I didn't know why I did this, I knew that nobody would ever read it but I guess it let me feel as if I could still reach her. After I put the letter inside an envelope I picking up my keys, locked the place up again, and traveled out to where I did once a year every year since the day she died. The place where Natasha was actually buried, it wasn't at the place the funeral was held; it was a different location in the middle of a forest.

About an hour later...

Typically on this day, it would rain... this year was no exception... much like the day she died, only two years it wasn't like this. It was like it was made that way, it was as if the tears wouldn't appear on my face so they appeared from the sky instead. Somebody once said that, not directed at me but it was something I never could get out of my head, it was annoying. I stopped the car, got out and protected the letter from the merciless rain, but what for...

There was a special tree that Natasha had... I knew where it was by now despite being lost the first two years, and typical of Natasha there was a keycard I had to put in, put on a tree that wasn't actually a tree. I swiped the card through and a platform under me rose and then stopped. I looked at the pillars on the left, right and over the top in an arc like fashion, they were old and worn down by the elements.

I moved through and saw the tombstone of Natasha, high above the ground but she of course was still buried in the ground, but it was elevated. I still don't understand why she wanted it this way, but it's what she said on the will, despite arguments from her parents Carrington and I did the best we could for her. Of course it was hard to get anything out of her parents since to this day they still think it was my fault for that she died... sometimes I think it is. If I hadn't allowed her to go with me, if I had been more thinking about her rather then my self and wanting her with me a lot of the time she might still be around today. Another device around here was a combination lock on a certain part of the ground, finding the lock on the left hand side of the wall which was covered in vines and then pressing the right combination. The piece of grass moved and inside was a small box with a rose design on it. I opened the box and inside were 7 envelopes each from the previous years. I added the newest one and closed the box again, then reflected... just for a few minutes more. In my letter I liked to talk to write to Natasha as if she was still living, about things going on in life, as if someday she would reply. I wasn't good at writing letters especially at parts that involved using a lot of fancy words and I guess emotion. The first few years I was writing about how she meant a lot to me and how life would never be the same without her, but now I just decided to reflect on what had happened recently, like anybody would in a letter.

To dearest Natasha,

It is another year again... This year has been quite eventful with the Skedar finally making their big move down here... I didn't have much of a hand in stopping them this time with the new agent Joanna (who broke my record mind you), doing most of the work with me now days regulated to doing undercover stuff due to the Maian surgery on my legs as I've written about before. While Joanna is very skilled I don't think you'd like her because she wouldn't return a lot of your high tech stuff, as she can be a bit careless. That development in the device lab still hasn't progressed anywhere near as far it would have if you were still here. I guess Carrington had a lot of faith in you and spent more money. I helped Joanna save Elvis after he was nearly going to get dissected by some scientists in Area 51, she did the rescuing while I did the undercover stuff. Underneath the arrogance of her and once you learn how she works she's actually really great to work with and Carrington likes to put us together.

The main thing that happened this year is the Skedar seems to be mostly extinct after Joanna and the Maians destroyed most of them. According to Skedar diplomates who are now on the Maian planet there are only a small group of them however they (the diplomates) were chased down until the Maians got them out. About a month after that Sean finally returned, he hasn't aged at all due to some thing on the Maian planet, Carrington thinks it's the food. Anyway he trained Maian protectors on his time on the planet; it was good to see him again.

Datadyne were "officially" destroyed in an attack by the Skedar known as Mr. Blonde who sent their entire building crashing into the ground... Only we know what really happened thanks to Cassandra who Joanna says gave her life to allow Joanna to escape from her cell, maybe Cassandra isn't as evil minded as we thought, although I think she was driven much more by revenge then to protect the world from future harm. The US government covered it up as a catastrophic accident in the lower dataDyne laboratories, which triggered an explosion, and all these other lies that were obvious to anybody with half a brain. However now dataDyne are on the run and split up into a much smaller group which was headed by Trent Easton.

However another interesting thing was that dataDyne not only split into smaller groups there was division in the company, the son of former head Luke Elcallaran took over the other side which we refer to the good side. We headed there and Joanna and Sean went in after Trent's base while Velvet who is Joanna's sister and I chased off some overpowered gangs on the street which we defeated easily, but they had some connection with the darker dataDyne and other stuff. Joanna took on Trent first but something happened and she was knocked out the window leaving Sean to deal with Trent... he did so but Trent escaped. Joanna survived but was hurt and would be out of action for some time. Then Sean met this kid who we later discovered to be Trent's unwanted child, I don't know much about him but he found out he was Trent's kid only recently after something happened to his mother.

I later went into Trent's base and was attacked by a woman, but on defeating her she committed suicide by later what I learned was poison, suddenly the base was going to self-destruct. Of course I escaped, then I went on a mission with Velvet to trace down other connections dataDyne and Easton had. This connection was proven by the poison in one of the shoes that an insider of the gang told us, he barely looked 16... and they forced him to do what they wanted, but he betrayed them killing his leader when Velvet was cornered and later told us that dataDyne had been importing this special concealed poison to put in their shoes so if they were captured they could commit suicide before they would talk.

After tracing this poison we were lead to Hong Kong where Velvet had been captured and taken to. We met up with Mel and Kel, twins who used to work for dataDyne 'unofficially' . On their house exploding after Mel had some kind of device and then dataDyne decided they wanted it back... So in a revenge attack we attacked dataDyne but Kel was killed in the attack however we rescued Velvet and captured Trent.

Junior however had Skedar technology implemented and it caused him to gain 10 years. Trent had planned on using him as a weapon against us but it didn't work. Mel however talked to me a bit last night... he told me stuff he and his brother had gone through after their grandfather went to Japan and seemed to never return. After their house had blown up and Mel was still in possession of this device that dataDyne wanted back we decided to drag along another party member you could call it. However nothing is the same on this day, Joanna noticed it the most, she had this look of worry in her eyes when I finally knocked her out of parent like mode where she yelled at Melvin and Junior for attacking Trent. I personally couldn't care less about the bastard and I knew they would both be harmless, well as far as not killing him was concerned. Now all that remains in defeating that evil organisation that took your life is destroying the small parts that it has divided into, one by one.

I know a lot has happened recently so I will now tell you about how I truly miss you, I don't think I will ever find a replacement for the gap you left... I already have run out of things that I haven't said in previous years... I'm sorry that I'm not good with words... I just don't know what to say any more...

But I guess I can say this... I will always miss you.... whatever happens in my life.

Love

Jonathan Dark

I opened my eyes and walked out.

"Jonathan!" A voice called out for me. I turned around. A beautiful woman in a long white dress standing there. However she didn't look real.

"Natasha..." I said... it had to be...

"Yes... Jonathan...it's me..." Natasha gave a smile

I went to hold her but of course she was transparent.

"I'm sorry to have come to you like this" Natasha said

"I don't understand..."I replied

"You've come here for 8 years... you still love me after all these years?" Natasha asked

"Of course" I said without a doubt in my mind

Natasha smiled "You see Jonathan, you need to move on..." Natasha started

"But I have... sort of" I replied, Natasha frowned.

"If so then what are you doing here... from everybody else's view yes I would agree... and traditions are good thing indeed, and you are the only visitor so I welcome the company..." Natasha said

"but...?" I asked

"It is clear you still want something that is not possible... I don't mean to be so harsh, but every time this time of year comes you withdraw into your shell. I just want you to be happy, as I can do little else... "Natasha said

"So you saying I shouldn't come here... every year?" I asked

"No, no... Just that you shouldn't come here hoping I'll be able to talk to you, that I will live again... sure I am talking to you now... but you are the only person who can see me, nobody else can... and something tells me you have a crush... on a certain Perfect Dark" Natasha smiled

"Not true... I couldn't ever love anybody else" I replied

"That's your problem... you need to let go... in front of everybody else you are a real hero but I don't fall for such crap and you know it" Natasha said

I sighed... I wasn't really holding to Natasha, but... every time this year, thoughts of her would come back like nothing else... and it hurt... there... I admitted it to myself.

"Good Jonathan" Natasha smiled

I looked up at her surprised

"Yes, I can read your thoughts, I know you don't think about me every day nor do you have trouble sleeping or anything like that. However I can tell you are afraid of falling in love again. You said in this year's edition of the Jonathan News that I wouldn't like Joanna because she is careless. You are probably right, and I would have strangled her for leaving that camspy in Chicago, but that's not the point do you like her, at all? And if not... you can't honestly tell me that no girl has attracted your attention" Natasha said

I sighed again, one thing that annoyed me about Natasha was that she was almost always right... ah crap, she would have heard me thinking that.

"Yes I heard that... and I'm glad you think I'm right..." Natasha said

"Although Joanna... she doesn't give a shit about me... I like her, she's good in her own way but she's so focused on her work and her mission" I said

"You know she's looking for you right now... she saw through your heroic act too" Natasha laughed "She cares for you, although I don't think she knows quite why either" Natasha said

"Because without me, she wouldn't have any stupid joker in her life" I said sarcasm dripping in my voice

"Could be..." Natasha either ignored or didn't notice the sarcasm, and knowing her it'd be likely...

"I ignored it Jonathan... but in reality it's true, the one thing that had Joanna concerned was that she noticed something missing in you... and that was it... the only way she knew something was wrong" Natasha said interrupting my thoughts, I began to really hate how she could... d'oh.

Natasha this time said nothing just rolling her eyes...

"Well you wouldn't like it if every thought you were having was projected for me to hear would you?" I asked

"I guess not... but when you leave here, return next year if you want, but don't be holding onto me okay? Promise me that" Natasha said

"I promise..." I replied... having seen Natasha again, and speaking to her removed a great deal from my mind... but now that she was here what else could I say to her

"You don't have to say anything... I have done my job... and now it is time for you to do yours" Natasha said "If you and Joanna aren't meant to be then so be it, and you don't have to get with a woman because I said so, just don't come here every year hoping that I will somehow rise. I know what you think, so no need to write it down but I appreciate your thoughts so don't get me wrong, but I believe you are making yourself miserable" Natasha looked at me

"I understand, thanks again" I replied

"I must leave now, but before I do there is something I must give you, something that was in my will that my parents never showed you" Natasha said

"What is it?" I asked

"In the tombstone, behind it there is a switch only your fingerprint will work on it" Natasha told me

I did as I was asked and there was a small square on the back of the stone wall behind me, I put my finger on the middle and the wall in the back opened up a small hole.

"Even in death you are full of surprises" I smiled at her

"Check inside" She replied

Inside the small hole was a key.

"This is the key to my house... the one you visited all those years ago, I gave this to you in my will but my parents wouldn't let you have it because they believe you killed me, or it was your fault... I wrote this about 2 days before I died... I didn't think it would happen, but I didn't want to leave you with nothing if it did" Natasha smiled she seemed she wanted to tell me this for a long time

"Thank you..." Those were the only words I could manage

She then faded into nothingness.

I walked out and came back down. It was sad to see her leave but it was great to talk to her again... she gave me a different view on the life I was currently leading. It was a very weird feeling and I felt a weight lifted off my shoulders... I opened the car and headed home, I would work out stuff with my new home later.

So I finally did the Jonathan over Natasha thing... Jonathan may not have cried for days after it happened but much is reflected in his character it is obvious there are a few skeletons hiding somewhere, whether it be that he fell in love with a traitor or he fell in love and then the woman he was in love with died. Just when Cristalina thought I wouldn't do Joanna/Jonathan I surprise everybody... bwhahhaahaha...