Chapter 7

I was staring at my reflection in the mirror in the ladies restroom. Trying to figure out what was so wrong with me. Why don't guys like me? Am I just not attractive? That must be it. I've never had a boyfriend and I'm 24 years old. If that's not pathetic I don't know what is.

I had been in the bathroom for about 15 minutes now berating myself and just plain ol' putting myself down. Then the bathroom door opened. I wiped my eyes, yes I had been crying. I looked at the person thru the mirror. It was Victoria. She smiled softly at me, "Are you okay?" I just looked at her and nodded, "Yeah. I'm okay." Victoria looked at me with concern evident in her eyes, "Are you sure? I could hear you crying out in the hallway when I passed." My eyes got huge at that comment.

"Oh. No one else was with me. And I'm sure if anyone else heard you they just thought you were Trish or Stacy." I sighed and it felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Victoria smiled at me, "I'm Lisa Marie Varon. Otherwise knows as Victoria, you can just call me Victoria though, it's easier. What's your name?" I gave Victoria a half smile and said, "I'm Kendra Nash." Victoria got a big smile on her face, "THAT'S why I recognize you."

I looked at Victoria questioningly, "What do you mean? You recognize me??" Victoria nodded, "Well, Kev kept pictures of you in his wallet that he showed EVERYONE. Plus I heard some of the guys talking about how you were here visiting." My eyes got big, "Wait. Kev kept pictures of me in his wallet?" Victoria nodded, "Sure did. Some of them were just you, some of the were of the two of you though." I winced, "I bet some of them were horrible looking. Oh well, nothing the others haven't seen before."

Victoria looked at me with concern, "No. The pictures he had of you were very flattering. You could tell he loves his little sister a lot just by the way he talked about you. He put you on a pedestal. It was so cute." I looked at Victoria with amusement in my eyes, "You think Kev's cute?" Victoria rolled her eyes, "Well yes. But who doesn't?" I sighed, "That IS true. Who doesn't fall for 'Big Sexy'? Well... besides me that is. He's my brother, that would be wrong on so many levels if I thought that about Kev." And I shivered.

Victoria smiled, "Well, it's great to finally meet you Kendra. Who did you come here with?" I smiled, "Shawnie. But I wanted to visit everyone here. I've missed everyone SO much since I've been gone." Victoria smiled, "It sure seems like you have." I nodded. "Okay. I don't want to seem pushy or anything. But why were you crying?" I sighed, "I was just feeling sorry for myself is all."

I could tell that my explanation didn't make sense to Victoria so I elaborated. "I'm 24 years old, but I've never had a boyfriend, never even been kissed, nothin'. It's just pathetic." Victoria looked shocked, "You've never had a boyfriend?" I shook my head no. "Were all the guys at your high school gay or something?" I laughed, "No. I don't think any of them were gay actually." Victoria shook her head, "Those boys were just plain ol' stupid. Why wouldn't they want to be your boyfriend? You seem to be a really nice young woman." I sighed, "Thanks. I don't have a very good perception of myself. Usually I'm okay. But when guys start talking about their women or what they like in a woman I get very uncomfortable, because I know that I don't have any of those qualities."

Victoria just sat there in shock. "Okay. First thing to do. Change your perception of yourself. You're beautiful Kendra. Why don't you think so?" I shrugged, "I've just never thought of myself as beautiful. Honestly I've never really had a reason to." Victoria shook her head, "People must tell you you're beautiful." I nodded, "But they don't really mean it. That or they mean it but no one else thinks so."

Victoria sighed, "Okay then... that step is going to take a while. Why are you so hard on yourself?" I thought about what Victoria asked, "I don't have a real reason. I've been this way ever since I started high school ten years ago." Victoria looked at me, "Do you think if the girls gave you a makeover you'd think more highly of yourself?" I glanced down at the tiled floor. "I don't know. I've never had a real makeover before." Victoria looked at me oddly, "Every woman needs a good makeover now and again. Lets go to the Diva's locker room. They'll just LOVE it."

I looked at Victoria kind of worried, "They won't try to chance too much about me will they?" Victoria smiled, "No. Just what you want them, or allow them to change." I bit my lower lip and thought about what was going to happen if I agreed. "Okay. I just need to go find Shane and tell him I'm heading over there." Victoria smiled, "Okay. I'll come with you. Then we'll head on over to the locker room." I smiled and nodded, "Thanks a lot Victoria. This means a lot to me that you want to be my friend." Victoria smiled, "Of course I want to be your friend. I've heard nothing but good things about you from everyone." I blushed, "Okay. I just wanted to say thank you now in case I forget later." Victoria nodded, "No worries. And you're welcome honey."

I entered Shawn's locker room without knocking, "Are you sure it's wise to just barge in without knocking? They could be changing." I smiled, the room was empty. "This is Shawn's locker room. I've known him forever. He ALWAYS locks the door while changing. PLUS I've seen it before. It traumatized me as a little girl." Victoria laughed, "It traumatized you?" I smirked, "Well... not really traumatized. But I was like 10 at the time. He was the first man I ever saw naked. Not that he wasn't hot or anything. But when I was ten I didn't really think of it that way. He was just one of my brothers friends being a sicko." I rolled my eyes, "And after Shawn found out that it embarrassed me to see him naked he just HAD to do it all the time. The days of DX... pure hell. I'm glad he stopped doing that a while ago."

Victoria laughed, "I don't think any other woman on earth would complain about seeing Shawn naked, in fact I know women would LOVE to see him naked." I smiled, "That is VERY true. I'm not one of them. I've known Shawnie for years... he's like a brother to me. YUCK." Victoria rolled her eyes, "We were looking for Shane here? Why would he be here?" I shrugged, "This is where I left Shane. This is also where I found Shane."

Victoria nodded, "And how long have you known our resident super hero?" I got a big smile on my face, "Hmmm... for a LONG time. I met Shaners back in WCW when Kev was still there. I hung out with the boys of 3 count ALL the time. Almost as much as I hung out with the clique, which was always bad considering how young I was back then, and how rowdy the guys were back in the day."

Victoria smiled, "I remember back then. They were bad on tv so I can only imagine what it was like off camera. But back to this Shane thing. Do I detect a hint of a crush?" My cheeks turned red. "I DO! I knew it! You two would be so cute together! Ooo... is he why you were crying earlier?"

I bit my lower lip, "Sort of. Shane was only PART of the reason. But it's really not his fault, I asked him for details." Victoria got confused, "Details. Details about what?" I sighed, "Shane is in love with a beautiful woman. I was excited at first because everyone knows how much luck, or lack there of, Shane's had with women. He tends to pick the skanks or the gold diggers. But when he started talking about how wonderful she is I got even more depressed and hard on myself."

Victoria was VERY confused at this point. "Okay. I talked to Shane last week but he never mentioned a woman to me. Surely he couldn't have fallen in love that easily. Amy and Matt would know. Maybe they can figure out who she is."

I just stared at Victoria, "I don't really want to know anymore. And I sure as hell don't want to talk about it. Besides that... Shane told me that I know the girl." Victoria sighed in frustration, "He said you knew her and he DIDN'T give you her name?! Grr..." I laughed, "Now you know how I feel. Although I do sort of feel bad. I SHOULD be happy that Shane's found love, but something inside me just doesn't want to be happy about it."

Victoria nodded, "You want to be that girl. Totally understandable. Shane's a sweetie. I'd be acting the same was if I were you. Let's get going to the locker room. You need... scratch that, you DESERVE to be pampered. Let's go." And with that Victoria and I headed to wherever the diva's locker room was. I really hope I don't regret this later on. REALLY.

Author's Note: Again I'm terribly sorry for the lack of updates. I finally got a job and I went on two vacations so I didn't have much time to write. That and I couldn't think of anything... writer's block SUCKS! Anyways thanks for sticking with the story. I SWEAR I'll update it more. Or at least I'll try my best to update more. Thanks for all the support and reviews so far! You guya are the greatest! --Jess