SLADE
My mom's such a hero! Saffy is moving into our house, it's all arranged.
Her dads paying for the alterations to our house.
The rehabilitation center gave us a big list of all of the stuff she's gonna need, ramps, special bed, bath lift, rails next to the toilet, lower light switches, higher tables I could go on forever.
That stuff really scares me, it's gonna be a constant reminder of what I did to Saffy, how one stupid mistake ruined her life.
Not that I could ever forget.
Although sometimes I wish I could just turn back the clock and make it all go away, make things, make Saffy, go back to how she used to be.
I guess I'm kind of jealous too, Saffy is becoming part of my family which is what I've wanted ever since we first got it together but at the same time I don't want to have to share her with Mom and Elton or even Kayla.
Especially Kayla, they have these conversations that I'm not even a part of cos my signing's not good enough yet and I feel like they're all shutting me out.
It makes me want to yell at them to leave the two of us alone, that Saffy's my girlfriend, my friend, my family and not there's.
I know that's really awful and I know that Saffy needs them and having them around makes her happy and that I need them because I couldn't take care of Saffy on my own.
It's just that it used to be the two of us, Saffy and me against the world or at least that was how it felt, it's not like that any more and I really miss that.