The Day I Found Hope

By dreamergalz

Chapter Six: The Cold Palace

Disclaimer: I do not own CCS, only the story and the plot!

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Resting under the tree, I tried to close my eyes and think back of all that had happened over yesterday and today. It was of course, shocking to hear Master defend me when all the others showed their true colours to him. I wonder why he was acting that way? Unless he had a similar situation before she was created?

"Who knows? Anyway, who would care? It was not as if I would be accepted to the group again after what had happened, unless a miracle really happened. Now that would be really interesting." I thought as I sighed.

"Why are you sighing?" Someone asked me.

"Master, I am sad that these things had happened to me. My heart feels very painful, so painful that I cannot believe that I am able to hold it..."

"Well," Clow said as he sat down beside me.

"Anyway, why are you defending me? It is as if I am the victim that they want to kill. Perhaps I am really meant to be killed..."

"What are you saying? You shouldn't be saying that!" Clow looked at me, shocked.

"Have you ever had this experience of being shut out of the group of people that you had so dearly called friends, only to be asked to do something which they do not want to do? To be a scapegoat, that is what they want you to do! Doing whatever they want just so that they can pay attention to you. But the moment your 'job' is done, they abandon you, saying that you are of no use to them?"

Clow was silent, probably thinking of what I was saying. It was a moment later that he answered me, surprising myself as I was looking at the starry sky.

"Yes...I was in this sort of situation before, and that was a long time ago..."

"Is this the story that you wanted to tell me?"

Clow nodded sadly at me. "Yes, but I would like to keep it short, for I do not wish to bring back all the pain which I had left behind me so long ago," he trailed off, looking at me. He was probably hoping that I would say yes.

"All right then."

"Well you see, at the time when I was born, people were afraid of magic, mixing magic with witchcraft, though both are not the same. Witchcraft is the crude form of magic while magic is of course, pure. I remembered that my mother used to say to me that magic used to be respected by people all around the world, until one day, someone with witchcraft said that no, magic is dirty while witchcraft is pure. Of course, everybody became confused, for who were they to respect? They did not want to offend the people with these powers. So in the end, the emperors and kings around the world said that both are evil and that everyone should not believe them."

"After that, what happened?"

Clow continued, "I had a group of friends who were at first very nice to me. However, it seemed as if after some time, they talked less to me, and sometimes even not looking at me at all! However, I took it that they were just tired and needed rest. It was only after some time later that I had realized that they looked at me with a look of hatred. I was stupid then, for I knew then that they had found out the secret that I had tried to hide from them. However, I ignored the feeling of dread that something bad would eventually happen to me."

"I began doing dirty jobs for them just so that they would talk to me. I had thought that as long as I had done what they had said, they would become friends with me again. It was not as I had thought. One day, I had not completed a 'job' that they wanted me to do. They announced to the whole village that I was one who practiced witchcraft."

"Of course, I had to argue that it was magic. But, they had chased me out of the village that I had lived in my whole life. Life could not have been worse. I was lucky that I had survived and a traveling magician took me in and taught me some magic. After which, I became the famous Clow Reed."

"So this is how it happened..." I was surprised at what he had said, for who could have thought that her Master would have such a past?

"Did they, as in your friends, go back to you after you had become famous for all the good deeds that you had done? Just to become rich and famous like you?"

"Why yes! They did but I did not want to see them. I just asked used magic to pass a message that they were shameless and that they should not find me again, or they would suffer a horrible death. These was all a joke meant to scare them, but luckily, they took it seriously, or else I would have a trouble handling them."

"Thank god." I suddenly heard a yawn. "You better go to sleep, Master. I would like to rest myself."

Clow nodded as he rose and went back to the house. I sat where I was and was almost sleeping when I realized that someone was doing something. I opened my eyes wide...

I looked at the scene before me with horror. For the cards and the guardians were there, right in front of me using their powers to destroy me! I could not move, for the something was binding me there!

I looked around wildly, trying to free myself from the death that would really happen if I was not able to escape. However, it could not be done...

I closed my eyes and awaited for the death that would happen to me very soon...but however, even though the power was building up, they did not attack me! Slowly, I opened my eyes and saw Clow in front of me! He had not gone off to sleep in his room after all!

"WHY ARE YOU ALL DOING THIS TO VOID?" Clow bellowed.

"She is a cursed being, a being that should be destroyed!" The cards and guardians intoned.

"SO SHE SHOULD BE KILLED? WHAT IF YOU KILLED HER, AND THEN THE BALANCE IS DISRUPTED? YOU ALL WOULD SUFFER!"

At this, the others hesitated. Clow looked at me and said softy: "I can release you from this, if I seal you under this house. However, I would still visit you and tell you the things that happened above. Do you want to do this?"

"Yes...and thank you, Master. Thank you for all that you have done, even if it pains you so much to see your creations suffer..." At this, Clow muttered a spell and I was forever sealed under the house, until the time when I was released from my sealed home when the house was destroyed...

Living under the house was of course lonely, but I it was quite all right, leaving all the tortured memories that would cause me more harm if I were still in the midst of the group. After some time, Clow stopped visiting me, causing me what happened to him. I did not want to know that he had died already. Perhaps I was afraid of more pain. Or perhaps not. But it was more lonely than ever when he stopped coming. I kept thinking that the others may have already forgiven me after such a long time.

I was in need of a friend.

That was when I met Sakura, my new mistress.

Wow! One more chapter and it will be done! Sorry but I am now in a rush to finish typing this so that I can watch the semifinal of the Olympics singles table tennis! Li Jia Wei got in to the semifinals! Hope that she can win a medal! Can't believe that I could type a new chapter so fast huh? Ja! Review please!