Ok, yes it took long to finish but i'm proud of the end result.
Do Not Own Inuyasha (Disclaimer)
Cry With Me
Whole Again
When it all melted away from me, and all my will faded. Naraku just had to show me a mass of people.
"Inuyasha, I realize now that you can not be killed by any demon alive. You almost match up to me. So how I intend to kill you today, will strike you as brilliant if you ever awake. The vicious slaughter of all your precious friends will devastate you, but the real tragedy will be that the killer....is you."
Those words didn't reach me, I didn't even care about anything. I was going to kill the people that I loved.
I fell into unconsciousness but my body stayed awake. But I swear I inwardly screamed when I subconsciously heard Naraku say,
"We're here."
It was such a familiar feeling, like a dream that you'd only recognize if you had it again. I had a front row seat to the end of any possible meaning in my life. I suddenly lost all taste for fighting and for becoming a demon. All my life I had been searching for something and this wasn't it. My vision, I was going to be happy, I wasn't going to slaughter any innocent people.
The all too familiar feeling of impossible restraint came to me, I couldn't even try to stop myself. And when I was released into the village, it was worse than hell. Worse than watching Kikyou's arrow come straight for my chest. I knew one thing, I could smell fear, but fear would only feed my lust for bloodshed.
I don't wanna blind myself with blood.
The taste in my nose of blood when my claws went into the first unsuspecting human was invigorating. Suddenly, I was there, I wasn't restrained anymore. Because I wasn't resisting, the feeling, that amazing temptation was so intense that I started liking it and I was doing it on my own.
When the screaming started I instantly reminded myself that these were the people that I had fought to protect so much. I pulled back,
"No!" I managed to get out. But that didn't help.
A familiar looking man with a staff ran for me and I barely recognized him, he grabbed my shoulders harshly and screamed things that were so silent to me. I growled roughly and punched his figure far from my own.
Sango came for me and I begged my mouth to talk and say something. No, if I could talk, I wouldn't, I would scream.
I don't want to live like this.
A large white boomerang came for me and I quickly sliced it in half.
I ran for her and trailed my sharp claws through her stomach and watched her body hit the ground.
The villagers had hidden themselves. The only person standing in front of me was Kagome.
And she couldn't kill me, she couldn't draw her bow, instead she dropped it and ran to me.
I drew up my arm and spread my deadly clawed hand. When she
was half a meter away from me, it came down in a mad rush of excitement but stopped at the top of her head and she flinched.
A groaning man on the ground looked at me and slightly smiled...it was Miroku, I could barely see it but I knew by that face and those happy features.
I don't wanna die like this.
"You...you know what you have to do." But I paid no attention to him as I growled further and watched Kagome open her eyes and stare at me. And it was when tears erupted and fell from her orbs that I realized, something is wrong here.
That hand very slowly forced its way down on her despite my greatest efforts. Dam it, Kagome, move!
I screamed terribly inside and it ached and it hurt. My will to save her, my love for her was so strong.
I kept growling in frustration, not sure if I was winning the battle against myself. My eyes flashed a golden color for half a second and she gasped.
"You can do it!" She cried.
One last time I brought up my arm and my body forced it down. I was only so strong...if I was going to stop myself from killing her, it would require sacrifice.
And then, it happened. I felt my own bloody claws go through my own bare stomach. It was all slow and silent, it was how very dramatic. The bloody hand that I wish was not mine came out the other end and dripped a dark red and murderous color.
It was my hands that murdered villagers and thieves and demons. It was my claws that went through my own stomach and let me realize the feeling of what I had been giving others since I knew how to kill.
When I felt my eyes turn and my claws shorten. I felt the pain come rushing in. Finally, I drew it out and fell to the ground and lay still, thinking, wondering. Am I normal again? I must be, because it hurts.
I slowly blinked and brought up my arm to see the damage.
My three friends in their finest form I saw, above me and...Crying? Why? Was I going to die?
I sighed to suppress as much pain as I could,
"You..." I whispered softly as blood came out of my mouth and I pointed to the upset Kagome.
"...Are gonna be the death of me..." I joked, she forced a smile in her cry, I laughed a little and combined it with soft coughs.
I wanted to salvage these moments to at least be able to talk properly. I gave up my last strength to say these words to my best friends, my only friends.
I turned my head to Miroku,
"Miroku." I said smiling,
"Thank you for trying so hard to stop me like I asked. You're a great person." There was a significant pause between each word I said.
"You're the best man I've ever known." I added softly. I looked to Sango.
"Sango, I'm sorry I hurt you, I don't know if I could've done what you did. You're stronger and more courageous than I'll ever be."
"Kagome, don't cry. I'm fine. Thank you for saving me. I always wanted to thank you all those times you helped me. What happened just there...made me realize something. I love you...because you've always been there for me and you accept me.
You've all done so much for me...a-and"
I started to break up and tears streamed down faster than I realized I could cry. My finish was louder and very shaky.
"I love you all...so damn much."
And those things were so hard to say because I knew I would never be able to say them again and it hurt so much.
Things were getting dark but I was sure that my eyes were wide open.
All the villagers came out from hiding and slowly walked over into a circle around me. The women and children cried while all the men knelt down before my horizontal form. I was scared, because, the more I tried to keep myself, the more my vision and senses died out.
The village who once despised me and hated me for terrorizing them, I was their hero. I was their hero because I saved them from demons, witches and because, I would even sacrifice myself to save them from myself.
Before my senses faded to nothing, I heard Miroku talk to me about the good times we had. The jokes that never ceased to make us laugh. Sango thanked me for everything I had done for her and she caressed my cheek with her soft palm.
"You were the best thing that ever happened in my life, Inuyasha." I heard Kagome say and then, I felt her warm lips against my own.
I blinked one last time and that's when everything left me, I became a spirit.
But I could still feel all their love and kindness wash over me and I felt whole.
This is what I wanted in life.