Author: Muppet

Rating: PG (I dunno maybe its pg-13... if you're twelve click the 'x' in the upper right corner of your screen now.)

Chapter title: What she has done

Disclaimer: I don't own SVU but if I did I'd change the theme song to "I'm Blue (da-ba-dee)". I'm only kidding.

A/N: This chapter takes place after Elliot left Olivia's apartment. Sorry for not updating soon enough. Oh and I forgot to mention in my last update, that I revised my chapter three a little, small adjustments, nothing big. Oh yeah and thank you Audrey for helping me write this chapter though you didn't do the best job of checking it grammatically. And thank you Maureen for picking up where Audrey left off. You guys are awesome.

Elliot walked down the hallway from Olivia's door. Kathy had told him she was going to be leaving somewhere and wanted to talk to him before she left. When he asked where she seemed agitated, saying that he just needed to get home.

So many things were on Elliot's mind; Olivia, for one. He was glad he stopped by and saw her. She needed him more than she knew and he needed her just as much, as he found out the hard way.

The thought of what would have happened if the phone had not rung just then in Olivia's apartment was a thought Elliot's married mind wanted to keep out. Everything was getting so confusing and whether things would go up or down from there was an even cloudier issue.

Elliot got inside his sedan and drove to his house in twenty minutes. He could have driven a lot faster but his mind was somewhere else. He walked up his walkway and onto his porch. He unlocked the door and went inside.

He walked into the kitchen to find Kathy in the same chair she was sitting in when he left. The thought of whether or not she had moved crossed his mind as he sat down in the chair across from her.

"So, what did you want to talk about?" He began to get a little more nervous as the seconds passed in silence.

"When I came to your work the other day..." She began not knowing where to go from there. She decided to start over with a different approach.

"A few days ago I was... cleaning the house when I realized... I was late." It took Elliot a second or two to realize what she meant.

"You mean..." He began, but was having trouble getting the rest of the words out.

"I took a test and... it was positive" She said looking him in the eye carefully. He couldn't speak. He didn't know what to say.

"Just to be sure I went to the doctor." She said still looking at him.

"And?" he asked her getting up to take the seat next to her at the table.

"And... it was positive." She answered hesitatingly.

"You're... pregnant. Wow." He said, leaning back slightly in his chair trying to take it all in.

"That's good news, right?" He asked noticing the disturbed look on her face.

"Elliot..." She began. She had something to add.

"Yeah?" He said putting his hand on her shoulder.

"There's something else." She said.

"What?" He asked confused as to what other news there could be. She sat for a moment and looked up at him. She knew she could never have enough courage to come out and say what she wanted.

"I'm four weeks pregnant." She said looking down. The fact that they hadn't been intimate in over a month didn't cross Elliot's mind.

"Kat, what do you mean?" He asked confused as to why she would mention that. Elliot wasn't stupid, just blind.

"Nothing, Elliot. Forget about it." She snapped. This wasn't necessarily surprising for Elliot; she had snapped at him many a time while she was pregnant with his other four children.

"Sorry." He said to her sincerely. "So, when are we going to tell the kids?" He asked, his mind going back to when they told Maureen and Kathleen (who was really too young to understand) about Dickey and Lizzie.

"Oh, can we wait to tell the kids?" She said quickly.

"Why?" He asked curiously.

"Because I just want to talk to you about this a little more." She answered somewhat annoyed. She walked across the room and picked her keys off the counter.

"Well, where are you going?" He asked not bothering to ask about her vague answer to his last question.

"I'm going to run some errands. I'll be back in an hour or so." She said heading for the door.

"Kathy." He called out to her to get her attention. She turned to face him and he walked over to her and kissed her. She returned the kiss reluctantly.

"I love you." He said after pulling back and smiling.

"I love you, too" She said halfheartedly returning the smile. And with that she turned and walked out of the door. She walked to the driveway and into her car. Elliot watched out the window. The car didn't move. She just sat there in her car. He couldn't see what she was doing inside but if he knew he would not be smiling.

Kathy sat in her car crying, her hands covering her face. 'How did this happen? How did I let this happen? What did I do to deserve this?' was what she was thinking. But that's just it. She did do something to deserve this punishment. She cheated on her husband. And now she was about to be on her way to meet the man she cheated with.

She'd promised him that she would tell Elliot, but seeing him sitting next to her she didn't have the heart to break his.

She loved Elliot, of course, but it was different now. It is a different kind of love. She loved Elliot because of what they share together and not what they have. They share a home, a bed, a family, and memories of the past and what they used to be. But that was not good enough.

She didn't want to feel like she was "lucky" when Elliot would come home early enough to have dinner with his family. She didn't want to feel like she had to raise their kids by herself, and she didn't want to feel the only time they could really be together is in retirement. And she didn't want to feel jealous of the woman he spent all his time with and could tell things to that he could not tell his own wife.

But now as she sat there in her car looking through a veil of tears she realized: What she had done didn't make any of that go away.

A/n (a): Will Kathy ever tell Elliot about her lover on the side? Will Olivia's life ever get back to normal (see chapter four) Will Elliot flip out and go totally insane? Will Olivia suffer from post- concussion hemorrhage syndrome? (I think I just made that up). Tune in next time to find out. So until then, this is Muppet signing off.