A Spirit to be loved

By: shar xei-kun

Notes: Oi, oi, oi!!! I have the sort of Writer's block and this creepy sore eyes thing, which made me look like I'm drugged, or something. Anywho, since I'm back...

Whatever things: I want to thank still my reviewers of this story! And thanks for bearing with my crappiness in making stories...I guess...

Warnings: Angst. This chapter is all about how Sasuke will be facing Naruto's death. Sakura will be on her Angst side as well, so expect my usual swearing in here. 'Kay?

Kunochi-female ninja (counterpart of shinobi)

Go me- a short version of Gomen Nasai

Disclaimer: I still don't own Naruto. I'm just waiting for the release of Naruto the movie on August.... n.n

Sasuke ran away from the dome where he was just earlier. He just jumped off from a nearby tree to fade away from Konoha for just a while. He needed someplace quiet. Earlier, he found out the terrible news from Kyan about what happened to his 'loved one' while he was still on his mission. Of course, it hurts like hell to lose someone you love but something more terrible than that is when you found out that the one you love is already dead but you haven't told him how you really feel.

Sakura tried following Sasuke but she failed to do so because when she went out of the dome, Sasuke's already gone. Other than Sasuke who was affected by the event, Sakura's the other one affected by it. As everybody knows, Sakura was the one who have this biggest crush on Sasuke for as long as everyone could remember. And she'd do everything to get him.

And yes, she had a plan on her head how to get her loved one back. And it considers the total annihilation of someone's body. She knows that if Sasuke would find out about it, he'd hate her for the rest of her life. But in her heart, she knows it's better than her seeing the two together.

Because she was trapped in her own mind world, she didn't notice a person; a person whom she considers her best friend a long time ago was reading her mind. This person was also once Sakura's rival but after three years since they've been graduated from the academy, she finally settled her life with her boyfriend, Shikamaru.

"Sakura!"

The pink-haired kunochi didn't answer. She just continued running.

Ino left no choice to get her best friend's attention. She threw some shurikens in front of Sakura, causing the other teen to scream in surprise.

"Man, good thing you came back from your dream land." The blonde kunochi picked up her shurikens and placed back on her holster.

"What do you want then, Ino?" Sakura wiped the traces of tears from her face.

Silence wrapped between the two. Ino was the first to speak.

"Are you nuts?" She slapped the other teen in the face. "Do you have even any idea what you 'will' be doing?!"

"None of your business, Ino-pig."

"Baka!!!" She slapped Sakura again. "It's okay if you're calling me a pig, and it's okay if you took Sasuke from me because I'm already with Shika...but it's a no-okay if you'll try to annihilate someone like Naruto, you know!!!!!"

The pink-haired kunochi cried again. Mainly because she can't take the pain anymore so she's releasing it to someone else. "I...know!!! I know, Ino! But do you have any idea how it feels?!"

"We know how it feels like...but the fact you're trying to completely remove him here is something that would stimulate Sasuke-kun to get on his verge to kill you, didn't you realize that? Do you think he would ever forgive you for that?"

"B-But..."

"No buts, Sakura." The blonde kunochi was firm on that one. But still, she tries to comfort her friend. "Just remember...time heals all wounds, okay?"

"I hope you're right..." Sakura said, wiping her tears with a blue handkerchief.

Back at Eden, specifically at the sky garden, a pair of bright azure eyes with tears is watching over Sakura and Ino through a globe.

"Gomen nasai.... Sakura-chan...."

Just then, a pair of warm hands was placed on his back. He jumped in surprise to see another guy from behind, having those fiery Vermillion eyes, spiky cobalt blue hair just like Hinata's, a semi-muscular but slim physique and a black tribal marking on his left wrist. He's wearing a white sleeveless tight shirt and low-waist pants.

"Who are you?"

"Go me. I'm Dice. I've been here for about thirty years. Are you a newcomer?"

Naruto nodded his head shakily, still tense from the crying earlier. "Hai. I'm Naruto."

The blue-haired teen just smiled. "Did someone just bring you here or something?"

"Yeah. Celeste did." The blonde sat on one of the fluffy cloud chairs around sky garden. "Who brought you here?" He asked, looking confused to the new guy he just got acquainted.

"Vishnu did." Dice rubbed his temples and frowned. "You know, that girl gives me the creeps..."

The blonde shinobi let out a chuckle. "Why? Vishnu's nice...I mean, she's not creepy as what you think...."

"Not creepy?" the blue-haired spirit sighed in exasperation. "The why the hell she wouldn't let me see Celeste for thirty years straight?! I mean, I almost met all of the spirits around here, and of all people, the Spirit Mistress is the one she prohibits me to meet!"

Naruto just nodded and it seems things are really clicking into place. Dice must be the one Vishnu was talking about that's related to Celeste. It seems that everything will be all right. But that is, for Celeste...but for him, it's different...very, very different.

Time seems to flow by when Sasuke reached a thick part of the Konoha forest. He's all-alone, and much more, he feels the true meaning of being alone. But the fact is, he's been like that, like a snail coiled up in his shell for a very long, long time. He sat on the grass that's blowing with the east wind and he still remains silent.

This is too much. All he ever wanted is to love and be loved, that's all. He had never felt it for a very long time. And now that there's this truth that the one he loves is already gone, he lost that chance to feel it for the second time. Crystal tears are forming in his raven eyes, and shortness of breath was beginning to be imminent in his chest.

"Naruto..." he said between breaths. "It seems that to feel love is always against me. The love I received from my parents was gone long ago; and now you're gone away from me...forever. I just wanted to see you again, to be able to protect you at all costs."

He can't say anything anymore. All he can do now to ease the pain is to let it all out in tears.

He heard a sobbing not too far from his location, but it wasn't his. He wiped his tears immediately, before standing up and walking away. He doesn't want anyone to see him like this. But before he could even take a step forward, he saw Kyan in front of him, but she wasn't the one who's crying because there's no trace of any tear.

"Now, what do you want?" Sasuke blurted out in a hysterical voice. "Why the hell are you here? You already told me what happened to him. That's enough, so get away from me!!!"

"It's not that." Celeste crossed her arms. "I have to give something for you. From Naruto."

"What?" The raven ninja blinked a bit. Sure he would want to receive whatever Kyan has to give to him from Naruto but, how did Kyan would ever know this huge fact on Naruto? It confuses him, but it seems he sets this doubt away. All he wanted now is to know what this navy-haired jounin would give to him.

Kyan rummaged her bag only to give Sasuke a pair of wind goggles, the exact goggles that Naruto wears when he's not a genin yet, and a small, sunny yellow-colored notebook.

"That goggles he used before had seen many places. It could show you what it had seen the way Naruto had seen it. His diary has only one entry, and it's all about you. It's yours now." Kyan closed her bag, and jumped off.

"Why do know all this?" Sasuke narrowed his eyebrows.

The jounin led out a chuckle. "Simple. It's because I need to know."

Sasuke silenced himself as Kyan jumped off from tree to tree, until she vanished. He sat again on the grass and opened Naruto's diary only to find himself crying in front of an open diary and reading it.

I never used this diary before, and not until now. I don't know why I had to write how I feel on this notebook but maybe, just maybe...I really need to let it because if did not, I would be dead.

Up until now, I still can't forget the way he stares at me, thinking that I'm an idiot for him, but the way I stare at Sasuke was not the glare of death but the glare of hope...hope that for the fact that the love I feel for him would be returned to me and he himself would feel the same way. But fate seems to go against me. I knew for a fact that he can't love me...because he doesn't even care about me. I know he saves me numerous times, but that is the reason of the fact that I'm his teammate, that's all. I tried forgetting him, but it won't work. It seems that I've really fallen for him. But this is all wrong. I have to forget my feelings from now on. But there's still that ray of hope, a hope that only to exist in my dreams...that dream is to feel his arms wrapped around mine, saying the word I've been dying to hear since I fell for Sasuke...

...I Love You...

"Naruto-kun..." Sasuke cried uncontrollably. "I wish I told you all about this a long time ago..."

The sobbing sound came again. But now, it's clearer than it was before. Along with the stream of words was a familiar voice.

"Sasuke...."

"Sasuke.... please...don't cry."

Sasuke was startled. He didn't know if he hears something or just only in his mind. "Who are you?"

He received no answer. Instead, he felt a warm wind coating his body and calming his nerves. It seems that the warm wind tells him to stop his sorrow and in an instant, he felt better and begin his walk back home. He needs to find Kyan tomorrow and ask her for some more information about Naruto.

While on his walk, he heard that same voice again. This time, the voice was warm and gentle.

"At least...I knew now...you loved me..."

Notes: Sorry if it was late...I had too much work at school and it blocks me from my doing this...add the fact I have our first exams tomorrow!!! If I won't pass it, I'll be gone for life!!! X.x Sorry if it was short...It's all about the reaction not only on Sasuke's part, but also on Sakura and the others.

Hope somebody up there still likes me...

CIAO!