Thank-you for the kind review/advice! It really did brighten up my day knowing that some people like my story.
musegurl18: Thank-you for the advice! I appreciate it very much and I tried to put that in effect for ch.2.
QuickSilver5: What I was getting at was that Sora wanted to tell Riku himself so in a way, he's being dishonest to himself by writting a note and not saying things himself. You'll find out what he wrote in this chapter, and the rest are my little secret . Thank-you for the review!
I forgot to mention ages last chapter, so, Sora is 16 and Riku is 17.
Refer to last chapter for warnings.
Disclaimer: If I owned KH, Riku and Sora would be making out 24/7 during the game. Seeing as they don't even hold hands in the game, it's a safe bet that I don't own it.
Ramblings are done, onto the story.
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oO-RIKU POV-Oo
(As Sora is leaving)
Man there's nothing good on T.V. I need something to do. A good spar would usually entertain me when I'm bored, but I don't think Sora or anyone for that matter would be up and wanting to spar at eleven-thirty at night.
Speaking of Sora, he's really been out of it lately. I wonder what's wrong....
"I suppose this is better than nothing to watch." I muse to myself as I turn on "Who wants to be a millionaire".
Half an hour later, I'm still bored out of my mind. So I decide to give Kairi a call. I walk to the kitchen, pick up the phone and dial Kairi's number. She picks it up on the first ring.(1)
"Hello?"
"Guess who."
"Hi Riku!"
"And what would the lovely lady like for a prize?"
"How about a night with my boyfriend at my place?" She asked "innocently".
"Uh, how about some other time?"
"Why not?" She whined.
"Because, I'm really tired for travel tonight. Maybe tomorrow night?" Truthfully, I can't stand how pink her room is. And how can a girl have so much perfume? Why do girls even where perfume?
"Okay! I have to go now sweetie. I'll see you tomorrow!" She hangs up.
Out of sheer boredom, I decide to go to sleep. I head into my room, change into my pyjamas and lay on my bed. For some reason, I'm feeling too restless to go to sleep.
I don't know why, but I feel really guilty. Could it be because I refused Kairi's offer? No, that's not it. I've used the same excuse lots of times without feeling guilty.......What the hell?
I turned over on my side and noticed the corner of something thin jabs me in the ribs. I look down and find an envolope with my name neatly scrawled on the back. I raise an eyebrow in curiosity. Who would write a letter for me and leave it on my bed? It's not Kairi's writting. I stab my finger into a corner and run it to the other corner and pull out a folded piece of paper. Opening it, I read...
Dear Riku,
I don't know how else I could've told you this. I wanted to tell you in person but it's not like you'll willingly talk to me anymore. Not since you started dating Kairi. Remember when we were kids? You said nothing would ever come between us. I guess that says you're a pretty crappy fortune-teller. I didn't want the fact that you were dating Kairi to come between us, I still wanted to be your friend. But I guess that was just too much to ask for. Everytime you ignored me was more than just a slap to the face for me. I hope you're really happy with Kairi. I have something to say. I'm not just going to stand on the sidelines being invisible to the whole fucking island while Kairi gets to share an eternity with you! You're probably wondering why I say this. I was going to tell you the day you said you and Kairi were going out. I love you, Riku. You can sit there and think its sick all you want, I won't be around long enough for you to beat the shit out of me. You broke my heart that day. Every time I remember it, I feel like I just got stabbed by a thousand poisoned-tipped knives right in my heart. When you drop a vase made of china and it shatters, you can have the pride in knowing that my heart broke that easilly and you can sit on your ass and laugh at my pain. You broke me even more when you started ignoring me. Why did you? I guess that's how you get your kicks. But no matter how much pain you put me through, I still loved you. I was fragile and already broken and you kicked me when I was down, but I still loved you. You made it impossible to find the pieces to my shattered heart, but I love you anyways. I know that what I say is probably confusing you. I tried to express how I felt by speaking to you, but that didn't work. I've made my mistakes and let you down in the past. You may never forgive me for what I'm about to do, but you have to understand that I couldn't hold on for much longer. On the other hand, you may have thrown this letter out and not have a care in the world about what happens to me. I felt that you had to know before I walked out. I should have told you face to face, but this is the only way I could actually get you to listen to me! I felt like I was screaming at the top of my lungs just to get through to you, and you brush it off as silence! Well, now you will no longer have to put up with the third wheel in your relationship. You will always be my only one, no matter what you do to me. I love you.
Sora
My mind is completely numb at the moment. I never knew he felt this way! If only I had known how badly I've hurt him! But when Kairi said it would only be us from now on...
I read the letter again. He loved me? I'm not sure what I should be feeling. I've always been close to him as a friend...
I read it again before the matter of the letter sinks in.
'You may never forgive me for what I'm about to do, but you have to understand that I couldn't hold on for much longer.'
'Well, now you will no longer have to put up with the third wheel in your relationship.'
"Oh fuck, he didn't!"
My whole body freezes up, as if someone dumped me in a bathtub of ice water in antarctica. My very heart is cold. I can't believe this! I draw in some breath after going a whole minute without. I feel water welling up in my eyes, but immediately banish it. I can't jump to conclusions. Maybe he wasn't talking about suicide. Maybe he was planning on running away....
With that in mind, I spring from my bed, grab my shoes and a jacket and run as fast as I can to Sora's house.
'I haven't been here in a while' I muse to myself as I walK up the driveway and notice that Sora's parents are home. I head around to the backyard and find the tree just by Sora's bedroom window.
Quickly and quietly, I climb the tree and pull myself to his window which is thankfully open. I pull myself in and land on the bit of floor that is between the window and his bed. The first thing I notice is that Sora is not in his bed. The second is the overwhelming stench that suddenly fills my nose. A stench that smells horribly like...
"blood."
My fears are immediately redeemed and I feel that horrible numb feeling creeping over me again. I urge myself to climb over his bed only to step in a puddle of blood. I look down and see Sora lying amongst the blood with his wrists slashed and his eyes closed peacefully. A switchblade lay a foot away from his body.
"NO!"
I kneel down next to him and put my hand to his cheek, which is ice-cold. Water once again wells up in my eyes.
"He's sleeping. He's just sleeping. Those cuts aren't real. At any moment, he's going to wake up and chew my ear off for ignoring him and then he's going to apologize for such a sick practical joke." I had tears running freely down my face and made no attempt to clear them.
I gently grabbed his body and cradeled it next to my own and slowly rocked back and forth. My body was still numb. I just couldn't accept it. My friend was NOT dead. He was sleeping.
"Wake up, Sora. This is NOT funny dammit! I'm sorry I ignored you, I'm sorry I broke my promise, I'm sorry for everything! Please i'll make it up to you. Just open your eyes and say this was just some sick joke! Please! You are NOT dead, so OPEN YOUR EYES!!!" I stopped rocking and buried my face in the crook of his neck and broke into uncontrolable sobs.
Finally, I set him down and placed my hand over his chest. There was no heartbeat. He wasn't breathing. My best friend was dead.
"NOOO! SORA!" I shouted in an outburst.
Next I hear foosteps thundering down the hall. Sora's door is thrown open and his parents step through. His mother looks at her son with wide eyes and then to me.
"What happened?" She asked in a choked voice.
"I-I...I just got here and he was..."
"Oh no...My baby. My sweet little baby!" Sora's mother bursts into tears and his father tries his best to comfort her while tears run down his own face. I need to get out of here.
I run past Sora's parents, down the stairs and out the door. I run into my house slamming the door, not caring that I woke my parents up. I walk into my room, sliding down the door after closing it.
I just couldn't get the image out of my head. Sora in a pool of his own blood, Sora not breathing, Sora dead. Looking at the mental image with my eyes closed, I notice that he killed himself with a switchblade. The one I gave him for his birthday. This send a fresh wave of tears down my cheeks. I rocked myself back and forth with a great feeling of emptiness.
"You could have forced me to listen. I wish you would have told me how you felt. Please find peace, wherever you are."
I get up after taking a deep, calming breath and walk to my bed. After some time, I lull myself into an uneasy sleep, dreaming of Sora's cold, dead body in his room.
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End ch.2
(1) Sora would already be dying at this point.
Last chapter was Sora-angst, this chapter was Riku-angst. No moogles yet, so the story is not yet over. Whoever guesses the song I was listening to when I wrote this chapter gets a lollypop. If you pay close enough attention, you can see I sort of wove some of the lyrics into the chapter.(Don't own the song by the way.)
R&R please. Again flames will be used to roast marshmellows with my girlfriend and laughed at. Constructive critism is always appreciated, my speeling is worse than a two year old's.
Remember, nice reviewers=happy authors.
Until next time, Rayden&Kris
musegurl18: Thank-you for the advice! I appreciate it very much and I tried to put that in effect for ch.2.
QuickSilver5: What I was getting at was that Sora wanted to tell Riku himself so in a way, he's being dishonest to himself by writting a note and not saying things himself. You'll find out what he wrote in this chapter, and the rest are my little secret . Thank-you for the review!
I forgot to mention ages last chapter, so, Sora is 16 and Riku is 17.
Refer to last chapter for warnings.
Disclaimer: If I owned KH, Riku and Sora would be making out 24/7 during the game. Seeing as they don't even hold hands in the game, it's a safe bet that I don't own it.
Ramblings are done, onto the story.
OoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
oO-RIKU POV-Oo
(As Sora is leaving)
Man there's nothing good on T.V. I need something to do. A good spar would usually entertain me when I'm bored, but I don't think Sora or anyone for that matter would be up and wanting to spar at eleven-thirty at night.
Speaking of Sora, he's really been out of it lately. I wonder what's wrong....
"I suppose this is better than nothing to watch." I muse to myself as I turn on "Who wants to be a millionaire".
Half an hour later, I'm still bored out of my mind. So I decide to give Kairi a call. I walk to the kitchen, pick up the phone and dial Kairi's number. She picks it up on the first ring.(1)
"Hello?"
"Guess who."
"Hi Riku!"
"And what would the lovely lady like for a prize?"
"How about a night with my boyfriend at my place?" She asked "innocently".
"Uh, how about some other time?"
"Why not?" She whined.
"Because, I'm really tired for travel tonight. Maybe tomorrow night?" Truthfully, I can't stand how pink her room is. And how can a girl have so much perfume? Why do girls even where perfume?
"Okay! I have to go now sweetie. I'll see you tomorrow!" She hangs up.
Out of sheer boredom, I decide to go to sleep. I head into my room, change into my pyjamas and lay on my bed. For some reason, I'm feeling too restless to go to sleep.
I don't know why, but I feel really guilty. Could it be because I refused Kairi's offer? No, that's not it. I've used the same excuse lots of times without feeling guilty.......What the hell?
I turned over on my side and noticed the corner of something thin jabs me in the ribs. I look down and find an envolope with my name neatly scrawled on the back. I raise an eyebrow in curiosity. Who would write a letter for me and leave it on my bed? It's not Kairi's writting. I stab my finger into a corner and run it to the other corner and pull out a folded piece of paper. Opening it, I read...
Dear Riku,
I don't know how else I could've told you this. I wanted to tell you in person but it's not like you'll willingly talk to me anymore. Not since you started dating Kairi. Remember when we were kids? You said nothing would ever come between us. I guess that says you're a pretty crappy fortune-teller. I didn't want the fact that you were dating Kairi to come between us, I still wanted to be your friend. But I guess that was just too much to ask for. Everytime you ignored me was more than just a slap to the face for me. I hope you're really happy with Kairi. I have something to say. I'm not just going to stand on the sidelines being invisible to the whole fucking island while Kairi gets to share an eternity with you! You're probably wondering why I say this. I was going to tell you the day you said you and Kairi were going out. I love you, Riku. You can sit there and think its sick all you want, I won't be around long enough for you to beat the shit out of me. You broke my heart that day. Every time I remember it, I feel like I just got stabbed by a thousand poisoned-tipped knives right in my heart. When you drop a vase made of china and it shatters, you can have the pride in knowing that my heart broke that easilly and you can sit on your ass and laugh at my pain. You broke me even more when you started ignoring me. Why did you? I guess that's how you get your kicks. But no matter how much pain you put me through, I still loved you. I was fragile and already broken and you kicked me when I was down, but I still loved you. You made it impossible to find the pieces to my shattered heart, but I love you anyways. I know that what I say is probably confusing you. I tried to express how I felt by speaking to you, but that didn't work. I've made my mistakes and let you down in the past. You may never forgive me for what I'm about to do, but you have to understand that I couldn't hold on for much longer. On the other hand, you may have thrown this letter out and not have a care in the world about what happens to me. I felt that you had to know before I walked out. I should have told you face to face, but this is the only way I could actually get you to listen to me! I felt like I was screaming at the top of my lungs just to get through to you, and you brush it off as silence! Well, now you will no longer have to put up with the third wheel in your relationship. You will always be my only one, no matter what you do to me. I love you.
Sora
My mind is completely numb at the moment. I never knew he felt this way! If only I had known how badly I've hurt him! But when Kairi said it would only be us from now on...
I read the letter again. He loved me? I'm not sure what I should be feeling. I've always been close to him as a friend...
I read it again before the matter of the letter sinks in.
'You may never forgive me for what I'm about to do, but you have to understand that I couldn't hold on for much longer.'
'Well, now you will no longer have to put up with the third wheel in your relationship.'
"Oh fuck, he didn't!"
My whole body freezes up, as if someone dumped me in a bathtub of ice water in antarctica. My very heart is cold. I can't believe this! I draw in some breath after going a whole minute without. I feel water welling up in my eyes, but immediately banish it. I can't jump to conclusions. Maybe he wasn't talking about suicide. Maybe he was planning on running away....
With that in mind, I spring from my bed, grab my shoes and a jacket and run as fast as I can to Sora's house.
'I haven't been here in a while' I muse to myself as I walK up the driveway and notice that Sora's parents are home. I head around to the backyard and find the tree just by Sora's bedroom window.
Quickly and quietly, I climb the tree and pull myself to his window which is thankfully open. I pull myself in and land on the bit of floor that is between the window and his bed. The first thing I notice is that Sora is not in his bed. The second is the overwhelming stench that suddenly fills my nose. A stench that smells horribly like...
"blood."
My fears are immediately redeemed and I feel that horrible numb feeling creeping over me again. I urge myself to climb over his bed only to step in a puddle of blood. I look down and see Sora lying amongst the blood with his wrists slashed and his eyes closed peacefully. A switchblade lay a foot away from his body.
"NO!"
I kneel down next to him and put my hand to his cheek, which is ice-cold. Water once again wells up in my eyes.
"He's sleeping. He's just sleeping. Those cuts aren't real. At any moment, he's going to wake up and chew my ear off for ignoring him and then he's going to apologize for such a sick practical joke." I had tears running freely down my face and made no attempt to clear them.
I gently grabbed his body and cradeled it next to my own and slowly rocked back and forth. My body was still numb. I just couldn't accept it. My friend was NOT dead. He was sleeping.
"Wake up, Sora. This is NOT funny dammit! I'm sorry I ignored you, I'm sorry I broke my promise, I'm sorry for everything! Please i'll make it up to you. Just open your eyes and say this was just some sick joke! Please! You are NOT dead, so OPEN YOUR EYES!!!" I stopped rocking and buried my face in the crook of his neck and broke into uncontrolable sobs.
Finally, I set him down and placed my hand over his chest. There was no heartbeat. He wasn't breathing. My best friend was dead.
"NOOO! SORA!" I shouted in an outburst.
Next I hear foosteps thundering down the hall. Sora's door is thrown open and his parents step through. His mother looks at her son with wide eyes and then to me.
"What happened?" She asked in a choked voice.
"I-I...I just got here and he was..."
"Oh no...My baby. My sweet little baby!" Sora's mother bursts into tears and his father tries his best to comfort her while tears run down his own face. I need to get out of here.
I run past Sora's parents, down the stairs and out the door. I run into my house slamming the door, not caring that I woke my parents up. I walk into my room, sliding down the door after closing it.
I just couldn't get the image out of my head. Sora in a pool of his own blood, Sora not breathing, Sora dead. Looking at the mental image with my eyes closed, I notice that he killed himself with a switchblade. The one I gave him for his birthday. This send a fresh wave of tears down my cheeks. I rocked myself back and forth with a great feeling of emptiness.
"You could have forced me to listen. I wish you would have told me how you felt. Please find peace, wherever you are."
I get up after taking a deep, calming breath and walk to my bed. After some time, I lull myself into an uneasy sleep, dreaming of Sora's cold, dead body in his room.
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End ch.2
(1) Sora would already be dying at this point.
Last chapter was Sora-angst, this chapter was Riku-angst. No moogles yet, so the story is not yet over. Whoever guesses the song I was listening to when I wrote this chapter gets a lollypop. If you pay close enough attention, you can see I sort of wove some of the lyrics into the chapter.(Don't own the song by the way.)
R&R please. Again flames will be used to roast marshmellows with my girlfriend and laughed at. Constructive critism is always appreciated, my speeling is worse than a two year old's.
Remember, nice reviewers=happy authors.
Until next time, Rayden&Kris