Entry 12
Whee! He's back to normal! And not just back to normal, but out for a date!
I'll be the first one to say it's been rocky, Sonic and me. Duh! I'm not that stupid. Just the same, I'll take what I can get, especially where Sonic is concerned.
I… I so want this to work. I wish I could tell you how I feel, diary, but it's too complicated. I feel earnest, I feel nervous, I want to make it work, I don't want to push it, I…
Let's just say it means a lot to me.
It's not just that I love Sonic. I want to do something with my love. Let's be honest: loving Sonic has made my life very complicated! And all he's done for six years is run away from me. Now that he's finally paying attention to me, I want to squeeze all the love from him that I can! I want it to fill me up for all the love I've poured forth. And sure, there's the whole thing about "the more I give, the more I have to give". But whenever I think about what it'd be like to finally hear "I love you" from Sonic's mouth… I just fall apart.
It sounds obsessive, I know. But it's not too much to ask, is it? I deserve some love, too. I know I'm stupid and silly and annoying, but even I should be loved.
That's all I really want. I know he's this big hero and everything. But no one cares about him more than me.
Which is why I want this to work.
Awww… And I can't even say "I'll make it work" because I don't want to force things!
Never mind. I love Sonic. When I love him enough, he'll love me back. If that happens, we'll both be happy. That's the point, after all.
Wish me luck!