business didn't you Potter, and why on earth would I want to sleep with a damn Gryffindor. None of them are any good in bed and most of them are still virgins. They wouldn't do anything to me anyways." Pansy sneered, turning away and walking to her table with the rest of her 'gang.'
"Well, leave it up to the Slytherin whore to ruin our meal." Harry said in disgust, "God sometimes she just needs to shut up and mind her own business for once!" Ron and I both looked at Harry. He had never once said anything like what he said to Pansy before in his life!
"Wow, Harry! Bloody brilliant that was indeed!" Ron exclaimed, "Where did that come from? Seriously!"
"From the top of my head Ron. It was good wasn't it?" Harry said. I just smiled, never talked much lately, unless someone talked to me I wouldn't talk.
"You didn't like that Mioney?" Ron asked, looking at me.
"It was pretty good Harry, one of your best insults you should be proud." I said sarcastically. Harry reached over to try and punch me but I moved over before he could. Harry looked at me funny, as I shifted the way I was sitting and slowly moved back over to where I was before.
"Hermione, what was that?" Harry asked full of worry. I looked up from where I was eating and over to Harry. I smiled and shoved another fork full of food into my mouth. I chewed it quickly trying to come up with an excuse.
"Er... well I... um.. Don't really know to be honest Harry." I said and went back to my food. Harry and Ron exchanged worried glances (Ron's obviously was fake, because he knew why I did what I did.) and than went back to eating their food.
"I've got to go to the wash room, I'll catch up with you guys at Charms. Bye." I said standing up. Ron grabbed my hand and I flinched a lil, and he pulled me in for a quick kiss and again I didn't kiss back. But Harry didn't notice so I had nothing to worry about yet. Ron finally let me go a few moments later and I slowly walked out, right behind Draco. Great, now he's gonna try and get some. I thought to myself God I just want to be left alone.
Draco turned around and he say me. He smirked a lil and pushed the door open wide enough for the both of us. Than he grabbed my arm and pulled me into an empty classroom.
"Hey," Draco said as he pressed me up against the wall. My eyes began to water and I looked away.
"Draco, I...I can't." I said as my spell began to wear off. Draco backed off and looked at me.
"Oh my god!" Draco said, "Who did this to you?" I looked down at my arms, all of my bruises and cuts were back. The water in my eyes finally spilled over and slid to the ground. I tried to stop myself from crying but I couldn't. They just kept falling right to the floor. Draco reached over and touched my arms surprisingly gently trying to hurt me and pulled me into his and let me cry on his shoulders. He was stroking my hair saying "It's okay to cry, don't worry, it'll all be okay, It's okay," in a soothing voice.
When my eyes had not more tears left to cry I slowly stood up, with a little help from Draco. He gently rubbed my arm and wiped away the last tear that rolled down my cheek.
"Are you okay?" Draco asked. I shook my head no and looked up into his eyes. His nice gray eyes. Why hadn't I noticed them before, they're so amazingly, wow.
"Who did this to you?" Draco asked. I slowly said, "Ron, but you can't touch him or he'll know I told. I don't want him to hit or kick me again please don't do anything please!" and then my eyes began to water and I could no longer carry my own weight and I collapsed on the floor. Draco dropped down beside me and lifted my chin up to look into his eyes.
"Hey, I can just randomly start a fight, don't worry. I won't let him touch you again." Draco said. I smiled at him, a real smile, even though I knew there was nothing he could do to stop Ron but at least he was trying to make me feel better. I opened my mouth to say something but Draco silenced me with a gentle kiss on my lips, as if he were afraid he would hurt me. I opened my mouth slightly to let his tounge in mine and he did the same. Our tounges roamed around each others mouths as if it were for the first time but we were interrupted when we heard people leaving the great hall.
"Shit," I said, "If Ron sees me in here with you he'll kill me! And he promised he would!" We looked at each other and he gave me gentle peck on my lips and said "I'll go distract them while you go out that door over there okay. Don't worry, he'll never know." I slowly crawled over to the door on the other side of the room, luckily there were two doors. I did the spell to hide my cuts and bruises, than Draco left and I heard him say something to Harry and then there was some bickering so I quickly left. I walked into Cho on the way to Charms.
"Hermione! I haven't seen you since you're lil confession! How are you?" Cho asked. I looked at her puzzled. That's right I still couldn't remember what happened after I told Cho about Draco.
"Good, good," I said, "Cho, I can't remember anything about what happened after I told you I had a thing for Draco, could you, refresh my memory?"
"Oh, well um... I told you I was a lesbian... Than something happened, and Ron walked in on us and he took you away." Cho said, "Ya, that was it."
"What 'something' happened? I woke up really sore that day and I need to know why before I go crazy." I said. Cho looked down the hall, and than back at me.
"Um well...." Cho said and than mumbled something. "Have you seen Justin, from Ravenclaw, I've been looking for him everywhere."
"I didn't even know you talked to Justin," I said slightly fustrated that she wouldn't tell me clearly "You mumbled what ever it was you said before." Cho looked back down the hall as if trying to avoid the topic.
"C'mon Cho just tell me already," I said pleading by now, "Please!?" Cho looked back at me and sighed.
"Alright but I know you're not gonna like what happened." Cho said. I looked at her confused.
"Why wouldn't I?" I said, "Just tell me what happened."
"Well, we... um... we kind of sort of had a lil bit of lesbian action." Cho struggled to say.
"What just making out or whatever?" I asked, kind of relieved because I thought it would be worse.
"Yea, and some other stuff." Cho said. I looked at her with disgust!
"You mean you, ate me, and I ate you and and..." I shuddered in disgust.
"And you fingered me," Cho said, "Ya that sounds about right. Well I got Charms see you later." I grabbed Cho's arm and said "I have Charms too, walk with me." I said smiling. I was use to being used and what ever by now so I honestly just didn't care any more. Cho looked at me funny and than decided it would be alrighty, "I guess it's alright than?" Cho said.
"I don't even remember what happened so it doesn't really matter, but don't do that to me again!" I said. Cho nodded and we walked off and started a deep conversation on our way to Charms.