A/N : So that you won't hate me that much, i offer the Chap 11.
Yeah they'll work things out, sooner than you think!
I'm not that mean for those who thought i was! Lol
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Chap 11 : I feel you, do you feel me?
Alec pulled away and put a distance between him and her.
"What's wrong Alec?"
"Do you forgive me?" He asked as an answer.
"Of course i do." Rachel said smiling.
"Thank you." He breathed. "I needed to know that."
She then, tried again to close the gap between them but he took a step backward.
"What's wrong?" she asked again.
"I...i need to talk to someone...about this...i'll see you later, ok?"
He didn't event bother to wait for her answer and blurred toward Terminal City.
Max wanted to disappear, she couldn't stop her tears from falling and she was beginning to sob really loudly when she reached her appartment in TC. Some X, seeing their leader that powerless and crying made all people wonder what was going on. Probably the norm, some of them thought.
She didn't know exactly what she was doing, but, she was packing. Then she took her bag and went to her motorcycle. She ignored totally the little voice inside her head saying what are you doing? She was leaving, that's what her body was doing. Though she didn't know where she was going.
She bumped into an X5 who was blurring.
"Sorry." She said.
"It's my fault. I wasn't...Max?"
She raised her head to face Alec.
"What's wrong? What's with the bag? You leaving?" he questionned.
This was totally her : running away when things got rough. But he saw the tears that were still running down her cheeks. She didn't say a word.
"We need to talk. About yesterday." He stated.
"What about yesterday?" she managed to say, her voice still small.
"You kissed me back." 494 stated.
"So? I was drunk." She said. She was defending herself. From what? From hurting. It already hurt to much to know that now the love of his life was back and that she has no place in his heart. Except, that of a friend.
"Is that all it was for you? It didn't mean anything?" he asked his voice sharper than intended.
"Oh God Alec! Don't hurt me! Please, i couldn't bare it! Don't! Please." She pleaded.
"I won't, i promised." He soothed.
Then she looked into his eyes as if searching for something, an answer, well, something that would tell her that she could tell him how she felt.
"Goddam it Max! Talk to me!" he yelled.
A lilttle croud was now gathering around them and wondering what was the argument between their two favorite X5.
"Come on Max! You must feel something, don't you? We kissed and now Rachel's back! Don't tell me you don't give a shit about it!" he prayed that those assumptions were true.
"What do you want me to say Alec? huh? That you can have my approval?" she yelled back. "You ain't having that approval!"
"Approval for what?" he asked frowning.
"For you to live with her. Now that you found out she's not dead...I know you're going to leave." She was back to her small voice.
"So you decided that you would be the first between us to leave. Just to do it before me? How childish is that? You're acting like a spoiled little girl!"
"I'm leaving because i'm in love with you Alec!" she screamed out loud not caring anymore if the entire population of Terminal City and its surroundings would hear her. "I'm leaving because it hurts to be next to you, and you not knowing how i feel, or not caring about it, and to be for you just a friend among others."
He couldn't believe his ears, Max had just said that she was in love with him. When he snapped back to reality, she was no longer in front of him, she had reached her bike.
He blurred to get to her.
"So that's it! You're going leave me like that!" he said harshly.
"I shouldn't have said that, i guess you just found something to tease me about until the end of my life. But that's ok. I just don't want to be around when you two lovebirds will ...Argh...i don't want to think about that...i'm sorry i told you too many times you were a screw up. I can assure you, you're not! Now let me leave Alec. You just won!" she said, still avoiding his gaze.
"You're really self centered, aren't you!" he said laughing nervously. "Max, i don't love Rachel! I love you!"
"But...but she said, she loves you." She sobbed.
"Max, i don't want you to go. I want you to stay with me, i want you to love me! I love you." It was his turn to scream oud loud his feelings. "God Max, i love you so much it hurts to see you sometimes..."
She didn't let him finish his sentence and shut him up by kissing him.
The croud who has been following the scene and the argument, cheered.
The kiss lasted until both of them gasped for air.
"I love you." He whispered in her ear.
"I love you too." She whispered back.
"Come on, let's not stay outside, people start staring at us." He said quietly.
"Don't care." She replied in a girlie voice.
"If i take you back at your home, you'll get to kiss me more." He suggested.
A smile that reached her eyes appeared on her face and Alec lifted her up and took her home.
Dix, Mole, Joshua, Zane and Ledge were observing the two X5 from afar.
"Told ya all they'll get together today!" exclaimed Zane. "Pay up!" he continued as his fellow transgenics handed him some money.
"About damn time!" commented Mole as he gave his money away.
"Aw! Don't make that face Luke. Come on, i'll buy you a drink at the mess hall!"
"You don't pay anything at the mess hall." Stated Joshua.
"That's the point!" said Zane smiling widely.
His friends just shook their head and went back to what they were doing.
Alec let go of Max once they got in her appartment. It's not like they were going to jump on each other once they were out of sight, right?
Right! Once she was on her feet again, Max turned to Alec and put her arms behind his neck and leaned onto him so hers lips would met his. The kiss was soft, at first but then, it grew more hungrier and passionate, showing by the dance of their tongues how they both craved the other's body. Alec's hands were already under Max's t-shirt. Her caramel skin was so smooth and soft, he had to taste her and slowly he pulled away from their passionate kiss and placed featherlight kisses down her neck. She moaned in response.
And then he bit her shoulder. Max groaned with pleasure.
"Alec..." she whispered.
"Max." His tone was serious.
"Max." He repeated.
Her eyes snapped open.
"What?" she asked.
"Are you sure about this? Once we cross this line, there's no coming back."
For the second time that day, she shut him up with a kiss.
"Would you stop talking and do me!" she ordered.
"Yes ma'am." He grinned.
When she woke up the day after, Max felt a warm body to which she was curled up, a pair of strong harms were around her waist. She never slept that much before. Either it was because she was really tired, or because she was so happy and she felt so peaceful that she had been able to sleep more than two hours (which was her record yet!) She must have been asleep for five hours now. She wanted to move but felt all her muscles tense. They were all sore and she smiled at what had caused them to be sore. Alec and her had made love the entire day until they both were too exhausted to continue. It was around midnight then.
It was still dark outside. Happy or not, tired or not, she still had shark DNA so she couldn't stand sleeping much.
She needed to get up and in her attempt Alec woke up.
"Hey." He said softly.
"Hey." She replied. "You know you don't have to wake up now."
"Stay with me." He said and he tightened up his grip on her waist.
"Ok. But i don't want to sleep anymore." She explained.
"But i do." He pouted.
She smiled and let him lay his head in the crock of her neck.
After five minutes, she had to ask him. Not that she wasn't sure of what she was doing, but she wasn't sure of him. Bad habbits maybe. Anyway she had to know.
"Alec?" she whispered. She knew that he wasn't asleep anymore.
"Mmm?"
"What happened with Rachel?" she asked hesitantly.
His eyes snapped up open and he stared at her. He felt the fear from her. What is she afraid of? I'm here with her.
"She said she loved me. But you know that."
"And, don't you..." she couldn't even pronounce the words.
"I do. But not the way i used to." He knew she needed to be reassured. "I'm not going anywhere Max. I'm here. And i'm here to stay." He cupped her cheek and kissed her gently. "What i needed from her is her forgiveness. For what i did, though with you i understood that i didn't push the button, i didn't killed her. It was Manticore who did it. Well she's not dead."
Flashback
Three months after the beginning of the siege.
Max and Alec were on her new high place.
"It's not worth the Space Needle, huh?" he joked.
"No. But it's quiet." Max said quietly.
"Thanks for showing this to me."
"I figured that maybe you would need some time for you. It's been one year now."
She remembered he thought. She was the only one here to know really what happened last year.
"I know that's why you're not really yourself lately." She continued. "If you need to talk, you know where to find me right?" she asked.
He nodded in silence and she rose on her feet to leave him alone.
"Wait." He suddenly said. "I told her that ...what i was...that she was my job...she was so angry at me, and confused and she felt betrayed...i saw her eyes go from love to hatred...she slapped me and ran toward the car...but it was too late..."
She took him in her arms and stroked him.
"It wasn't your fault." She stated. "You're not the one who pushed the button."
"But i lay the explosives..." he sobbed.
"Listen to me...you're not the one who pushed the button...do you understand what i'm saying Alec."
He nodded.
"I had a hard time figuring something like that...Eva, she was one of my siblings...the night we escaped...Lydecker killed her while she was pointing her gun at him...he shot her without even blinking..." she took a deep breath and then continued. "She died protecting me...i always felt responsible...since that night, i don't guns...but i know by now, that it wasn't my fault, i didn't pull the trigger, Lydecker did!" she said harshly. "And i can tell you that you're not responsible of Rachel's death."
"Thank you for sharing that with me." He whispered.
"She loved you. Do you think that it was a simple coincidence that you found out about her, last year. She was waiting for you Alec. She forgave you."
End Flashback.
"But i needed her to tell me that she forgave me herself. Thank you for finding her." He said.
"But it wasn't me, actually. It was Logan. I don't know how he did it."
"I think i know why he did it." Stated Alec.
"Why?"
"He didn't want you to be with me."
"But i told him nothing about my feelings for you..." she said puzzled.
"I sort of told you him about mine. He knew you were searching for a mate from me."
"Why did you tell him?" she asked.
"I don't know, i guess he annoyed me. And there he was, talking to me at Crash like nothing happened and acting like he didn't screw Asha."
Flashback.
Seattle-Crash-The first week of Max's dates.
"Hey Alec!" Logan greeted.
Alec winced when he heard the old man. He was sitting with a blond haired girl and talking to her.
"So what's up?" Logan asked.
"Don't touch me Logan, or i'll bit!" warned Alec.
"Hey! What's with the face, not happy to see me!" Eyes Only teased.
"What's wrong with you Logan? I'm not your friend! I've never been, and i'll certainly never will, not after what you did to Max."
"Ouh! I'm afraid." Said Logan.
"You should be." Replied seriously Alec.
"I didn't do anything wrong!" snapped Logan.
"Except, having sex with another woman." Said Alec.
"I wasn't my fault, she showed up and than she was all over me...i mean..."
"Whatever Logan! But i don't think she had a trigger on your head when you did it." Snapped Alec.
"Hey! Don't take that tone with me!" said Logan.
"Logan, what do you want? I have some company here!" he said and smiled to the girl though he already knew that he was going to go home without her. The girl smiled in return and blushed.
"I wanted to talk to Max." The older man said.
"So? None of my business is it?"
"I know your close to her, so maybe..."
"I could tell her that it wasn't a big deal that you screwed Asha, right?" he turned to face Logan a minute then went back to the girl who was sitting next to him. "Sweetheart, would you leave us a moment." He told the girl. The blond nodded in agreement. Alec turned again to face Eyes Only.
"Do you really think Logan that she's going to forgive for that?"
"Yeah!" he said, really believing it.
Alec laughed. "Come on, we all know she won't! And that is good for us." The transgenic informed.
"When you say 'us', it's mostly you."
"What do you mean Logan?"
"I saw the way you look at her! You want her! That's why you don't want her to talk to me, so we could work thing out!"
"You're really full of yourself!" grunted the X5. "Get over it Logan! She doesn't want to be with you anymore. And anyway, she doesn't have the choice anymore!"
"What do you mean? What did you do to her?"
"Me? Nothing. But soon, she'll be out of reach for you. She's not with you anymore, so now she can mate." He explained.
"What do you mean 'mate'?"
"You want a picture Logan?!"
"Nah, nah! She won't do that!" said Logan shooking his head in disbelief.
"Max is a healthy X5, and nowadays, there is not many of us left anymore. Some died during the siege, some are now back to the missions they did, dangerous ones. And it's not safe for us to be what we are. The transgenic council have decided that all X5, in fact, all transgenics, should be mated. As our leader, she was allowed to continue her relationship with you. That and the fact that i and Joshua protected you and that in the tabloids it was nice to see a picture of a transgenic without monster written on it, and instead, 'romance with a revved up woman" or whatever." He paused. "But now, everyone knows in TC that she's not with you anymore, and she doesn't plan to go back to you. So she has to mate. She's a responsible woman, she will do it. And maybe fortunately for me, she'll choose me!"
"But that's sick!" Logan shrieked.
"Well you can yell and shout, but i can tell you this, by the end of the month, that woman, will be mine."
End Flashback.
"My turn now." Alec said as he nuzzled her neck.
"What do you want to know?" she said.
"Well, you said you loved me."
"You doubt it?" she teased.
"No, but i want to know when exactly..."
"When i fell for you..." she sighed, "Remember when we rescued Ralph and her team."
"Yeah?"
"When you soothed Bullet and told him that it was going to okay...first time i saw you as a potential boyfriend...first time i saw that there was more than a soldier in you..."
"Then why did you always hit me?"
"Ah come on...you can't deny that sometimes you really screw thing up...plus it gave me a reason to touch you... I was in Denial. That's how OC calls it." She smiled at him.
"I knew it!" he laughed. "I always knew it." He tickled her and she bursted out laughing.