SAFFY
My counselor was talking to me today about going back to school.
The thing is I don't know if I can.
I don't want people to feel sorry for me but how could they not if they compare what I am now to what I used to be?
My friends don't want anything to do with me since the accident, it's like I am dead to them.
It's degrading to have to have stuff done for you in front of other people, at least I think it is, it makes me feel so inadequate.
If I went back to my old school I would have to have an aide with me like the whole time to open doors, help me in the lavatory, take notes and write stuff for me and even turn the pages of the textbooks in class.
Maybe I should do to one of those special schools that are just for kids like me?
Somehow, I don't think that I would fit in there either; retards and the kids that drool really scare me. I can't help it and I know how close I came to being one of them but I don't think I could cope with that; just the thought of it makes me feel physically sick.
Maybe I could be home schooled like Kayla?
That sounds like a good idea at least that way no one would have to know what a helpless freak I've become and I could still get a good education.
I'm sure my parents would pay for a tutor if I asked. They would do anything to stop me being wheeled out into the public eye; they are just so ashamed of me.