SAFFY
Today has been great, even the welcome home party which was a bit embarrassing.
I certainly never thought I'd be this happy ever again. That I'd find somewhere where I belong, where people accepted me for what I am now.
I've missed having some privacy. Missed being able to touch Slade, to have him hold me, any kind of intimacy.
Saying that he has this stupid idea that he can take care of me all by himself, I'd hate that.
I want him to be my boyfriend not my carer and I don't want him to give up everything for me, like rugby and dirt biking and all the other stuff the enjoys. I think that would ruin things between us completely even more so than the stupid accident did and Slade blaming himself for what happened has.
I love him so much and I wish that I could make things better for him and I've really tired to but how can I when every time he looks at me he feels bad?