What do you do when you know? When you know this is it. This is when you're going to loose everyone you care about or close enough. When, to make the world better for everyone else, you have to give up what you love the most.
You don't let it show. You put on that champion's face and you don't let it slip. You don't tell people how you're feeling and you certainly don't let them see the pain. You act, you pretend.
It's the only way. I have to do this. I have to fight. It's my destiny, my meaning, my raison d'être. To make it better, it has to hurt. But the hurt is good, because it shows who you are. It shows that you're strong, because you can go through the pain.
It never ends, the evil in the world. It never stops. But if I do this then I can at least stop it from getting too evil. I hope they'll forgive me, the people I'm putting in danger. I'm so sorry.
I'm just going to do this. I probably won't survive. And neither will they. I have to do this, but they don't. I wish I could tell them all to just leave, it would protect them at least. But I know they won't because they love me. Like I love them.
And now I have to loose them. They say I'm a champion. Am I? I don't think so. But maybe... being strong means hiding these emotions. And I can do that.
I'm sorry.
But you'll never know...
How much it hurts.
So. As far as I can see, that could be either Angel or Buffy, right before Chosen, or right before Not fade away. You choose. I can't be bothered.