Hiya, I hope you liked the last chappie. Well. This one ought to be interesting. I will try to upload more often. Well, that's it! I am thinking about a HP/GW, HP/LL, RW/HG but I want to know if that would be too harsh

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Harry Potter and the Preparation

Pain

Harry looked out his window as he past by the ugly white house on Privet Drive that he had grown up in. The family that lived in that house was the sort of which you would never want to meet. Once when Uncle Vernon and Dudly were out and only Harry and Aunt Petunia were home Aunt Petunia had told him something very odd. She had said, "you know Harry, Vernon was once nothing like he is now. He was the most handsome man in all of our highschool. Actually, he was rather worried when he heard that your parents had died. He heard it from some wizards on the street once". Aunt Petunia never talked about "that other place". It was odd to here her talk about it know. "When you were dropped off at our doorstop we thought that mabey you would be normal, but it just was not so". Then she started saying something, "you know, I missed her so much when she left" but was stopped by Uncle Vernon's voice at the door. "Hello honey, I'm home after a wonderful game of football"! (Soccer if you live in the us) Once Harry had heard Uncle Vernon talking to Aunt Petunia. Over Aunt Petunias sobs Harry heard "I miss her so, I would become a witch if it would make her come back" but then Uncle Vernon scolded her and said that she must never say that ever ever (ever ever ever ever ever, need I continue?) again. Harry looked at Hedgwig and said, "you know I have it, Aunt Petunias diary, I haven't had a chance to read it yet, but I just have to read what she thought way back when, when she was still in grammar school". "Harry" said Hermione from the other side of the car, "who are you talking too". "Oh, no one, just my self" responded Harry. "Wow Harry" piped in Ron, "Your cousin is a PIG!!!" Hermione glared at Ron. "He had chocolate on his chin and". "Not know Ron" hollered Hermione in disgust. They rest of the ride went in silence. Harry continued to look out the window and think. He was so sick of being Harry Potter. The boy who lived. He was beginning to wish he hadn't lived. Mabey, he could just not live, that would work, all he had to do was... No, he would not, he had friends who would be sad and Sirus would not have wanted him to. But he wasn't here. 'NO!' Harry finally disieded, he couldn't, it was just not right to give up like that, it would give some too much pleasure and others too much pain. But, how could he get rid of all the pain he was going through, what about becoming a cutter?

Hi Ya, I hope you like the chappie. Did I scare you? I hope so. I haven't quite figured out how Harry is going to get rid of all the pain, so give me ideas. As for pairings, HELP!!! Well, I won't make Harry commit suicide, but it would add a twist! (No, im kidding, I have when people do stuff like that, but I might do the cutting. Well, yell at me, praise thee, or worship me (hehe, I didn't mean that last part!)

Jaspercat (Said) Hiya There! This was a great chap but please update soon. That was a good way of describing Herm's parents, nicly done, hope to read more soon. Luv Jaspercat (response) im glad you liked it! I better start writing the next chappie! I hope you don't hate what harry is thinking about but it was about time. After all, he has so much responsibilitys. Well, I hoope you liked this chappie. Did you know I am on 2 authur alurt lists and 2 favorite lists! It makes me so happy! (