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Author's Note: I've decided to try something new. I started this story YEARS ago and I started typing it up a few months ago and realized how truly crappy my writing used to be, so I hit delete and got over it. But then tonight I was sitting around bored with writer's block, TRYING to work on Dreams Of Gold and after a few hours, got nowhere. So I just sat there, staring blankly at my TV while 7th Heaven was on and got the idea to rewrite my old story. I'm really not sure how it used to go, but I'm going to attempt to rewrite it. I've got a lot of great ideas for fixing this story, so I hope you will all bare with me through it. I will continue to update Dreams Of Gold while continuing this one at the same time. Like with Dreams Of Gold, I don't have a title for this story yet, so ideas and suggestions are more than welcome. Thank you to everybody for all the wonderful reviews! You guys are the best, I love you all! Please let me know what you think of this new story. =) It may be out of order in whatever way, but hey, its my story, I get to decide how it goes. ;-) Sorry if it takes a while for me to get it posted, but I've been writing it in whatever time I get between classes and stuff and I'm laptop less so its all scribbled down on paper and I've actually gotta find time to type it all up. But hopefully I'll find enough time somewhere. =) Also, I've decided to make it easier on people to let me know what they think, and give me more ideas of what to write. If you would like, I can be reached via email or Yahoo! messenger at or via AOL instant messenger as PrincessSpzMnky . Feel free to drop me a line if you'd like. =) Happy Reading! =)
Summary: Kim is back from Florida and showed up at Tommy's front door. How will her being back affect Tommy? What about the team? Read on to find out.
Competitions
"Tommy, there you are! We've been looking all over for you!" Rocky said as Tommy walked in the door.
"Sorry man, I know I'm late . . ."
"Yeah yeah yeah, you'd better go get ready, you're up next."
"Do me a favor . . . Do you know if Kat is here yet?"
"Yeah, she's here somewhere with Tanya and Billy. Why, what's up?"
"Let's just say I got a very unexpected visitor on my way over . . ." Tommy said before walking away to go stretch.
"Hey, I heard Tommy finally got here." Adam said as he joined Rocky in a corner.
"Yeah. But he doesn't seem too happy."
"Weird, he was fine when I called him this morning."
"I don't know, he said something about getting an unexpected visitor on his way here."
"Do you think he got attacked by cogs or something?"
"Wouldn't he have called us though?"
"Do you have any idea what it might be?" Adam asked as they watched Tommy warm up on the other side of the youth center.
"Its Tommy, it could be anything."
"You're right . . . He seems pretty upset though. The only time I've ever seen him like that was when . . . . ." Adam's voice trailed off as he watched his friend.
"You don't think . . ." Rocky started, but stopped not wanting to even finish the sentence.
"When is the last time anybody even heard from her?"
"I don't think any of us have heard from Kim at all since the letter."
"So you don't think that she could have something to do with it, do you?" Adam asked in a concerned voice as the current competitor ended his routine and the judges called for Tommy to be up next.
If that's the way you want it
Well there you go
Baby you can have it all
Now that you just let me go
Yeah yeah
Yeah yeah
I waited here for so long
Thinking that you'd see
You just kept on running away
You make your misery my company
Open up your eyes
Don't you know you only get one life
Oh you drive me crazy
Oh you just bring me down
Look out your window
My sunshine's all around
All you have to do is just surrender
Just surrender
"Hey Tanya, that girl over there . . . She looks really familiar . . ." Kat said as she looked across the room toward the door where a gorgeous burnett had entered the room.
"Which girl?"
"The burnett in the tiny black skirt. She looks kind of like . . ."
"She's gorgeous!"
"Yeah really! Its weird, she looks just like . . ."
"Just like who?" Tanya asked as they saw the girl hug their friend Billy.
" . . . . . Kimberly . . . . ." Kat said as her voice dropped out.
"Kimberly? You mean Tommy's Kimberly?" Tanya asked still staring at the girl as she talked to Billy, then headed their way. "Kat? . . . . . Kat, you ok?"
"Hey you guys, look who I just found!" Billy said happily as he escorted Kimberly over the audience seating area.
"Hey Kat! Its great to see you again!" Kimberly said cheerfully as she stood in front of the girls.
"Kim! What are you doing here?!?"
"I just got back to town a couple hours ago and Tommy said he was competing, so I thought I'd come watch. How are you?"
"Kim, this is Tanya." Billy said introducing the two girls.
"Hi Kimberly, its nice to finally meet you. I've heard so much about you!" Tanya said shaking Kimberly's hand.
"Hi Tanya, its great to meet you! I love your top, its really cute!"
"Really? Thank you! I love your outfit! You look GREAT!"
"Thank you, you're so sweet! I think I'm a little over dressed to be here, but it wasn't exactly part of my plan for the day. Its just one of those random things that comes up, you know?"
"Really Kim, you look great!" Billy said as they sat down to watch Tommy stepping out onto the mat.
"Next up, Angel Grove's own County Champion: Tommy Oliver, who is competing for the title for the third year. Tommy, you may begin." one of the judges announced as Tommy bowed in front of them, then began his routine.
Tommy's routine began perfectly, but like before when he was warming up, Tommy just wasn't himself. He messed up on a few of his moves, then lost his footing during a roundhouse kick and slipped, falling flat onto the mats.
"What's up with Tommy?" Rocky asked as he and Adam joined the group in the stands.
"I have no idea . . ." Kat said as they watched Tommy get up and quickly darting for the door, completely stunning everyone in attendance. "I'm going . . ."
"No, is my fault, I'll go talk to him." Kimberly said, interrupting Kat, and hurrying after Tommy. Billy quickly got up and ran to the judges, making a quick explanation for Tommy's actions, and begging them to let him try again.
All the pain in your heart
All the tears in your empty soul
And when you're spinning round and round
I'm the psycho going out of control
Open up your eyes
Don't you know you're only wasting time
You know it doesn't matter what you do
Don't you know I'm so over you
Open up your eyes
Don't you know that it's your life
Oh you drive me crazy
Oh you just bring me down
Look out your window
My sunshine's all around
All you gotta do
Oh you drive me crazy
Oh you just bring me down
Look out your window
My sunshine's all around
All you gotta do is
Just surrender
Just surrender
Just surrender
If that's the way you want it
Well there you go
Kimberly hurried out of the building into the parking lot where she looked around but didn't see Tommy anywhere.
"Is he out here?" Kat asked, stepping outside behind Kimberly.
"No . . ."
"I think I know where he might be." Kat said as she stepped past Kimberly.
"Kat, I did this, let me fix it." Kimberly said grabbing her wrist.
"No. He's my boyfriend. I should be the one to go after him." Kat answered back in a stern voice as she ripped her arm out of Kimberly's grasp. Kimberly bit her tongue as Kat's words hit her like a slap in the face.
". . . . . Kat, look . . . . . Its my fault he ran out. Just let me fix it . . . I know Tommy better than anyone. I know exactly where to find him." Kimberly said, standing her ground.
"Of course its your fault! You walked out on him Kimberly. You broke Tommy's heart into a million pieces with that hurtful letter. And now here suddenly are, back in town . . . . . It took Tommy MONTHS to get over how much you hurt him. But now you show up and all the pain comes rushing back. I think you should go. Tommy is MY boyfriend now. I'll go find him."
"Please Kat. Let me go." Kimberly begged. "Its my fault, please let me fix it. I promise to leave when I'm done. You can have Tommy. I left him because he deserved a full-time girlfriend who could always be there for him, instead of someone who was an entire country away. He's all yours. Just please, let me go fix this. I know where he is."
"You don't deserve a guy as great as Tommy. Especially not after what you've done to him." Kat said in a spiteful voice, then turned and headed away to find her boyfriend.
"Kat, you're going the wrong way!" Kimberly called behind her, but Kat didn't listen. "Fine, just goes to show how well you really know him!" Kimberly said to herself, then took off in the other direction to go find Tommy.
Kimberly found Tommy at the edge of the lake, staring out over the water with tears in his eyes. Tommy stood quietly, chucking rocks out into the lake, then crossed his arms over his chest. Kimberly just stood there, silently watching him for a moment before making her presence known.
"Hey . . . . . I guess its time for that talk now . . . . ."
" . . . . . You shouldn't be here . . . . ." Tommy said softly, without turning around.
"Tommy, we need to talk . . . . ."
" . . . . . Does it look like I'm really in the mood for talking!?!" he snapped back.
"Tommy look . . . . . I'm sorry . . . . . I'm sorry I hurt you . . . . . And I'm sorry I came back and showed up unannounced . . . . . But I want to explain things to you. I want to make them right . . . . ."
"Do you really think that you can just walk right out of my life, completely ripping my heart to shreds, then suddenly come back and make it all better!?! Kimberly, it doesn't work that way!"
"Tommy, please . . . . ." Kimberly begged, taking a step closer to him, and reaching out to touch his arm. "Please Tommy, let me explain . . . . ."
"Why should I? There's nothing to explain Kim! Your letter was clear as day! I'm like a brother to you, so you went and found someone else!" Tommy said furiously as he finally spun around to face her. "And really Kim, who could really blame you?!? I gave you everything you could ever want! But I guess my love just wasn't enough for you, because you just took my heart and ripped it to pieces, then proceeded to stomp all over them! Really, what's left to explain?!? I think the message is pretty clear, don't you?"
"Tommy, please. Its not like that."
"Oh really Kim? Then do tell! What is it like? Am I not even a brother to you now? Am I some kind of stupid mindless pet instead?"
"Tommy . . . . . Tommy, I screwed up. And I'm sorry!"
"Sorry just doesn't cut it anymore Kim! . . . . . Do you have any clue how long I've been waiting for this moment? For the day you would walk back into my life? Its been 2 years Kimberly! 2 YEARS!!! I've been waiting for you to come back to me for 2 years! Come say you're sorry and want me back. Or tell me that it wasn't you that sent the letter. That is was evil Rita or the Machine Empire or something. I've been waiting 2 years to hear you say this whole stupid letter thing was a mistake and that you still love me and want me in your life! But you know what Kim? It's a little too late for that! You had your chance and now its gone! You wanted out and now you've got it! Congratulations Kimberly Hart, I hope you're happy!" he said as sternly as he could, forcing his voice to stay steady, before turning to leave.
"Tommy Please! Just give me a chance!" Kimberly begged again, grabbing his hand as he tried to leave. "Please just hear me out!"
"Its too little too late Kim! You moved on 2 years ago, and now I have too! Its over! Just like you wanted it to be!"
I was six years old
When my parents went away
I was stuck inside a broken life that I couldn't wish away
She was beautiful
She had everything and more
And my escape was hiding out and running for the door
Somebody listen please
It used to be so hard being me
"Tommy, please just let me explain!" Kimberly begged.
"Why bother Kim?!? Its pretty damn clear to me! You don't need to explain! You found someone else, who you apparently love a whole lot more than you could ever possibly love me, so you've moved on! What's left to explain?!? I loved you more than anyone ever could, but apparently it just wasn't enough for you! You're free Kim, just like you wanted! So go! Take your stupid trophy boy and go back to Florida!" Tommy yelled, hurt and anger very evident in his voice.
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold
But every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
My chains are finally free
Don't feel sorry for me
"Fine Tommy!" Kimberly said just as mad. "Fine! If this is how you want it, then I'll go! But don't you dare say I didn't try to fix things! I never meant to hurt you! I was scared and stupid and I regret what I've done! I lied to you, after I promised I never would! I loved you so much, I was afraid of what I was feeling, so I ran away! Are you happy now?!? I lied Tommy! I lied because I didn't know what else to do! I'm sorry I hurt you, I never mean to! I do love you, and yes, I do wish I hadn't screwed up so badly, because at least then I could still have you as a friend. But fine, if you want to just walk away, then go! Take Kat with you! Hell, you can go marry her today for all I care! I'm done Tommy! I love you, but you know, I'm over it!?! All I wanted by coming back, was to make things right between us. Well, I'm sorry I even bothered! My mom was right, I was stupid to come back and expect you to understand! Makes me wonder if you ever even really loved me anyway! Whatever! I hope you're happy with Kat!" Kimberly yelled back, then turned and started to storm off.
All the days collided
One less perfect than the next
I was stuck inside someone else's life
And always second best
"For your information Kimberly, that's where you're wrong!" Tommy yelled at her retreating back. "I don't love Kat! The only girl that I have ever loved is you!"
"If you really loved me, then you'd prove it!" Kimberly yelled back as she took quicker steps away, hurrying to get as far as she could before the tears poured out.
"Kim!" Tommy called after her. "Kim, stop! . . . . . Kimberly!" Tommy said grabbing her arm.
"Tommy, let me go!" Kimberly said sternly, fighting to keep the tears in cheek.
"Kimberly . . . . ." Tommy said softer.
". . . . . Tommy, please just let go . . . . ."
" . . . . . Fine . . . . . I guess you just lied again . . . You really don't love me . . . . ." Tears began flowing down Kimberly's face and her knees began to go weak as she stood with her back to Tommy.
Oh I love you now
Cause I now I realize
That its safe outside to come alive
In my identity
So if you're listening
There's so much more to me you haven't seen
". . . . . Kim . . . . . ." Tommy said grabbing Kimberly, and pulling her to him as she fell to the ground. Tommy held Kimberly as her tears flooded out over her face. " . . . . . Kim, I'm so sorry . . . . . I never meant to hurt you . . . . . I'm just . . . so angry . . . . . . . . I do still love you, I never stopped . . . . . . . . ." Tommy held Kimberly tight in his arms, letting her cry as long as she needed. "Kimberly, I'm so sorry I hurt you . . . . . I promised I never would, and like you, I broke that promise . . . . . So I guess we're both just as flawed as each other . . . . ."
" . . . . . I'm . . . so sorry T . . . Tommy . . . . . I . . . . . I just . . . . ." Kimberly started when her tears finally began to subside.
"Why Kim? . . . . . . Why the letter? Why not just call and talk to me?"
"I . . . . . I don't know . . . . ." she said softly as Tommy gently lifted her chin to look into her eyes, and carefully wiped the tears away. " . . . . . I was so scared . . . . ."
"What were you scared of? You knew I loved you . . . . . . When I put you on that plane, I promised to be with you forever. I couldn't wait until you came back to me. Did you really think I wouldn't keep that promise? Do you not trust me enough?"
". . . . . I . . . . . I don't know . . . . . I just . . . . . I got scared . . . . . I missed you so much, it was all I could do to not run home every day, just to see you . . . . . And . . . . . Every time we talked, it got so hard . . . . . . . . . ." Kimberly said as more tears rolled down her cheeks.
"What got hard?" Tommy asked patiently, wiping away the new tears.
" . . . . . . . Not being with you . . . . . You . . . . . You deserve better than that . . . . . . . . . You deserve a full-time girlfriend . . . Someone whose hand you can hold, and smile you can always see . . . . . Someone who will be there everyday to tell you that she loves you . . . . . . . . . . . And . . . . . And that just . . . . . That just isn't me . . . . . . ."
"Kim . . . . . . . I don't want anyone else . . . . . I don't need that full-time girlfriend . . . . . The only girl in the world who I have ever wanted to be with, is you . . . . . . . And I don't care if you're here every day to hold my hand, or to smile at me and tell me that you love me . . . . . . . . . Knowing that you're mine and that someday we'll be together again . . . Kim, that's enough for me . . . . . All I want, is for you to be happy . . . . ."
" . . . . . W . . . . . What about Kat?" Kimberly dared ask, becoming timidly hopeful.
"I never loved Kat . . . . ."
"But she said she was your girlfriend?"
"If that's what you want to call it . . . . ."
"I . . . I don't understand . . . . ."
"Kim, look . . . . . Kat and I . . . . . . . . . She isn't you . . . . . . All Kat will ever be, is a replacement . . . . . . . We went out a few times . . . And I even kissed her . . . . . . . . . But all I ever thought about when we were together, was how much I missed you . . . . . I love you Kimberly, I always have . . . . . . ."
"But . . . What about Kat?"
"Don't worry about Kat . . . I'll talk to her . . ."
"Tommy . . . . . I am so sorry I hurt you . . . . ."
"I know . . . I'm sorry too . . . . . But it doesn't matter anymore, its in the past."
"Why are you being so understanding?" Kimberly asked confused.
"I shouldn't be . . . . . I just . . . . . I've had a lot of time to think about it . . . . . After I got your letter, a lot of stuff happened to me . . . . . Kim, you know I'm Native American, right?"
" . . . yea . . ."
"Well, after your letter, I met this old man at this Native American thing that Ernie had at the youth center . . . . . Basically, to make a really long story short, he sent me on this quest to find myself . . . . . I was so screwed up Kim, I couldn't even think straight . . . And the stupid quest was the absolute last thing in the world I wanted to be doing . . . . . I had to climb this huge mountain which was almost impossible . . . . ."
"Nothing is impossible . . ."
"Exactly . . . . . You know that broken arrowhead I've always had?"
"Yea . . ."
"When I got to the top of the mountain, I found the other half . . . . . But it took me days to get there . . . . . With how messed up I was at the time, it took everything I had to just focus enough to climb . . . . . I had to completely clear everything out of my head . . . . . Kim, I came to peace with us . . . . . When I got to the top, I found something I never dreamed I would ever have . . ."
"What did you find?"
"I'd rather show you than tell you . . . . . What are you doing tonight?"
"I'm not sure . . . . . I promised my Dad I would take him back his car. He went to my Uncle's house to get mine out of storage for me, and let me borrow his while he was gone."
"Well what do you say you come with me tonight . . . . . I wanna take you somewhere . . . . ."
"I . . . . . I guess I could . . . . ."
"Ok . . . . ."
"Tommy, I'm so sorry about all of this . . . . ."
"I am too . . . . ."
" . . . . . You blew your meet because of me . . . . ."
"I don't care . . . There will be others . . . . ." Tommy said softly as he stared into Kimberly's eyes.
"Tommy . . . . ." a voice said from behind them.
"Billy?" he said, turning his head to see behind him.
"I got you a second chance . . . You've got 15 minutes to be back though."
"How'd you find me?"
"Let's just say I had a little help . . ."
"Thanks Man. You're the best."
"I know. Are you guys ok? Is there anything I can do?"
"No . . . . . I need to talk to Kat . . . I can do it later though . . ."
"Would you mind if I talked to her?"
"Thanks Man, but its something that I have to do on my own. I appreciate the offer though."
"If it makes things any easier, we talked the other day, and Kat was actually thinking that maybe its best if you just went your separate ways . . . . ."
"Are . . . . . Are you serious?"
"I'm sorry Man, she just said that you really don't have very much in common . . . . ."
"No, that's great news! Thanks Billy!"
"I'll go find her for you; tell her that she's free to go after the guy she met the other day."
"Great, I've been dumped a second time!" Tommy laughed.
"She asked you to do damage control, didn't she?" Kimberly asked.
"Yea, kinda . . ." Billy said sheepishly.
"You're a good friend Billy."
"I know. Welcome home Kim. I'm glad you're back."
"Me too . . ."
"I'll see you guys back at Ernie's." Billy said, then turned and headed back to the youth center.
"Wow . . . . . That was a lot easier than I ever thought it would be . . . . ." Tommy said with a sigh of relief.
"I'm sorry about Kat . . ." Kimberly said softly.
"Don't be. Cause now I'm free to do what I've been wanting to do since I put you on that plane 2 years ago . . ."
"And what might that be?"
"This . . . . ." Tommy said softly, leaning in and kissing her lips.
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Oh my life is good
I got more than anyone should
Oh my life is good
And the past is in the past
" . . . . .W . . . What was that for?" Kimberly asked breathlessly when Tommy pulled away.
"I love you Kimberly Hart. I never stopped."
"I love you too Tommy Oliver . . . . ."
"So I guess then my next question is a piece of cake!"
"What question would that be?" Kimberly asked with a knowing smile.
"Kimberly . . . . . Will you be with me again?"
"I thought you would never ask!" Kimberly said excitedly throwing her arms around Tommy's neck, hugging him as tight as she could.
When I see you smile
I know everything's okay
When I hear you laugh
It's always a brighter day
Gonna do my best to get the rest
Cause long as your with me we'll be alright
It's a beautiful day
Yeah yeah
It's a beautiful day
Yeah yeah
It's a beautiful day
Yeah yeah
Such a beautiful day
To Be Continued . . . . . . . . .
"Surrender" & "Shadow"
Autobiography
© Ashlee Simpson 2004
"When You Smile/Beautiful Day"
"Summerland" TV Series
© Warner Brothers 2004
I'm not sure what the title actually is, or who the song is by. It's the theme song to "Summerland" on the WB network. I've done some research to find the title and artist, but unfortunately nobody really knows. But as soon as I find out, I'll be sure to give them credit. I just really liked the song. =)