Okay, this is our first Kingdom Hearts fic, so please be gentle. As mentioned before, this is a YAOI fic. if you don;t know what that is, let me specify. Homosexual or a boy/boy fic. if that squicks you or you are a closed-minded homophobe, please leave. Otherwise, enjoy!
Authors: Rayden&Kris
Rating: R for AU, language, Yaoi and a suicide scene
Pairings: Riku/Kairi at first, the Riku/Sora. Possibly others
genre: Angst/Romance
class: Multi-chapter
disclaimer: If I owned KH, Riku would have squeezed through the door and ravished Sora with kisses. Do you see that in the game? No? Than that's a good clue that I don't own KH.
Yes it is AU. The setting is on Destiny Islands and that's where the characters live. The Final Fantasy gang (even the moogles) live somewhere close to Destiny islands. Yes moogles ARE in my story, just not for a while. So yeah, nothing in the game really happens in this fic, so its an AU. Now that i'm done my ramblings, please enjoy the fic.
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o0-SORA POV-0o
They're at it again. No matter how many times I try to be happy for them, I just end up feeling the same. Hurt. Sad. Inferior. Somehow betrayed. He always wins. Not just at fighting or racing, but at everything. You're probably wondering who it is i'm thinking about. Two people actually. They've both been my friends for as long as I can remember. Yeah, it's Kairi and Riku. They started dating about a month ago. I know what your thinking.
"Why would that hurt you? Aren't you happy for your friends?"
I'm happy they found eachother, I really am. There's just two problems though.
1, they haven't really been my friends since they started going out. They ignore me when I try to talk to them. Sparring with Riku just isn't the same anymore. He still beats me, but something is missing. Whenever Kairi is around, he insists on showing off and when he wins he puts me down for being so damn weak! Yeah, some friend he is.
Me and Kairi used to always have this thing where she would come get me at about seven o'clock in the morning and we would just walk around the beach and collect seashells or something. Then We would go get Selphie to join us and Wakka and Tidus, being the late-sleepers they are would come around at around noon and challenge me to a duel. But all that changed. Kairi hardly even speaks to me anymore and when she does, it's to ask if i've seen Riku. I'm just feeling the love here.
2, Kairi has something I want. I know I shouldn't be feeling this way, but I can't help who I fall in love with. Before Kairi came, me and Riku were always together. It was hard to find one without the other. Even when she came, we were still constantly together. It was hard not to feel somewhat attracted to him at one point or another. To bad that one point came too late.
It's true what they say. You never really appreciate something until it's gone. I thought me and Riku would always be friends, that nothing could ever come between us. It was about two months ago when I realised that I was attracted to him. I never acted upon it of course for fear of rejection. Isn't that what always steers you away? Still, I couldn't do anything when those feelings of infatuation became stronger. I daresay it was love. It was bothering me to the point where I just decided to tell him.
I called him over and asked him to take a walk with me. He agreed and he was strangely enthusiastic about it, like he too had something to tell me. That should have tipped me off right away. I got my hopes up that he may like me back. That day still brings a bitter taste to my mouth and my heart breaks all over again.
o0-FLASHBACK-0o
"Riku, I have something to tell you."
"Sora, I have something to tell you." We both say at the same time.
"You first." We say, again in sync.
I blush and gesture for him to go first. He gets a happy glint in his eye and he spill his news.
"Kairi and I have started dating!" He says positively gushing.
Time stood still and I felt my heart shatter into hundreds of thousands of tiny little pieces. He catches my crestfallen expression.
"Hey, are you okay? You don't still like her do you?" He asks with a worried expression.
"N-No. I'm happy for you." I manage to get out though the pain in my shattered heart increases with each word I say. He smiles and says,
"Great! So, what did you want to tell me?"
'If I told you what I wanted to tell you in the first place, you'd only make me feel worse.' I think to myself. Out loud I said,
"Oh, must've slipped my mind. Sorry." I say forcing a sheepish grin. He looks suspicious but waves it off.
"Okay then. I gotta go meet Kairi. See you later." He leaves.
I sink to my knees and do the only thing my instincts tell me to do. I cry.
o0-END FLASHBACK-0o
I guess he didn't know that the "see you later" meant that I wouldn't see him for a week and that he wouldn't speak to me except to look for Kairi or challenge me to a duel. I know I should probably move on, but I just can't. I know it sounds stupid, even to me but I love him. No matter how much pain he puts me through, I love him. I've tried hanging out with Selphie, Tidus and Wakka but it's not the same. I have connections with them, but they aren't as strong as my connection with Riku.
I'm pulled out of my inner turmoil when Selphie walks by cooing about how cute Riku and Kairi look together.
"Aren't they just perfect for eachother? I never knew Riku could be such a sweetheart! ahhh, I wish I had a boyfriend like Riku....."
"Me too..." I whisper to myself.
"Anyways, i'm gonna go find Tidus and Wakka. Wanna come Sora?" Selphie asks, emerald eyes glittering brightly.
"Nah, i'm gonna see if I can pull Riku away from Kairi long enough to have a duel with him." I say forcing a smile on my face.
"Okay! See you later!" Selphie grins and bounds off.
I often find that now. The friends who are supposed to know me well ignore me, and the rest of my friends don't know me well enough to know when i'm putting a mask on or not. I bet Riku would know, but he's too caught up with Kairi. So now, i'm just a third wheel in my best friends' relationship.
Why am I even here if nobody cares who I am anymore? Tidus and Wakka are always hanging out. They only ever came to me if they wanted to duel anyway. Selphie just does her own thing. She can be good company and she's a loyal friend, but she doesn't have a serious bone in her body. It's like pure happiness controls her every move. Of course Riku and Kairi have eachother. There was a time when they used to care about me, but those times are long gone.
These thoughts have just put me in a depressed mood. I just can't help but feel like I failed at everything I've ever tried. I can't beat Riku at anything, I can't get him to like me, I can't even get anyone to talk to me no matter how many times I try! I guess you can just call me Mr. Invisible.
"Riku! That tickles! Stop!" I hear Kairi call.
"Nuh-uh, you didn't give me a goodnight kiss." Riku responds.
"Okay, okay! I give." I watch as they lean in and press their lips together. Things are starting to get heated and I avert my eyes, feeling worse than ever.
"Goodnight Riku." I hear Kairi say as she heads for her house.
"G'night." Riku responds.
I watch as he walks by me, not even turning to say hello or anything. I'm used to it by now. I watch him until he's nothing but a dot entering his house. I pick myself up from the sandy beach and start to head for my house.
When I enter my house, I head straight for my room, not knowing (or caring) that I was the only one in my house at the moment. I'm used to that too. Not five minutes after I enter my room, my phone rings. I'm shocked that someone even bothered to call, let alone who it was.
"Hi Sora!"
"Kairi?"
"Yep!"
"What's up?" I ask, forcing cheer into my voice.
"I just needed an opinion." Of course. It's not like she wants to know how i'm doing or anything.
"Sure. What do you need?"
"Well, I was going to ask Riku to share a paopu fruit with me tomorrow. Would that be too wierd? Should I wait for him to ask me? It's just that it's our 1 month anniversary tomorrow and I wanted to do something special for him. What do you think?"
Oh great. Now the one I love will be bound to Kairi for eternity. What a fucking joy.
"Sounds like a great idea, Kairi. I hope he accepts. I gotta go now, i'm really tired."
"Okay! I'll see you tomorrow! Goodnight." She hangs up.
She wants to share a paopu with Riku tomorrow. For some reason, this thought makes me angry. I had my eyes on Riku before she even came to this island! I love him and now I have to watch by the sidelines as my love shares eternity with someone else! Her last words rang in my head.
"Okay! I'll see you tomorrow!...."
Then I make a descision. No, she won't see me tomorrow. She'll never see me again. I would rather die than live the rest of my life being invisible. There's just one last thing I need to do. Let Riku know how I felt and why he had to read his former friends obituary in the newspaper.
So, I grab a pen and paper and dishonestly write a letter to Riku. Weeks of inner turmoil pour into the pen and onto the paper. When it is finished, I read it over and with a satisfied nod to myself, I put my shoes on and head out the door to Riku's house.
I know he wouldn't bother coming to my house, so I have to leave the note in his. I get there rather quickly. I climb the tree outside his bedroom window. His window is already open so I prop myself on the window sill and see that Riku isn't there, so I drop the letter onto his bed and climb back down. With one last look at Riku's house, I say a silent goodbye to the one I love.
Back at my house, I go back into my room and look around until I find the switchblade that Riku got me for my birthday last year. I wonder if he ever would have thought that I would kill myself with it.
"I tried to tell you Riku. I tried." I say to myself as I pull my gloves off and slash the blade across my wrist.
Crimson fluid spills out rapidly and start to stain the carpet and my clothes. I quickly slash the other wrist and tossed the blade away. I sink down to the floor and slowly wait for darkness to claim me. I lay in a puddle of my own blood and my eyelids start to slide shut.
"There's no one....like you, Riku. I...love you..." Darkness claims me as I feel my last breath slip away.
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Before I get pelted with random objects for killing Sora, know that it is NOT the end of the story! At the beginning, I mentioned that moogles would be appearing in my fic and that Sora and Riku would eventually get together. None of this had happened yet, so the story will continue!
Now that thats outta the way, what didja think? RR please. Flames will be used to roast marshmellos with my girlfriend and laughed at. Yes i am sick, yes i am stupid otherwise i would have passed grade 9 history, but informing me of this will not make me stop writing. Constructive critism is always appreciated, i know my spelling sucks.
Nice reviewers=happy authors. Happy authors=good things happening in story.
Until next time, Rayden&Kris
Authors: Rayden&Kris
Rating: R for AU, language, Yaoi and a suicide scene
Pairings: Riku/Kairi at first, the Riku/Sora. Possibly others
genre: Angst/Romance
class: Multi-chapter
disclaimer: If I owned KH, Riku would have squeezed through the door and ravished Sora with kisses. Do you see that in the game? No? Than that's a good clue that I don't own KH.
Yes it is AU. The setting is on Destiny Islands and that's where the characters live. The Final Fantasy gang (even the moogles) live somewhere close to Destiny islands. Yes moogles ARE in my story, just not for a while. So yeah, nothing in the game really happens in this fic, so its an AU. Now that i'm done my ramblings, please enjoy the fic.
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o0-SORA POV-0o
They're at it again. No matter how many times I try to be happy for them, I just end up feeling the same. Hurt. Sad. Inferior. Somehow betrayed. He always wins. Not just at fighting or racing, but at everything. You're probably wondering who it is i'm thinking about. Two people actually. They've both been my friends for as long as I can remember. Yeah, it's Kairi and Riku. They started dating about a month ago. I know what your thinking.
"Why would that hurt you? Aren't you happy for your friends?"
I'm happy they found eachother, I really am. There's just two problems though.
1, they haven't really been my friends since they started going out. They ignore me when I try to talk to them. Sparring with Riku just isn't the same anymore. He still beats me, but something is missing. Whenever Kairi is around, he insists on showing off and when he wins he puts me down for being so damn weak! Yeah, some friend he is.
Me and Kairi used to always have this thing where she would come get me at about seven o'clock in the morning and we would just walk around the beach and collect seashells or something. Then We would go get Selphie to join us and Wakka and Tidus, being the late-sleepers they are would come around at around noon and challenge me to a duel. But all that changed. Kairi hardly even speaks to me anymore and when she does, it's to ask if i've seen Riku. I'm just feeling the love here.
2, Kairi has something I want. I know I shouldn't be feeling this way, but I can't help who I fall in love with. Before Kairi came, me and Riku were always together. It was hard to find one without the other. Even when she came, we were still constantly together. It was hard not to feel somewhat attracted to him at one point or another. To bad that one point came too late.
It's true what they say. You never really appreciate something until it's gone. I thought me and Riku would always be friends, that nothing could ever come between us. It was about two months ago when I realised that I was attracted to him. I never acted upon it of course for fear of rejection. Isn't that what always steers you away? Still, I couldn't do anything when those feelings of infatuation became stronger. I daresay it was love. It was bothering me to the point where I just decided to tell him.
I called him over and asked him to take a walk with me. He agreed and he was strangely enthusiastic about it, like he too had something to tell me. That should have tipped me off right away. I got my hopes up that he may like me back. That day still brings a bitter taste to my mouth and my heart breaks all over again.
o0-FLASHBACK-0o
"Riku, I have something to tell you."
"Sora, I have something to tell you." We both say at the same time.
"You first." We say, again in sync.
I blush and gesture for him to go first. He gets a happy glint in his eye and he spill his news.
"Kairi and I have started dating!" He says positively gushing.
Time stood still and I felt my heart shatter into hundreds of thousands of tiny little pieces. He catches my crestfallen expression.
"Hey, are you okay? You don't still like her do you?" He asks with a worried expression.
"N-No. I'm happy for you." I manage to get out though the pain in my shattered heart increases with each word I say. He smiles and says,
"Great! So, what did you want to tell me?"
'If I told you what I wanted to tell you in the first place, you'd only make me feel worse.' I think to myself. Out loud I said,
"Oh, must've slipped my mind. Sorry." I say forcing a sheepish grin. He looks suspicious but waves it off.
"Okay then. I gotta go meet Kairi. See you later." He leaves.
I sink to my knees and do the only thing my instincts tell me to do. I cry.
o0-END FLASHBACK-0o
I guess he didn't know that the "see you later" meant that I wouldn't see him for a week and that he wouldn't speak to me except to look for Kairi or challenge me to a duel. I know I should probably move on, but I just can't. I know it sounds stupid, even to me but I love him. No matter how much pain he puts me through, I love him. I've tried hanging out with Selphie, Tidus and Wakka but it's not the same. I have connections with them, but they aren't as strong as my connection with Riku.
I'm pulled out of my inner turmoil when Selphie walks by cooing about how cute Riku and Kairi look together.
"Aren't they just perfect for eachother? I never knew Riku could be such a sweetheart! ahhh, I wish I had a boyfriend like Riku....."
"Me too..." I whisper to myself.
"Anyways, i'm gonna go find Tidus and Wakka. Wanna come Sora?" Selphie asks, emerald eyes glittering brightly.
"Nah, i'm gonna see if I can pull Riku away from Kairi long enough to have a duel with him." I say forcing a smile on my face.
"Okay! See you later!" Selphie grins and bounds off.
I often find that now. The friends who are supposed to know me well ignore me, and the rest of my friends don't know me well enough to know when i'm putting a mask on or not. I bet Riku would know, but he's too caught up with Kairi. So now, i'm just a third wheel in my best friends' relationship.
Why am I even here if nobody cares who I am anymore? Tidus and Wakka are always hanging out. They only ever came to me if they wanted to duel anyway. Selphie just does her own thing. She can be good company and she's a loyal friend, but she doesn't have a serious bone in her body. It's like pure happiness controls her every move. Of course Riku and Kairi have eachother. There was a time when they used to care about me, but those times are long gone.
These thoughts have just put me in a depressed mood. I just can't help but feel like I failed at everything I've ever tried. I can't beat Riku at anything, I can't get him to like me, I can't even get anyone to talk to me no matter how many times I try! I guess you can just call me Mr. Invisible.
"Riku! That tickles! Stop!" I hear Kairi call.
"Nuh-uh, you didn't give me a goodnight kiss." Riku responds.
"Okay, okay! I give." I watch as they lean in and press their lips together. Things are starting to get heated and I avert my eyes, feeling worse than ever.
"Goodnight Riku." I hear Kairi say as she heads for her house.
"G'night." Riku responds.
I watch as he walks by me, not even turning to say hello or anything. I'm used to it by now. I watch him until he's nothing but a dot entering his house. I pick myself up from the sandy beach and start to head for my house.
When I enter my house, I head straight for my room, not knowing (or caring) that I was the only one in my house at the moment. I'm used to that too. Not five minutes after I enter my room, my phone rings. I'm shocked that someone even bothered to call, let alone who it was.
"Hi Sora!"
"Kairi?"
"Yep!"
"What's up?" I ask, forcing cheer into my voice.
"I just needed an opinion." Of course. It's not like she wants to know how i'm doing or anything.
"Sure. What do you need?"
"Well, I was going to ask Riku to share a paopu fruit with me tomorrow. Would that be too wierd? Should I wait for him to ask me? It's just that it's our 1 month anniversary tomorrow and I wanted to do something special for him. What do you think?"
Oh great. Now the one I love will be bound to Kairi for eternity. What a fucking joy.
"Sounds like a great idea, Kairi. I hope he accepts. I gotta go now, i'm really tired."
"Okay! I'll see you tomorrow! Goodnight." She hangs up.
She wants to share a paopu with Riku tomorrow. For some reason, this thought makes me angry. I had my eyes on Riku before she even came to this island! I love him and now I have to watch by the sidelines as my love shares eternity with someone else! Her last words rang in my head.
"Okay! I'll see you tomorrow!...."
Then I make a descision. No, she won't see me tomorrow. She'll never see me again. I would rather die than live the rest of my life being invisible. There's just one last thing I need to do. Let Riku know how I felt and why he had to read his former friends obituary in the newspaper.
So, I grab a pen and paper and dishonestly write a letter to Riku. Weeks of inner turmoil pour into the pen and onto the paper. When it is finished, I read it over and with a satisfied nod to myself, I put my shoes on and head out the door to Riku's house.
I know he wouldn't bother coming to my house, so I have to leave the note in his. I get there rather quickly. I climb the tree outside his bedroom window. His window is already open so I prop myself on the window sill and see that Riku isn't there, so I drop the letter onto his bed and climb back down. With one last look at Riku's house, I say a silent goodbye to the one I love.
Back at my house, I go back into my room and look around until I find the switchblade that Riku got me for my birthday last year. I wonder if he ever would have thought that I would kill myself with it.
"I tried to tell you Riku. I tried." I say to myself as I pull my gloves off and slash the blade across my wrist.
Crimson fluid spills out rapidly and start to stain the carpet and my clothes. I quickly slash the other wrist and tossed the blade away. I sink down to the floor and slowly wait for darkness to claim me. I lay in a puddle of my own blood and my eyelids start to slide shut.
"There's no one....like you, Riku. I...love you..." Darkness claims me as I feel my last breath slip away.
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Before I get pelted with random objects for killing Sora, know that it is NOT the end of the story! At the beginning, I mentioned that moogles would be appearing in my fic and that Sora and Riku would eventually get together. None of this had happened yet, so the story will continue!
Now that thats outta the way, what didja think? RR please. Flames will be used to roast marshmellos with my girlfriend and laughed at. Yes i am sick, yes i am stupid otherwise i would have passed grade 9 history, but informing me of this will not make me stop writing. Constructive critism is always appreciated, i know my spelling sucks.
Nice reviewers=happy authors. Happy authors=good things happening in story.
Until next time, Rayden&Kris