Buffy got up from her desk and walked to her little fridge she pulled out the small thermos and placed it in the microwave. She set it to 98.7 degrees and waited and it started to beep. She grabbed her shoulder bag and placed it on her shoulder. She walked out into the hall and bumped into Dawn. "Where are you going?" The younger summers asked.

Buffy sighed, "Come with me." Buffy said slipping the thermos into her bag and opening the basement door.

"We're going down there?" Dawn asked an eyebrow rose. "Are you evil?"

Buffy rolled her eyes. "Come on."

Dawn followed Buffy through the basement, then she heard some soft screaming. 'No! Leave me alone! I didn't feed the fish! The papers fell in the water... and I rote with chalk!' Dawn looked at Buffy. "That sounds like- "

Buffy pushed the door open and Dawn saw Spike pacing back and forth mumbling things to himself. "Is it really him?" Dawn asked realizing the changes in his appearance.

"Yah, I think it is... but I don't know what's wrong with him." Buffy said, "I found him like this."

Dawn walked a little closer. "Spike?"

Spike whipped his head and saw them. His attention fell on Dawn. Then he started laughing hysterically. "Spike... who's Spike?"

"He's been saying that." Buffy said.

"William?" Dawn tried.

Spike's blue eyes looked straight into Dawn's. "You... I know you."

Dawn smiled. "I knew you would come back." Dawn whispered. She fought the erg to run up to him and hug him.

Spike looked from Dawn to Buffy. "Go." He told them. "I don't want you down here." Then he turned to the empty wall. "I'm trying to talk to somebody!" He yelled at the emptiness. "All you do is yap away!"

"Spike," Buffy stepped closer.

"William?" Dawn said.

Spike smiled and looked at the two sisters. "William's been a bad, bad boy." He said.

"William,"

"Stop calling me that!" Spike yelled. "I-I don't know who I am."

Buffy and Dawn exchange glances. "Remember when I ate to much chips and chocolate?" Dawn asked drawing his attention to her. "And I had a stomach ache and I was afraid to go to sleep?"

Spike nodded.

"Then you stayed with me all night and just watched me."

Spike nodded again.

"That was you." Dawn smile.

Buffy grabbed the thermos out of her bag and walked up to Spike slowly and carefully. She slid the cap off and grabbed his hand. She put the thermos in his hand and looked at it before throwing it to the opposite side of the wall.

Buffy watched as the thick red liquid poured all over the dirty floor. "Spike, you have to get out of here."

"No, you do," Spike told her in a dangerous tone.

Dawn watched as Buffy closed her eyes and walked up the stairs; Dawn looked back Spike and saw him in a ball in the corner of the room.

"You're my hero." Dawn said before disappearing into the darkness of the stairs.

Spike sat in the darkness listening to the tapping and soft yammering of the floor above his... home. He turned his head and saw Buffy, 'she's back!' he thought happily.

Buffy walked up to him. "You're not a hero." She told him. "You're not even good at what your good at you're worthless." Buffy shook her head in disgust. "You are nothing to me."

"I tried to be, Buffy." Spike begged. "I swear I tried to be." He felt new tears coming to his eyes.

"You really are nothing, nothing to the world, nothing to me, nothing to anything or anyone, that's why I couldn't love you." Buffy said looking him the eyes and crouching down in front of him. "That's why I could never love a thing like you."

-Up In Buffy's Office-

Buffy debated on weather or not she should go back down and talk to him. maybe try to make him understand why she did the things she did.

-basement-

"Your nothing but dirt." Buffy said to Spike with a smile. "Running around with your shinning new soul... like it would make a diffrence to me."

"I thought this was what you wanted." Spike said hopelessly.

"You really thought you a thing had a chance with me? a hero, a champian, I'm better then you, I always have been. I kept you alive because of pitty."

"No! You--had to have cared... you brought me blood... you cared..."

"You were a game, see how much you squeele when I step on you."

"Please stop..." Spike begged burring his head in his hands.

"Please stop?" Buffy asked and began to laugh. "Thats all William the Bloody has up his sleeve?" Buffy said with a smile. "A pittiful squeek?"

"I don't I didn't mean to hurt you... I wanted to help..." Spike said.

"You don't have the power to hurt me." Buffy said with a wide smile. "I'm better then you, you can't touch me. Not now not ever."

End of chap

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