SLADE
If Saffy's parents had decided to press charges the police would have sent me straight to juvenile jail.
I can't believe that they didn't press charges that they didn't even care enough about Saffy and what I did to her to even bother.
They make me so angry I can't even talk to Saffy about them any more without completely losing the plot.
I hate them even more than I hate myself, some times I think that I'd feel better about things if they had locked me up and thrown away the key at least then I would feel like I'm being punished for what I did in some way.
As things stand my lawyer says that I'll probably get off with community service and that they wont even put me in jail or a kid's home or anything.
One of the conditions of the police releasing me was that I get counseling. So now I go and see a counselor twice a week.
I know millions of people are in therapy but I really don't think I need it, nothing will ever help me come to terms with the fact that Saffy will have to spend the rest of her life in that damn wheelchair of hers, that she wont ever walk or dance or anything and that it's because of me, that I was the one who destroyed her life and no amount of 'talking' is going to change that.
What can I say except that it's all my fault and that I hate myself for what I've done?