Sweetness Follows

Readying to bury your father and your mother,
What did you think when you lost another?

He sat alone, on a cliff overlooking the ocean. He watched the waters the water watch over the shore, just like his emotions washed over his heart. Beast Boy turned, and looked at the statue that until recently, had been a person. A person that had been the best friend he had ever had. Terra... but she was gone. He tried to tell himself that it had been her choice, that she had wanted to do something good at the end of her life. But part of him blamed himself. He blamed himself because he hadn't been able to get close to her fast enough. What if he had been able to talk her out of it? What if he could have pulled her from Slade sooner? But he hadn't. And because of that, he thought that nothing he had done for had been of any good.

I used to wonder why did you bother,
Distanced from one, blind to the other?

It was funny really, he thought. This wasn't the first time he'd felt this sort of pain. Beast Boy remembered the day his parents had died. He'd just been a kid, but the memory would haunt him to his deathbed. He remembered the waterfall, how his powers had kicked in, how he had been able to save himself... but not them. He'd felt worthless then and had wanted to punish himself for not being able to do anything. But instead, he'd just wandered from guardian to guardian, until he met the Titans. They were the only family he had left. He loved them like family, and he feared for them like they were his siblings. But that caused him pain too. If they were family, then everyone had failed Terra. That meant they had helped him in the biggest failure of his life

Listen here my sister and my brother
What would you care if you lost the other?
I always wonder why did we bother,
Distanced from one, deaf to the other

No, that wasn't true. Beast Boy knew that everyone had tried to save her. Even Raven had tried in the end. That wasn't him talking; it was the depression with in him. He'd carried those feeling with him for years; he knew them well. But now... it was all he could feel. He didn't know if they would leave him this time. Everything he'd done before, to make them leave, seemed meaningless.

Oh, oh, oh but sweetness follows
It's these little things, they can pull you under.
Live your life filled with joy and wonder.

I always knew this altogether thunder
Was lost in our little lives

What would she say? He thought as he looked at the statue. Would she have told him to try to let go, and live his life? Or would she condemn him forfailing to save her? He wished for a sign, for something to tell him what to do. Suddenly, he heard a plink noise from the water. Beast Boy turned and saw that part of the rocks had fallen from the cliff. As he watched, the gravel separated and started to sink. One by one, all the rocks slipped under the water. Sighing, Beast Boy started to turn away, but then, one rock bobbed back to the surface. It floated along to the edge of the beach, then washed ashore. Beast Boy walked over to the surf, and picked it up. He looked at it in the palm of his hand. He stood there staring for a long time.

Oh, oh, oh but sweetness follows.
Oh, oh, oh but sweetness follows.
It's these little things, they can pull you under.
Live your life filled with joy and thunder.
Yeah, yeah we were altogether
Lost in our little lives.