The Day I Found Hope

by dreamergalz

Chapter Four: When Everything Changes

Disclaimer: I do not own CCS, only the story and the plot!

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It was a very gradual change; I had not realized it until it was too late. Yes, it caused me so much sorrow that I had at first decided to stop this story but then, much effort has been put into this story, so I have decided to continue it, even though I do not know how many people will read it and find a new meaning to their lives. However, I will try my best and offer what I can. Perhaps, the happiest moments will be the first year and the time when Clow wants to tell us a story, but when it changed, everything would change. This was how it happened, and this, made me so sad...

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Life, could never been happier to me. I rejoiced over the fact that I was given the chance to live. That was the greatest feeling to me. Life, it could never have been happier.

This incident made me lose my contact with the other Cards, and I hoped that things like things would never happen to you all out there. Really, it is true.

At that time, I was tired with all the chatter the others talked to each other. By then, after the first year, Keroberos and Yue had been together, leaving us the Cards to entertain ourselves with out powers. This day, we were playing a game of musical chairs and the one who lost would have to do something for the others with their magical powers. It was of course, very fun, but after some time, I felt a bit tired, feeling somehow wanting to be alone.

"La la la..." The Song Card sang a song while we were flying around the chairs. Abruptly, she stopped singing, and everyone made a mad scramble towards the nearest chair. Somehow, I could not sit on one of the chairs.

"I guess I have to share the honor of performing for all of you then." I smiled while looking at all the faces that were staring at me. "What do you want me to do?"

"Sing!"

"Dance!"

"Do a split!"

"Create a twin of yourself!"

"Disappear!"

"Fly into that tree without using your magical powers!"

Suggestions were being shouted out. "Er...what shall I do? How about sit down and nothing?" I asked.

"Spoilsport!"

"All right then, what shall I do?"

"Make that tree disappear without using your magical powers!"

"But I cannot do that!" I protested, trying to stop the others from agreeing.

"It's too late! You have to do this!" The others had agreed. It was too late to change their minds now.

I sighed. "Don't blame me if I cannot do that." I warned them.

"You have to do it."

I turned towards that tree. 'Hmm, how can I make that tree disappear without using my magical powers?' I thought.

"Hey hurry up will you?" someone asked me.

"I'll try my best!" I answered back.

'Cutting down that tree and making it disappear will be a great one, but it will take a long time...er...how about just bury the tree in a great mound of soil?'

I decided to use the latter idea. "Er...Earthy, can you create a lot of soil for me?'

"No way! That is cheating!"

"Oh, all right. But don't blame me if I destroy Master's garden." I warned.

"Fine. We'll back up for what you have done."

I grabbed handfuls of soil and began burying that great tree. It took a long time. A really, really long time. Meanwhile, the others were sitting down on their chairs, talking cheerfully. Finally, after around two hours, I had finished burying the tree.

"Done!" I exclaimed.

"Are you sure? I can still see bits of the tree poking out."

"This is not fun! This is not burying a tree! You are out of the group from now on!"

"What did you all say?" I stammered, trying to absorb what the others were saying.

"We said: Get out of our group from now on!"

"What? That can never been possible! We are created together and we should stick together!"

"Too late, out dear sister. You are such a disgusting 'friend' to us. Making our creations disappear when you accidentally touch them. Causing all the beautiful things to disappear. How disgraceful! We do not like you! Now get out of our sight!"

"What? Since when have you all been talking about these behind my back? I thought that we are friends and siblings?"

"It was in the past, but not now."

"Fine! If that is the case, then leave me alone too!"

I was so sad; hearing all the accusations the others had 'informed' me. I could not believe what they had said. How could they do this to me? It was true that I have sometimes been careless with their creations but it was due to the curiosity that had held me enraptured, their creations that they could make with their own powers. Not me. I could not do that. I was not able to do anything like that. I could only, only make things disappear. I was not happy with my gift. Really, I was not. Who would?

I ran to a secluded part of the garden, avoiding the others. I could still hear the laughter of the others even when I had left them; their laughter was loud. I stayed there until it was night. The others had returned to the book to rest, without letting me know. But I knew. I knew that they were going to rest and that they would not look for me. They would probably persuade the Guardians not to look for me. I knew.

If only I knew that they were sad that I would not be there to help them cushion the book for their comfort. I was always the one to rest at the bottom. The others had the opportunity to rest up there, while I was at the bottom. However, they would still sleep on, knowing that I was still out somewhere, with nobody caring whether I was resting. I stared into the sky. It was beautiful in its own way. Even when they are together, the stars seem so distant and cold, as if they are never meant to be together. However, they seem to be comforting me. I do not know why.

Just then, I hear footsteps heading this way. I fly up into the tree, hiding myself among the leafy fronds of the tree. It was Clow, looking at the sky while walking towards this tree. 'Why in the world would he want to come here, this tree especially?' I thought to myself.

"I know you are here, you need not hide yourself."

"All right, what do you want with me?' I flew down from my hiding place.

"Why are you here, hiding at this place?"

"I..."

"I know what has happened." Clow said to me patiently.

"But..."

"It seems like they have found out something that I have written in one my books."

"So?"

"It is very important."

"Even if it is important, it does not mean much to me now. They do not accept me for what I am, what can I do? I do not care about what happens now anyway. I just want to live out my life peacefully, even if I am lonely."

"For the rest of your life?"

I nod my head. "Yes."

"Even if you are going to be disappointed forever?"

"Yes. I can see it in their eyes that they do not accept me anymore, so why should I care?"

"If you want to know more about why this happens to you, I can tell you a story about the world and why this has to happen to some people. Do you want to hear this story?" Clow asked me, as if I were still a child who needed stories so that I could sleep.

"I have nothing to lose. All right then." I answered as I nodded my head.

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End of chapter four! Yeah! I am so happy. And also so sorry that I have not been typing this story! Haiz. Can't blame me, I have a lot of homework coming...anyway, I will try my best to update soon! Ja!