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fanfiction and that I'm just some random person off the net who's story you
chose to read and has no hope of ever owning Harry Potter.
Perfect
They call me spoiled
They call me whiny brat
They tell me to be thankful
They say that I don't deserve all that I have
I should be happy I have a family that loves me
That I am able to go to a good school
That I have good friends who would die for me
That I have clothes on my back and good food to eat
But I'm not
I want more
Does that make me a spoiled brat?
I know I should be satisfied and so very grateful for the life I have, compared to the other lives other people live out there.
If I was someone else, I could be hungry (I've grown up used to food, I don't want to go hungry)
I could be hurt (am I a coward for not wanting to hurt?)
I could be sick (you don't know how important your health is until you lose it)
I could be dirty (I know the importance of baths)
I could be raped (yes, guys can be raped, and not pleasantly either)
I could be cold (I hate mornings when the stone is so ice cold under my feet, how would I survive on the streets in winter?)
I could be living in a box (I know my room isn't much better, but at least it's a room)
I have so many reasons to be satisfied with my life, but I'm not
There's a hole in my chest where my heart is supposed to beat
It's not there
Whenever Hermione used to smile at me, I would feel like the king of the world.
Now when she smiles, I want to rip that twist on her lips off and stomp it into the dirt.
She's mocking me
Like everyone else
I know they say that I shouldn't listen to everyone else.
I know they say that their opinions shouldn't matter
But they do.
I hear their whispers when I'm lying in my bed awake
I know what they say
Even if I don't actually hear it, I know it happens.
I just know it
I know they call me poor as dirt (because I am)
I know they call me Weasel (because I am no better than one)
I know they say I don't deserve to live (because I don't, I've done so much wrong)
I know they say I'm a spoiled brat
Because I am
Whenever I complain, whenever I tell my parents (no matter how much I love them) that I want a better life, Percy will always step in and tell me to be ashamed of myself.
Then he will bury me with his own logic
He calls me a hypocrite
He calls me a complainer
He calls me ungrateful
He calls me whiny
He calls me a bastard
I try and get angry at him for calling me these things
But he's correct
So the only thing I can do is shut my mouth and sit there, taking it
I get angry, but there's nothing I can do or say
Because he's correct
I am a hypocrite
I am a complainer
I am ungrateful
I am whiny
I am a bastard
I don't deserve to live
I have such an incredible family
And I hate it
I'm a spoiled brat.
Perfect
They call me spoiled
They call me whiny brat
They tell me to be thankful
They say that I don't deserve all that I have
I should be happy I have a family that loves me
That I am able to go to a good school
That I have good friends who would die for me
That I have clothes on my back and good food to eat
But I'm not
I want more
Does that make me a spoiled brat?
I know I should be satisfied and so very grateful for the life I have, compared to the other lives other people live out there.
If I was someone else, I could be hungry (I've grown up used to food, I don't want to go hungry)
I could be hurt (am I a coward for not wanting to hurt?)
I could be sick (you don't know how important your health is until you lose it)
I could be dirty (I know the importance of baths)
I could be raped (yes, guys can be raped, and not pleasantly either)
I could be cold (I hate mornings when the stone is so ice cold under my feet, how would I survive on the streets in winter?)
I could be living in a box (I know my room isn't much better, but at least it's a room)
I have so many reasons to be satisfied with my life, but I'm not
There's a hole in my chest where my heart is supposed to beat
It's not there
Whenever Hermione used to smile at me, I would feel like the king of the world.
Now when she smiles, I want to rip that twist on her lips off and stomp it into the dirt.
She's mocking me
Like everyone else
I know they say that I shouldn't listen to everyone else.
I know they say that their opinions shouldn't matter
But they do.
I hear their whispers when I'm lying in my bed awake
I know what they say
Even if I don't actually hear it, I know it happens.
I just know it
I know they call me poor as dirt (because I am)
I know they call me Weasel (because I am no better than one)
I know they say I don't deserve to live (because I don't, I've done so much wrong)
I know they say I'm a spoiled brat
Because I am
Whenever I complain, whenever I tell my parents (no matter how much I love them) that I want a better life, Percy will always step in and tell me to be ashamed of myself.
Then he will bury me with his own logic
He calls me a hypocrite
He calls me a complainer
He calls me ungrateful
He calls me whiny
He calls me a bastard
I try and get angry at him for calling me these things
But he's correct
So the only thing I can do is shut my mouth and sit there, taking it
I get angry, but there's nothing I can do or say
Because he's correct
I am a hypocrite
I am a complainer
I am ungrateful
I am whiny
I am a bastard
I don't deserve to live
I have such an incredible family
And I hate it
I'm a spoiled brat.
