Buffy walked down the stairs and saw Spike there was something there that looked just like her. "You are nothing to me, William, your dirt, just like you always were." IT said to him, Buffy grew angry.

"Spike!" Buffy yelled and the thing disappeared. Spike looked up from his arms and saw her.

"Buffy, please leave me alone... I didn't mean to hurt you."

"No, Spike, No." Buffy said. "That wasn't me, ok? That was some kind of demon." Buffy told him. "Something is playing with us Spike. You need to get out of here."

Spike looked around. "I have no place to go."

"You can come home with me." Buffy said. "This place is making you crazy, look at yourself!"

Spike looked at her green godly eyes. "I deserve this." Spike told her. "I was bad, very, very bad." Spike said. "And now William needs to pay."

"What did you do?" Buffy asked.

"I hurt people." Spike said. "I-I killed p-people."

"That's not who you are anymore, Spike."

"No, William is nice and glowy now, he's all better, do it for you, Buffy... do everything for you."

"What are you talking about?"

"This." He said clutching his chest. "It hurts so much, Buffy. They lied to me, said I could cut it out." Spike sighed heavily.

"Cut what out?"

"The spark, the missing piece, because you wouldn't have me..." Spike looked up at her. "I can't do this, not with you watching." He scrambled to his feet and walked into the shadows. She saw his outline pacing back and forth. "I dreamed of killing you." He said. "Pouring endless buckets of salt on your... ending."

Buffy listened and grabbed her stake. "No more mind games, Spike."

"No more mind games." Spike laughs. "No more mind."

"Tell me what happened to you." Buffy said tenderly.

Spike flinches at the tenderness of her words he didn't deserve it. "Service the girl, no don't, don't have a spark, and don't want to be serviced." He starts.

"Have you completely lost your mind?" Buffy asked.

Spike looks at her and replies lucidly. "Well, yah. Where have you been all night?" "So weak... did you make me weak?" He laughs. "Angel should have warned me... makes a good show of forgetting...but now its here in me... All the time." Spike walks up to her and she still looks confused. "I wanted to give you what you deserved. They put the spark In me and now all it does is burn." Spike said looks into her eyes.

Buffy looks at him through shocked eyes. "Your soul." Buffy said feeling tears burning her eyes.

"It's what I wanted right?" He asked Buffy then looked at the ceiling. "It's what you wanted, right?"

"Spike," Buffy reaches out tries to put her hand on his shoulder.

"NO! They tell me! They tell me to go... go to hell." He said throwing himself away from her.

"Why? Why would you do-"

"Buffy," Spike snaps. "Shame on you. What does a man do that he mustn't? for her. To be hers. To be the kind of man who would never-"He looks away from her. "To be a man."

"And she shall look upon on him with forgiveness and love, and he shall be loved." He looks at her again. "Can we rest now Buffy?... can we rest now?"

Buffy's crying now as she watches Spike sink to his knees.

End of chap...

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