Entry 11
What could have happened to Sonic?
He came back from running the other day. I waited a few hours—because I was scared, I guess. I didn't know what he'd be like. So I went to him afterwards.
He seemed so… disappointed in me!
I can't really explain it. The first words out of his mouth were, "Oh, it's only you." From there… well, I don't really remember. All I know was that he seemed dissatisfied about everything, like a cat who eats grass to keep from starving. I've never seen him so unhappy.
What's making him like this? I can't stand it! I mean, even if he's unhappy, does he have to be mean to me? He's taking his frustration out on me, and I don't like it.
I want to be there for him. I want to help him. But I don't even want to be near him when he's unhappy like that! I don't want to see Sonic unhappy, but I don't know what to do. All I can do is stay away; I'm too scared to do anything else. No, not like that, I'm not scared he'll hurt me or anything. Well, sort of; I'm afraid of hurting him worse, or getting depressed off of him. I mean, I look to Sonic because he's so confident and brave and cool and alive. To see him not like that would mean I've been wrong about him. Since I've spent so much time going after him, looking up to him, I don't want to be wrong!
This is making me crazy! Why does Sonic act like this after running? Doesn't running make him happy? Oh, I wish I were smarter and could figure this out!
I think (hope!) he still likes me, but when it's like this it's hard to tell.