A/N: Hey ya'll! Haha there's the southerner that has developed in me coming out. Thanks for all the excellent reviews! I say it everytime, but you guys seriously rock.

chapel-the-evergreen13: Okay I'm going to let you in on a little secret. Well not really a secret because Ginny states it in this chapter, but you never find out who spiked it. She never finds out. Don't throw rocks at me! Lol.

xauroraborealisx: aha harry/ ginny harry/ginny! You're dad plays in a band? That's great! Lol. Sadly the happiness will be ending here. Yes I am evil and I know it. :)

The Flying Moose: Haha if I had a beta they would like hate me. I make so many mistakes, and my grammar sucks. And half the time I think I have like this long chapter written and it's really only like a page and a half. Lol. Haha Ginny will get that hug/kiss soon! :)

future writer of america: Sorry for the shortness! And thank you for the review! But aha the GRR thing made me chuckle. Lol.

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Irishdancer61790: Haha yes Ron was an idiot for quite some time. Lol. Haha I totally had a crush on my good friends older brother. But that was before my boyfriend who I have now. :)

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A Harry and Ginny Dreamer: Don't scream at me! I'm sorry! Lol. That was pretty funny though. And this will be the last short one. The last two are longgggg. Lol I will definitely put your name at the end of the story! I want to make your day! Lol. They will kiss soon don't worry! :) Long live Ginny and Harry! Lol.

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I walked out of the portrait hole with a chuckle. And now I'm sitting in the library trying and failing to complete a Potions essay. It's just so boring and tedious. I hate Potions. On another note, I'm glad Ron and I are on good terms again. It was getting unbearable to be honest. On top of everything else it was hard to deal with. And now that's all worked out. Now there's only one thing left. Harry.

Chapter Eighteen: Hope Failing

December 20th 2004, 11:30 am

I can't even believe it's been a little over two months since I've written in you! See I sort of lost you. But this morning I was cleaning out my dormitory and I found you. Shoved under someone else's bed. I really hope no one read this. I can't even bear to think of that. I think if someone told me that they had read my diary, I would have a mental breakdown. Seriously. I don't want anyone to ever read any of the things I said. Especially about Harry. Who sadly, I have not had a real conversation with since my drunken mistake two months ago. I never did find out who spiked my drink. Which pisses me the hell off. I think I've finally given up all hope. The only thing Harry and I do is exchange awkward hellos, if that. Some days are better than others, while some days just blow. When we're playing Quidditch he just speaks to me as if I'm no one special. I'm just another part of the team that he's forced to play with. Which hurts really badly. I didn't think it would ever turn out this way. I figured after a couple weeks he'd get over it. But I guess that's not the case. And I'm not about to bother him. Obviously I never meant that much to him. I think I need to close this now.

12:02 pm

I hate feeling so weak about this. I hate crying over him. Why can't I just get over it? Why can't I finally see what's been in front of my face the whole time? He doesn't feel for me. He never will. Why can't I just except it and move on? But everytime I try, something holds me back. That same stupid feeling. The one that says that I should still have faith. But I know that feeling is wrong. How could it be right after all these months? There's no possible way it could be. Harry's made his decision. The fact is he doesn't love me. And he never will.

7:57 pm

Today Hermione tried to convince me to talk to Harry. Again. She walked up to my bed and sat down gingerly.

"Ginny? Don't you think today might be a good day to talk to Harry?" Hermione asked gently.

"No I don't. I don't think any day is a good day to talk to Harry anymore." I replied bitterly.

"Ginny please. Just try. It couldn't hurt."

"No! He's made his decision. And he obviously doesn't give a damn about me!" I snapped.

Hermione looked taken aback, and turned red. I immediately felt sorry.

"Hermione I'm sorry. I didn't mean to snap like that. I'm just so frustrated and upset and angry." I said with tears threatening to spill over.

"I know." Hermione said sadly.

She then reached over and pulled me into one of her tight hugs. I knew that if I didn't go do something I was gonna lose it. So I pulled away carefully.

"Hermione, I know you're just trying to help. But I honestly don't think it's ever going to get better." I said miserably.

With that, I walked past her and down the stairs. Tears were beginning to flow from my eyes, and I just wanted to go to some place where I knew I'd be alone. As I entered the common room I saw him sitting there by the fire. His jet-black hair was disheveled and his green eyes looked dull, as if all the sparkle had left them. I tried to sneak by unnoticed, because I was in mood to look into his hypnotic eyes. But Harry looked up, just to my bad luck. I froze at once. Those eyes were sucking me in. Searching me. The tears started to roll down my cheeks, and I turned away quickly. As I was racing out of the portrait hole, I tripped on the rug by the hole. I let out a small cry and quickly righted myself. Then I ran through the hole as fast as my feet would take me. I ran down deserted corridors and through empty classrooms. I finally arrived at what I was looking for. The Room of Requirement. I slowly turned the doorknob, and stepped inside. The room had an enormous fire going with big comfortable couches all around. Stacks upon stacks of books sat on a wooden shelf in the corner. The ground was covered with a soft warm material that felt good against my feet. I grabbed a blanket that was sitting in the corner, and got comfy on one of the couches.

One thought kept running through my mind the whole time. I wish Harry were here. How pathetic is that? He has basically rejected me, but wasn't even kind enough to really reject me. He has just been ignoring me. Which is almost worse in a way. I couldn't help but think of what it would be like to sit here with him. Our bodies would be warm from lying next to each other. He'd lean over and kiss me softly, telling me without words that everything would be all right. We'd fall asleep, arms wrapped around each other. Nothing would matter but each other. The way I've always wanted it to be. Tears are starting to fall from my eyes, but I don't care. I should be used to them by now, considering all the crying I've done over Harry in the past two months. But every single time the tears start to roll down my cheeks, it feels like being rejected all over again. It feels like it's the first time that I've cried over him. And I hate it. I hate feeling so helpless. So powerless against this. But I am. I can't make Harry love me. And I wouldn't even if I could. I just want him to be happy. But I wish so bad that he'd be happy with me.

A/N: I hope everyone liked this chapter! Poor Ginny. Harry's dumb. Lol. But Read and Review! Thanks!