SLADE
It's so hard having to watch Saffy struggle the with everything the whole time, even stupid little things like picking something up off of the floor or feeding herself.
I really want to do all of the stuff which she finds hard for her but I know I have to watch her struggle because she needs to be as independent as she can be at least that's what her therapist said.
I still hate it though especially when I do or say things that make life a million times worse for her than it already is. Sometimes the tiniest phrase can really upset someone.
One of the things I hate most of all is that we don't fight anymore, that we are both constantly afraid to say what we are thinking or feeling because we don't want to upset each other. Before we just used to have a row and then half an hour later it would all be forgot about, it feels like we're keeping secrets from each other and I don't like it because Saffy and I never ever had any secrets from each other before the accident.
We had an argument this morning, it was awful it tares me apart that I can't make things better, that I feel the way I do about the accident and myself and even Saffy.
By the time we'd both calmed down I was really late for school but I didn't get a detention as I don't think anyone even noticed because a lot of the teachers are off sick at the moment, there's some nasty bug going round.
All in all things are pretty weird at the moment….