hello all! this is Daimien. I took the liberty to finish this chapter for Ruiki (aka hiei jaganshi's wife...) because I havent heard from her in awhile (plus I havent been much of a help with the story). She has been buisy doing some of her new storys. you all should check them out! I havent had my computer for awhile, so as to what her current projects are, I really couldn't say. oh, yes and I just got a new CD from AFI called sing the sorrow. I think in my opinion, that you should check it out! I originally wasent going tocontinue particepateing in makeing this story, so show your appriciation by sending in a big fat check! uhh! I mean review eny who.. I dont know how ruiki would start the chappy, but I am going to start it this way... I am sad to say that the reason I am doing this chapter is because I am kinda tryin' to appologize to Ruiki for my total laCK of participation and contrubuting to this story..TT...I am so sorry formy horrid ways.(daimienfeels really bad) ho ho! There is good news though!! you see, I hate how short my chapters are, so I am aiming toward longer lasting chapters and an everlasting effect upon my readers.( Daimien: can you tell that I took proper english over the summer?) eny who, we left off with hiei reading human kurama's diary..(Daimien:ohhh, now I remember!) hiei had discovered h. kurama's (thats what we will call him from now on) dirty little secret(Daimien: yea, right! You know he felt the same!). Here is the story!

'Ugh!' hiei thought as he slamed the book closed. He thought about the way h. kurama treated him, and how he never thought about him as anything but a friend! how blind he must have been! He couldent help but read another page from the leather bound book.

Dear diary,

I love Hiei because he is uber-hott. I want to love him long. I wonder how big his butt really is... he is the only thing i think about whenever I think about guys. Mayby I am a sexaholic... But only for hiei. I love the way his hair spikes like jagged rocks, just waiting for someone to fall on them and meet there bloody demise.

His ruby eyes make me feel like burning in passionate flames. I love his pale skin and his hard chest. the way he always seems to be hideing feelings that none should have to bear. I want to feel his pain inside of me like the sea over the beach. I need him so much.

I think I may burst with his mear touch. I need his arms around me... I need hiei. I wish he would touch me... just once, to see how it feels. I want his arms around me, shakeing me violently, only to have him to myself so we would make up.

I want him to tell me that he loves no one the way he loves me...

I wish I were his wreched sister, she gets all of his attention. I want to wrap my hands around her small neck and kill her like she killed mine and hiei's love.

and when the police ask why I did it, I will say,"She broke my heart, so I broke her neck."

I love hiei and all the velocity of him... but I daresay that I won't be telling this to my sweet hiei any time soon. how horrid to think how my hiei's face would look if he ever knew...

ironiclly, hiei looked up and saw his face in the mirorr. ' I don't recognise my self.' thought hiei.' I always thought I was alone... to think that I wasent really alone at all.'

this is me...but I cant be me without having hiei and if I told him, I wouldnt even have that. this is how it shall be, this is the real me.

kurama

whoa! thought hiei. I didn't know this was the way that you felt...

this is the chapter that I promised you, hope you like! and remember, send in those che- I mean reviews! yea! thats it...reviews!

your hero, Daimien.