Disclaimer: Might as well write one, in case I get sued by JK Rowling (in
the insanely small chance that she actually decides to read this and sue
me) HP isn't mine. Dammit. The idea from this came from Blue Eyes by
Demoness Mark on www.fanfiction.net Hope she doesn't mind me writing my
own Voldemort fic explaining what is behind those red eyes. There's also a
part of this in which I took an idea from the Incarnations series, by Piers
Anthony. It's the part where life is only chaos being organized.
A/N: Does anyone ever read these? Well, if you are and don't mind slash, aka homosexual relationships, can you R+R my other story, Essence of Your Life? I'm still trying to decide whether or not I'm going to continue writing it.
Perfect
Throughout the ages, human beings have fought.
They fight for glory, riches, values, religion, personal opinions, perhaps even just for the sake of a personal argument and their temperament happens to be rather bloodthirsty.
Human nature is filled with blood and a thirst for conflict.
So why am I to be labeled as a tyrant, as the executioner of thousands, when I am simply following my own nature? I am simply being what is most inherently human.
I have decided against the futile effort of wrestling with your own nature to try and win the approval of others, never fully receiving it.
This way, I give the approval, and disapproval when the occasion merits.
Instead of looking up at others, I am looked up to.
Does that make me evil?
But is any human being pure evil? Is any human being pure good?
I once thought that I must have had some spark of what they call goodness within me, but it has been purged through countless attempts at immortality and simply the weight of life.
My father left my mother simply because she was born a certain way, because of her blood. He also left myself, still a child, because my mother had not told him all of her secrets when they were wed.
Is he not also evil? He left a new mother and a young baby to fend for themselves simply because he happened to be a prude. His decision could have caused the death of both myself and my mother, and he fully knew that.
Is that not also evil?
I simply pay back retribution as is due.
Does that make me evil?
I have simply chosen people to carry out my judgments.
Does that make me evil?
It is not that that makes me evil because there have been others to have passed judgment and have indeed been hailed heroic. Indeed, the Four Founders, Gryffindor, Hufflepuff, Ravenclaw, and Slytherin, they all passed judgment on the Muggles and found them to be wanting.
Rather than purging them from the earth, they chose to build a school as sanctuary for magical folk. But they still passed judgement.
That does not make them evil.
So am I labeled as a tyrant because I know Muggle blood is lower than filth and act on that knowledge?
Henry VIII of England divorced two wives, execute two wives, and inadvertently caused the death of another wife due to what his entire realm knew: he must have a male heir.
That is why he divorced Catherine of Aragon, a Spanish princess, his brother's widow. Rumor has it that either he or Anne Boleyn, his second wife, poisoned the Spanish Princess who had bore Henry VIII a daughter, known to history as Bloody Mary.
That is why he ordered the execution of his second wife: he acted on the knowledge that Anne Boleyn was a witch; she was a witch and a foolish one at that. She never should have used love potions to try and ensnare someone who was not meant for her. In her fall, she took others with her, truly unwise if her intent was keeping the existence of wizardry a secret.
Henry VIII did finally get a male heir, only it was a poor, sickly thing. The son managed to live to rule, but not for long. The mother died due to an illness common to women after they have born a child.
Perhaps the divorce of Anne of Cleves was fair; neither party in the marriage wished it to continue; indeed, she was taken as Henry VIII's sister.
But the next is not so forgivable: Henry VIII chose his next wife, a young wife. Catherin Howard. He did give her a choice, but it was not as much of one as one would think; can one truly deny your true sovereign? She was executed for unfaithfulness with a man of Henry VIII's chamber. Her last words: "I die a Queen, but I would rather die the wife of Culpeper".
His final and last queen was the only one to survive his reign. Katherine Parr.
Six wives.
Only one survived him.
He killed three using correct knowledge.
He killed women.
Yet he is not considered evil.
So why am I? I am simply acting on my knowledge.
I am considered evil
Yet I have given a reason for young wizards and witches to be pushed to the edges of their abilities, I have given reason to raise the standards in all wizarding schools, I have created a power base that is so hard to topple.
Yet I am considered evil.
I have killed many, or at least ordered the deaths and torture of many.
And I know I am evil.
But is what I do so horrible?
Every human being starts out as something, either inherently evil, or inherently good.
Life is only the powers in this world trying to bring order to chaos.
I have sent many lives to their end.
Am I not helping in the categorization, the organization of chaos?
Does that make me evil?
When all chaos is finally made sense of, this world will end. Perhaps new order will come, perhaps we will finally have a utopia.
But utopia means "no place". Only due to Thomas More's book, Utopia, has the word come to mean "paradise".
So when the world ends, will we come to paradise? Or will the world end and all matter obliterated?
To find the answer, one must use the only method available.
Am I evil for my curiosity?
Am I evil in my choice of catharsis of this world, trying to find the ultimate end?
Does that make me evil?
When I kill Muggles and Muggle-Borns, am I not simply bringing them to their ultimate fate that they must face no matter what?
Does that make me evil?
When I order my followers to torture little babes to crumble the walls of my opposition's mind, am I not simply following the philosophy of the end justifies the means?
Does that make me evil?
When I conduct experiment after experiment to continue my life beyond natural endurance, am I not simply doing what countless others have done in a quest for immortal life, not yet willing to pass Death's gateway?
Does that make me evil?
Or is it simply a mix of all of the above, that has come together in the combination that is myself, that coils around, making my psyche, my id, my ego, my superego, that encourages the belief that I am insane?
Perhaps I have simply not only purged the "good" from myself, but in one of the experiments, perhaps I have managed to strip away my superego: I am no untroubled by my conscience, so there is no voice in my head telling me to do what is "right".
Does that make me evil?
I will never know.
I will never know what mysterious element makes me evil.
I will never know what makes me.
A/N: Does anyone ever read these? Well, if you are and don't mind slash, aka homosexual relationships, can you R+R my other story, Essence of Your Life? I'm still trying to decide whether or not I'm going to continue writing it.
Perfect
Throughout the ages, human beings have fought.
They fight for glory, riches, values, religion, personal opinions, perhaps even just for the sake of a personal argument and their temperament happens to be rather bloodthirsty.
Human nature is filled with blood and a thirst for conflict.
So why am I to be labeled as a tyrant, as the executioner of thousands, when I am simply following my own nature? I am simply being what is most inherently human.
I have decided against the futile effort of wrestling with your own nature to try and win the approval of others, never fully receiving it.
This way, I give the approval, and disapproval when the occasion merits.
Instead of looking up at others, I am looked up to.
Does that make me evil?
But is any human being pure evil? Is any human being pure good?
I once thought that I must have had some spark of what they call goodness within me, but it has been purged through countless attempts at immortality and simply the weight of life.
My father left my mother simply because she was born a certain way, because of her blood. He also left myself, still a child, because my mother had not told him all of her secrets when they were wed.
Is he not also evil? He left a new mother and a young baby to fend for themselves simply because he happened to be a prude. His decision could have caused the death of both myself and my mother, and he fully knew that.
Is that not also evil?
I simply pay back retribution as is due.
Does that make me evil?
I have simply chosen people to carry out my judgments.
Does that make me evil?
It is not that that makes me evil because there have been others to have passed judgment and have indeed been hailed heroic. Indeed, the Four Founders, Gryffindor, Hufflepuff, Ravenclaw, and Slytherin, they all passed judgment on the Muggles and found them to be wanting.
Rather than purging them from the earth, they chose to build a school as sanctuary for magical folk. But they still passed judgement.
That does not make them evil.
So am I labeled as a tyrant because I know Muggle blood is lower than filth and act on that knowledge?
Henry VIII of England divorced two wives, execute two wives, and inadvertently caused the death of another wife due to what his entire realm knew: he must have a male heir.
That is why he divorced Catherine of Aragon, a Spanish princess, his brother's widow. Rumor has it that either he or Anne Boleyn, his second wife, poisoned the Spanish Princess who had bore Henry VIII a daughter, known to history as Bloody Mary.
That is why he ordered the execution of his second wife: he acted on the knowledge that Anne Boleyn was a witch; she was a witch and a foolish one at that. She never should have used love potions to try and ensnare someone who was not meant for her. In her fall, she took others with her, truly unwise if her intent was keeping the existence of wizardry a secret.
Henry VIII did finally get a male heir, only it was a poor, sickly thing. The son managed to live to rule, but not for long. The mother died due to an illness common to women after they have born a child.
Perhaps the divorce of Anne of Cleves was fair; neither party in the marriage wished it to continue; indeed, she was taken as Henry VIII's sister.
But the next is not so forgivable: Henry VIII chose his next wife, a young wife. Catherin Howard. He did give her a choice, but it was not as much of one as one would think; can one truly deny your true sovereign? She was executed for unfaithfulness with a man of Henry VIII's chamber. Her last words: "I die a Queen, but I would rather die the wife of Culpeper".
His final and last queen was the only one to survive his reign. Katherine Parr.
Six wives.
Only one survived him.
He killed three using correct knowledge.
He killed women.
Yet he is not considered evil.
So why am I? I am simply acting on my knowledge.
I am considered evil
Yet I have given a reason for young wizards and witches to be pushed to the edges of their abilities, I have given reason to raise the standards in all wizarding schools, I have created a power base that is so hard to topple.
Yet I am considered evil.
I have killed many, or at least ordered the deaths and torture of many.
And I know I am evil.
But is what I do so horrible?
Every human being starts out as something, either inherently evil, or inherently good.
Life is only the powers in this world trying to bring order to chaos.
I have sent many lives to their end.
Am I not helping in the categorization, the organization of chaos?
Does that make me evil?
When all chaos is finally made sense of, this world will end. Perhaps new order will come, perhaps we will finally have a utopia.
But utopia means "no place". Only due to Thomas More's book, Utopia, has the word come to mean "paradise".
So when the world ends, will we come to paradise? Or will the world end and all matter obliterated?
To find the answer, one must use the only method available.
Am I evil for my curiosity?
Am I evil in my choice of catharsis of this world, trying to find the ultimate end?
Does that make me evil?
When I kill Muggles and Muggle-Borns, am I not simply bringing them to their ultimate fate that they must face no matter what?
Does that make me evil?
When I order my followers to torture little babes to crumble the walls of my opposition's mind, am I not simply following the philosophy of the end justifies the means?
Does that make me evil?
When I conduct experiment after experiment to continue my life beyond natural endurance, am I not simply doing what countless others have done in a quest for immortal life, not yet willing to pass Death's gateway?
Does that make me evil?
Or is it simply a mix of all of the above, that has come together in the combination that is myself, that coils around, making my psyche, my id, my ego, my superego, that encourages the belief that I am insane?
Perhaps I have simply not only purged the "good" from myself, but in one of the experiments, perhaps I have managed to strip away my superego: I am no untroubled by my conscience, so there is no voice in my head telling me to do what is "right".
Does that make me evil?
I will never know.
I will never know what mysterious element makes me evil.
I will never know what makes me.