Disclaimer: I do not own any of the X-Men movie characters.
Title: Unforgivable Sinners
By: Cmdr. Gabe E.
Note: This fanfiction occurs entirely in the X-Men movie-verse . Characters' unspoken thoughts are enclosed in .
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TOPWITCH !!! Hope you had a great day !!!!
As for everyone who's wondering what happened between the three of them, don't worry...all will be revealed...in the end ! (and this chapter will reveal a little bit more about it too !)
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CHAPTER 33: More than just a vision
Yuriko stared back into Logan's eyes. "How about you, Logan? Isn't there a part of you that longs to remember the past you had left behind? Don't you have a voice inside your head asking about the life you had before you became Wolverine? What about the people you've met? What about the experiences you had? The places that you've been to and the things you have seen? Are you just going to let them fade away like a childhood dream? Haven't you ever thought of that?"
He clenched his teeth and looked up at the sky. What she had just said created a stir in his emotions. Why would he even want to remember his past? It was now gone. No one can bring it back. It would make no difference in his life. What's done is done.
But deep inside he knew why he really didn't want to discover his past. Because he feared it. He didn't want to know the man he once was. He feared to see the man whom Stryker had referred to as an animal. He feared the past because he feared himself.
"Sometimes..." Yuriko said... "I see images of the past in my mind." She reached out and gently ran her fingers on the surface of the water. She watched the water ripple as the tips of her fingers brushed against it.
"And whenever I see them, they feel so real. My visions happen so fast, and yet I can still remember them right down to the last detail. At first I thought they were just figments of my imagination, but the more I think about them, the more I realize that they really did happen." She looked at Logan and stared into his eyes. "I know they did happen, Logan. I know that in the past, you and me, we..."
Yuriko's eyes suddenly opened wide as she realized what she was about to say. She didn't want to tell him about her visions yet. Not yet. Not now. She didn't want to tell him that he was once a part of her life and that they might have been lovers before.
It still wasn't the right time. If she told him now, it would just make things more complicated. It might make him drift away from her. She knew how Logan felt about his past, and she didn't want to force her past upon him. The right time would come for such things. Perhaps someday, the past would reveal itself.
Logan's eyebrows furrowed. "You and me...what?" He asked curiously.
She quickly looked away from Logan and focused her eyes on the clear waters of the swimming pool. "Nothing." She said nervously.
From the corner of her eye, she could see Logan still looking at her, as if he was still waiting for a valid answer. Did he know that she was keeping something from him?
"Well, what I was actually about to say was that...you and me probably went through the same weapon x project." She said as she stared into his eyes. She didn't want to look like she was hiding something from him. "That's probably why our abilities are so identical." She didn't want to lie to him, but she couldn't tell him the truth either.
"Oh." Logan said with a hint of disappointment in his voice. He didn't know why, but he somehow expected her to say something else...something else about him and her.
"So...what did you see in your visions?" He asked curiously. He couldn't understand why her past intrigued him so much. "I had my own visions too," He added. "But they only went as far as the weapon x project itself. I have seen nothing of my past before I became Wolverine. Your visions on the other hand, seem to go further, even before you underwent the weapon x project."
She looked at him and nodded her head. "Yes. You're right." She said softly. "In my visions, I saw who I was before I became Lady Deathstrike. That's probably why I want my past back. I want to know about the girl who used to be me. Whether I like it or not, I was that girl, Logan. Whether I like it or not, she's still inside me, bearing the memories of the past I had long forgotten."
"You seem to like your visions." He said as he looked at her. "I can see it in your eyes. You look so happy whenever you talk about your past. Now I know why you want to remember it all. You want your old life back....but Yuriko, you can't ---"
"I know, Logan. I can't bring the past back." Yuriko sighed and looked up at the stars. "My visions are like dead stars. They continue to shine in my mind, but they're already long gone...already dead."
Then she looked at him. "But maybe...just maybe, there are some things in the past that we can still bring back if we want to. It may not be the same, but it's still possible."
Logan looked away from her. He didn't want any of his past back. "You must have lived a happy life then." He said firmly "Unlike me. From what Stryker said, I was a monster, an animal. I didn't want to believe him, but I couldn't deny the truth in his voice. I felt it in my gut. I was probably just like him."
Yuriko reached out and gently moved his face so that he was looking at her. She wanted to see his eyes again. She wanted to stare into them. Logan was wrong for saying that he was once an animal. Because in her vision, he was so human, so loving. She saw him with her own two eyes. And Stryker...Stryker was different too. If only she could tell him about what she saw.
"Not all of my visions were sweet. I've also had visions that made me want to run away and hide. Those visions felt like living nightmares that I couldn't escape from. And until now they still linger in my mind...reminding me of the shadows of my past." She said with fear in her voice.
Then she looked up at the stars again and smiled. "Though there was this once vision...that I wanted to last forever."
"What's that?" Logan asked curiously. She could see the happiness in her eyes.
Yuriko closed her eyes and the smile on her lips grew wider. Perhaps she could tell him about that one vision, but not tell him everything about it. She just wanted to reminisce in its memory again.
She kept her eyes closed as she talked. "In that vision, I was in a room..." She could see it in her mind again, the room, the three of them, and everything in it. She could see it playing in her mind like a silent movie. "And I was with my two best friends." She said with a smile. She couldn't believe what she was saying. The vision didn't say that Logan and Stryker were her good friends. And yet, she felt that they were. "We all looked so happy." She continued.
"The three of us, we were all dressed in format outfits." She said with her eyes still closed. The vision continued played at the back of her mind as she remembered it. Like before, she couldn't hear anything. While their mouths moved, no words were spoken and no sounds were made. "It was ten o'clock in the morning and the sun's rays were shining through the windows. Everything was so bright and so warm." How did she even know the time? The room in her vision didn't have a clock anywhere. "They both looked so handsome." She whispered happily. She could see Logan and Stryker's face as they laughed. She couldn't believe that young man in front of her was Stryker.
"One of them was going to get married that day." She gave out a small laugh. "And I was fixing his tie, because he didn't know how to." Her eyes remained closed. How did she know that Stryker was the one who was going to get married? The vision didn't specifically show that, but she knew. How could she have known that?
"Everything looked so perfect. Then I looked to my side and saw the love of my life. He was sitting on a table, looking at the groom and me. I could see jealousy in his eyes." She laughed as she remembered the look on Logan's face.
"Then he got off the table...then...then..." She gave out another small laugh. "He went up to the groom and then smacked him on the back of the head. We all laughed, because we were used to him doing stuff like that all the time." How did she even know that Logan did stuff like that all the time?
Most of the things she was remembering seemed to have come from her own mind, not just from the vision itself. "Then he went up to me..." She continued. "...and he ran his fingers down my cheek." She still had her eyes closed. She moved her hand towards her face, and touched her cheek the way Logan had touched it in her vision. "Then after that....after that, he walked away and....and...."
Yuriko suddenly opened her eyes and saw herself back in the swimming pool area. She could feel her heart beating so fast as raspy breaths escaped from her lips. Her eyes stared into the distance. She felt as if she just came back from a dream, from another time, from another place.
"Yuriko?" Logan asked.
She turned to look at him and saw him staring at her. She loved seeing his face again. She just wanted to wrap her arms around him and feel his touch. When he walked away in the vision, she thought she was never going to see him again. And now, there he was, the love of her life, sitting beside her by the pool.
"What happened next? What happened after he walked away?" He asked curiously. He wanted to know what happened afterwards. When Yuriko was narrating the vision to him, he could almost see it playing in his own mind. It was as if he'd seen that exact same vision before. Everything sounded so familiar...but why? Why did Yuriko's vision made him feel that way?
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Title: Unforgivable Sinners
By: Cmdr. Gabe E.
Note: This fanfiction occurs entirely in the X-Men movie-verse . Characters' unspoken thoughts are enclosed in .
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, TOPWITCH !!! Hope you had a great day !!!!
As for everyone who's wondering what happened between the three of them, don't worry...all will be revealed...in the end ! (and this chapter will reveal a little bit more about it too !)
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CHAPTER 33: More than just a vision
Yuriko stared back into Logan's eyes. "How about you, Logan? Isn't there a part of you that longs to remember the past you had left behind? Don't you have a voice inside your head asking about the life you had before you became Wolverine? What about the people you've met? What about the experiences you had? The places that you've been to and the things you have seen? Are you just going to let them fade away like a childhood dream? Haven't you ever thought of that?"
He clenched his teeth and looked up at the sky. What she had just said created a stir in his emotions. Why would he even want to remember his past? It was now gone. No one can bring it back. It would make no difference in his life. What's done is done.
But deep inside he knew why he really didn't want to discover his past. Because he feared it. He didn't want to know the man he once was. He feared to see the man whom Stryker had referred to as an animal. He feared the past because he feared himself.
"Sometimes..." Yuriko said... "I see images of the past in my mind." She reached out and gently ran her fingers on the surface of the water. She watched the water ripple as the tips of her fingers brushed against it.
"And whenever I see them, they feel so real. My visions happen so fast, and yet I can still remember them right down to the last detail. At first I thought they were just figments of my imagination, but the more I think about them, the more I realize that they really did happen." She looked at Logan and stared into his eyes. "I know they did happen, Logan. I know that in the past, you and me, we..."
Yuriko's eyes suddenly opened wide as she realized what she was about to say. She didn't want to tell him about her visions yet. Not yet. Not now. She didn't want to tell him that he was once a part of her life and that they might have been lovers before.
It still wasn't the right time. If she told him now, it would just make things more complicated. It might make him drift away from her. She knew how Logan felt about his past, and she didn't want to force her past upon him. The right time would come for such things. Perhaps someday, the past would reveal itself.
Logan's eyebrows furrowed. "You and me...what?" He asked curiously.
She quickly looked away from Logan and focused her eyes on the clear waters of the swimming pool. "Nothing." She said nervously.
From the corner of her eye, she could see Logan still looking at her, as if he was still waiting for a valid answer. Did he know that she was keeping something from him?
"Well, what I was actually about to say was that...you and me probably went through the same weapon x project." She said as she stared into his eyes. She didn't want to look like she was hiding something from him. "That's probably why our abilities are so identical." She didn't want to lie to him, but she couldn't tell him the truth either.
"Oh." Logan said with a hint of disappointment in his voice. He didn't know why, but he somehow expected her to say something else...something else about him and her.
"So...what did you see in your visions?" He asked curiously. He couldn't understand why her past intrigued him so much. "I had my own visions too," He added. "But they only went as far as the weapon x project itself. I have seen nothing of my past before I became Wolverine. Your visions on the other hand, seem to go further, even before you underwent the weapon x project."
She looked at him and nodded her head. "Yes. You're right." She said softly. "In my visions, I saw who I was before I became Lady Deathstrike. That's probably why I want my past back. I want to know about the girl who used to be me. Whether I like it or not, I was that girl, Logan. Whether I like it or not, she's still inside me, bearing the memories of the past I had long forgotten."
"You seem to like your visions." He said as he looked at her. "I can see it in your eyes. You look so happy whenever you talk about your past. Now I know why you want to remember it all. You want your old life back....but Yuriko, you can't ---"
"I know, Logan. I can't bring the past back." Yuriko sighed and looked up at the stars. "My visions are like dead stars. They continue to shine in my mind, but they're already long gone...already dead."
Then she looked at him. "But maybe...just maybe, there are some things in the past that we can still bring back if we want to. It may not be the same, but it's still possible."
Logan looked away from her. He didn't want any of his past back. "You must have lived a happy life then." He said firmly "Unlike me. From what Stryker said, I was a monster, an animal. I didn't want to believe him, but I couldn't deny the truth in his voice. I felt it in my gut. I was probably just like him."
Yuriko reached out and gently moved his face so that he was looking at her. She wanted to see his eyes again. She wanted to stare into them. Logan was wrong for saying that he was once an animal. Because in her vision, he was so human, so loving. She saw him with her own two eyes. And Stryker...Stryker was different too. If only she could tell him about what she saw.
"Not all of my visions were sweet. I've also had visions that made me want to run away and hide. Those visions felt like living nightmares that I couldn't escape from. And until now they still linger in my mind...reminding me of the shadows of my past." She said with fear in her voice.
Then she looked up at the stars again and smiled. "Though there was this once vision...that I wanted to last forever."
"What's that?" Logan asked curiously. She could see the happiness in her eyes.
Yuriko closed her eyes and the smile on her lips grew wider. Perhaps she could tell him about that one vision, but not tell him everything about it. She just wanted to reminisce in its memory again.
She kept her eyes closed as she talked. "In that vision, I was in a room..." She could see it in her mind again, the room, the three of them, and everything in it. She could see it playing in her mind like a silent movie. "And I was with my two best friends." She said with a smile. She couldn't believe what she was saying. The vision didn't say that Logan and Stryker were her good friends. And yet, she felt that they were. "We all looked so happy." She continued.
"The three of us, we were all dressed in format outfits." She said with her eyes still closed. The vision continued played at the back of her mind as she remembered it. Like before, she couldn't hear anything. While their mouths moved, no words were spoken and no sounds were made. "It was ten o'clock in the morning and the sun's rays were shining through the windows. Everything was so bright and so warm." How did she even know the time? The room in her vision didn't have a clock anywhere. "They both looked so handsome." She whispered happily. She could see Logan and Stryker's face as they laughed. She couldn't believe that young man in front of her was Stryker.
"One of them was going to get married that day." She gave out a small laugh. "And I was fixing his tie, because he didn't know how to." Her eyes remained closed. How did she know that Stryker was the one who was going to get married? The vision didn't specifically show that, but she knew. How could she have known that?
"Everything looked so perfect. Then I looked to my side and saw the love of my life. He was sitting on a table, looking at the groom and me. I could see jealousy in his eyes." She laughed as she remembered the look on Logan's face.
"Then he got off the table...then...then..." She gave out another small laugh. "He went up to the groom and then smacked him on the back of the head. We all laughed, because we were used to him doing stuff like that all the time." How did she even know that Logan did stuff like that all the time?
Most of the things she was remembering seemed to have come from her own mind, not just from the vision itself. "Then he went up to me..." She continued. "...and he ran his fingers down my cheek." She still had her eyes closed. She moved her hand towards her face, and touched her cheek the way Logan had touched it in her vision. "Then after that....after that, he walked away and....and...."
Yuriko suddenly opened her eyes and saw herself back in the swimming pool area. She could feel her heart beating so fast as raspy breaths escaped from her lips. Her eyes stared into the distance. She felt as if she just came back from a dream, from another time, from another place.
"Yuriko?" Logan asked.
She turned to look at him and saw him staring at her. She loved seeing his face again. She just wanted to wrap her arms around him and feel his touch. When he walked away in the vision, she thought she was never going to see him again. And now, there he was, the love of her life, sitting beside her by the pool.
"What happened next? What happened after he walked away?" He asked curiously. He wanted to know what happened afterwards. When Yuriko was narrating the vision to him, he could almost see it playing in his own mind. It was as if he'd seen that exact same vision before. Everything sounded so familiar...but why? Why did Yuriko's vision made him feel that way?
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